he/they | It's okay not to have anything profound to say sometimes
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i got new books!! (the goldfinch by donna tartt and farenheight 451)
the antidote to sadness is not laughter, but expression
Hey… buddy. I need an idea for a zine. Something good enough for 8 pages of drawing with a mouse. And if I like what the marbles rattling around in your head say? Who knows. God knows they're sharp enough.
First of all i love the song
as for a zine idk honestly but ive made one that defines a bunch of different words
but also you could do like an odyssey type thing with a mouse tryna get somewhere or do something but they keep getting inturrupted or distracted?
my hair's getting long again
Yes, he's (an asshole / embarrassing himself / an absolute loser), but he's (doing it on purpose / trying his best / completely oblivious to the fact)
Hi cool kid in my notes
do you wan be moots?
hello even cooler kid in my asks
that would be nice yes
the pipeline from "undiagnosed but something is definitely wrong" to "diagnosed but my parents don't believe it" is very real, be warned
AAAH OH MY GOD THANK YOUU your art style is so pretty and i love the colours <3 !!
Sorry @leftoverspacedust I accidentally gave her a whole family
perhaps we both like exactly the same music BUT i like it in a much deeper, more alternative, more indie way than you, making me cooler and superior by far. (delusion)
okay, lowk accurate. very fun to do tbh
leaving tags open!!
found a fun little personality test!
i am open tagging as always bc i wanna see everyone’s results!!!!!!
You don't have to force yourself into things, you know. You're breaking your own heart.
Very long list of things i loved in Hamilton
"Alexshander hamilton" in the first song (I'm crying hes so pathetic i love him)
*clicks* "YES."
"He looked at me like I was stupid I'm NOT STUPID."
Laurens tapping on the table <3
"If you stand for nothing Burr what'll you fall for?"
"Who are you? / Who are you? / Whew are yew?"
"ENTER ME" (he says in parenthesis)
"Ahnarchy? how you say? AHH ANARCHY!"
"I got you knuckleheads in Loco Parentis,"
"Laurens i like you a lot ;)"
"Are we a nation of states? Whats the state of our nation?"
When they nearly kiss in the story of tonight.
"EXCUSE ME MISS I KNOW ITS NOT FUNNY BUT YOUR PERFUME SMELLS LIKE YOUR DADDY'S GOT MONEY!"
"Burr you disgust me." "Ah, so you've discussed me? I'm a trust fund baby you can trust me ;)"
"HEAR YE HEAR YE!!" 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥
Herc and Laff pushing him forward and Burr pushing him back
"You cry in your tea which you throw in the sea when you see me go by,"
Vocals in "oceans rise, empires fall" go down on rise and up on fall. musical equivalent of writing blue in red pen.
"Dying is easy, young man, living is harder." ATE??
"We're reliable with the LADIES!"
"Martha Washington named her feral tom cat after him-" "-thats true :D"
"Is it a question of if, Burr, or which one ;)"
"Hey, hey, hey, hey," *Eyefucks the front row of the audience*
"Im just saying if you really loved me you would share him ;)"
THE DANCE PLS.
THE GROWL IN "As long as I'm alive Eliza swear to god you'll never feel so-"
"My life is going fine because Eliza's in it <3"
"Hes penniless hes flying by the seat of his pants-"
"Cause if the tomcat can get married!"
"To the newly not poor of us!" "HA"
"Well iiii heeeard,,,, you gottaspecialsomeone on the siiiiiidee buurrrr,"
*softly* "Oh shit.."
"_ doesn't discriminate between the sinners and the saints, it takes and it takes and it takes and we keep _ anyway, we _ and we _ and we _ and we make our mistakes,"
"CHICKA- PLOW" 😭
"Were gonna fly a lot of flags half mast." "Raise a glass-"
"IM A GENERAL, WHEEEE!"
"you shot him in the side, YES HE YEILDS??"
"hear comes the general " - "This should be fun"
"John should've shot him in the mouth, that would've shut him up"
"EVERYONEGIVEITUPFORAMERICASFAVORITEFIGHTINGFRENCHMAN"
"Monsieur Hamilton!" "Monsieur Lafayette!"
"Immigrants. We get the job done."
"HERCULES MULLIGAN!"
"I'm so blue." *stomps, lights go blue*
"Awesome, wow."
"Bright young man :)" "Yo who the f- is this??"
"You're a better lawyer than me" "Okay? -_-"
"The new US constitution??"
"Hamilton wrote. The other fIFTY ONE-"
"Treasury or state. Treasuary or state. Sir do you want me to run the treasury or the state department."
"Lesgo 😏"
"Where have you been?" "Uhh, France?"
All of the cabinet battles. Just. Yes.
Macbeth reference!!
"MY NAME IS PHILLIP 🗣️🗣️ I AM A POET 🔥🔥"
"My dearest,,,,,,,Angelicaaaa"
his shy little "Hi"
"John Adams doesn't have a real job anyway :)"
"That was my wife you decided to-" "Fuuuuu"
"That's a lot less work" "We oughta give it a try"
*recites newtons 3rd law cutely*
"We smack each other in the press" (this is historically accurate)
"Which i wrote-!"
"Somebody needs to stand up to his mouth!"
"SOTHERN MOTHERFUCKING DEMOCRATIC REPUBLICANS🗣️🗣️🔥🔥"
"Sir, i dont know what you heard but whatever it was JEFFERSON STARTED IT!"
"I'm sorry what. 😃"
"I wasn't aware that was something a person could do... I'm ✨perplexed✨."
"""""""Country"""""""
*British* "JoHn AdAmS?!?!1?!3?2!"
"That poor man they're going to eat him alive!!!"
"they will tear each other into pieces, Jesus Christ this will be fun!! (giggles) President John Adams - Good luck!"
"As long as he can hold a pen he's a threat" PLSS
"sENATOR BURR?? What is this??"
"✨An immigrant embezzling our government funds✨"
".....my God?"
"Are my answers to your satisFACtion."
"the ladies say that's not where the resemblance stops ;)"
"y'all look pretty good in your frocks, how about when i get back we all strip down to our socks ;D"
"ALEXANDER DID YOU KNOW!?!???" *Alex, probably: iimaginedeathsomuchitfeelsmorelikeamemory-*
Hamilton: *mourning* The whole country: "JEFFERSON OR BURRR"
"Can we get back to politics? 😒" "please??🥺"
"AT LEAST THEY KNOW I KNOW WHERE FRANCE IS. 😒"
"Honestly, its kinda draining! 😃"
"YOU HEAR THIS GUY? Man openly campaigns against me talking bout i look forward to our partnership 😂"
"Cause I'm the president 😉"
"Heres an itemized list of 30 years of dissagrements" "Sweet Jesus -"
The way they fit the counting in The World Was Wide Enough
the voice crack in "This man will NOT make an orphan of my daughter,"
The way his whole panic attack stopped when he said "Eliza".
Sometimes i wonder how Phillip Hamilton intended to be "like [his] father but bolder" when his father is literally ALEXANDER HAMILTON, but then i remember he arranges a threesome with two girls upon meeting them then goes and challenges a stranger to a duel (historically he was drunk when he did this and only sobered up while he was stood there about to duel him) and im like oh okay then. any bolder than good ol a.ham and you verge on being really self destructive and kinda horny.
(also not only his he his fathers son he is also clearly related to eliza cos he was like "hello mr eaker how was your show :))))))" )
guys i think i might be gender fluid. but the kind that changes presentation and gender ✨feeling✨ but has the same pronouns
sometimes i wonder if i’m really a perfectionist and then i remember that i have an incredibly detailed marauders era timeline that has every full moon, prank, birthday, and any important music that was released down to the day just in case one day i want to write fanfiction for this god forsaken fandom.
(and don’t worry it’s all fact checked and accurate)
(it’s all canon compliant and anything that has canon dates is dated [plus fact checked] there but there is a lot of fanon/ headcanons too)
okay it won’t let me put this in a reply so here it is lol
sorry i cried in front of you. do you still think im cool?
its me and my twelve cold half cups of tea against the world
I can't bear the thought of my soul being hideous
--Oscar Wilde, The picture of Dorian Gray
mmmmmm platonic prongsfoot and platonic moonwater paired with romantic jegulus and wolfstar.....
Sigma men (13 year old andrew tate fans) when a crazy raging woke feminist (their mum) disrespects their traditional masculine values (takes away their xbox)
In the first verse its him being hopelessly in love. I specifically used the phrase "You were mine" over and over in reference to the signing of all their letters between each other with "yrs" and the last one was signed "yrs forever" and he sent it a day before Laurens died so we dont know if he even got it. Never getting over that. Then we have the classic homophobic dad, shattering his manic pixie girl dreams (he wanted to live in a cottage in the woods with Alex and 17 cats). Then the next verse is about how helpless he made him feel (reference) and you know when you like someone and its all wobbly and they consume your every waking thought and they can send you spiraling with a glance. Yeah that. Then "trying to find an explanation for every line" is him panicking because what if people find out? How will I make them think we were just guys being bros when its so painfully obvious I loved him? Are we throwing away our shot (reference) at making the history books with this relationship? Is it worth it? Then he realises that history has its ways of doing that for them, somewhere along the line it'll get twisted and our relationship will be called platonic. Then he's wondering if he really wants that? It's dangerous to pretend. It's just not true. Homophobic dad part 2 when he finds the letters. [Enter homophobic dog meme: I know what you are] Now he turns on Alex, he says Alex doesn't care for their legacy, Laurens worries for their impact on history which he might not get to make if this gets out. "they will erase us from the narrative" and Laurens being glad they will, and then the repeated phrase "the war never ended". this bit is important because it has a double meaning. 1: When the war ended, he died straight after, so yes, for him the war never ended it pretty much carried on to the end of his life. 2: His inner battles/war over his relationship w Hamilton and all the other internal stuff, which is what the song is about. This is followed up by the realisation that the world has no right to know about their personal lives, basically. Then the final decision to keep the memories. The last line is a quiet "i hope they dont burn" in reference to the letters/memories.
Oof thats a lot. okay i hope you enjoyed
I saved every letter you wrote me
From the moment I read them,
I knew you were mine
You said you were mine
You really were mine
Do you know what my father said
When I ripped your first letter open?
He said, "Be careful with that one, son
I don't see a point in you hoping,"
You and your words flooded my senses.
Your sentences left me defenseless
You ruined palaces with your paragraphs
You wrecked cathedrals
I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me
Trying to find an explanation for every line
Each word is a sign
You really were mine
The world could just burn
Burn
They'll destroy all the letters I wrote you
They'll fool the whole world into thinking that we were just friends
A dangerous game
They have hidden our lives.
Do you know what my father said
When he found the letters in file
He said, "In all your affections,
He is making you more than just smile,"
You and your words,
No care for our legacy
Your sentences border on senseless
And I am made paranoid by every paragraph
How will they perceive you?
You, you, you
They will erase us from the narrative
Let future historians wonder,
What happened to Laurens?
When the war ended
The war never ended
I watch my heart burn
Watching it burn
The world has no right to my heart
The world cannot see in my head
They don't get to know what I said
They're burning the memories
Burning the letters
That might have exposed you
I wish you could stay in my heart
You won't leave your place in my head
I'll love you in silence instead
I'm keeping the memories of when you were mine
I hope they don't burn
So this is a rewrite of Burn from Hamilton in the perspective of John Laurens because they were gay. Idk what else to say tbh. ill post an analysis of it later if i can be bothered
I saved every letter you wrote me
From the moment I read them,
I knew you were mine
You said you were mine
You really were mine
Do you know what my father said
When I ripped your first letter open?
He said, "Be careful with that one, son
I don't see a point in you hoping,"
You and your words flooded my senses.
Your sentences left me defenseless
You ruined palaces with your paragraphs
You wrecked cathedrals
I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me
Trying to find an explanation for every line
Each word is a sign
You really were mine
The world could just burn
Burn
They'll destroy all the letters I wrote you
They'll fool the whole world into thinking that we were just friends
A dangerous game
They have hidden our lives.
Do you know what my father said
When he found the letters in file
He said, "In all your affections,
He is making you more than just smile,"
You and your words,
No care for our legacy
Your sentences border on senseless
And I am made paranoid by every paragraph
How will they perceive you?
You, you, you
They will erase us from the narrative
Let future historians wonder,
What happened to Laurens?
When the war ended
The war never ended
I watch my heart burn
Watching it burn
The world has no right to my heart
The world cannot see in my head
They don't get to know what I said
They're burning the memories
Burning the letters
That might have exposed you
I wish you could stay in my heart
You won't leave your place in my head
I'll love you in silence instead
I'm keeping the memories of when you were mine
I hope they don't burn
So this is a rewrite of Burn from Hamilton in the perspective of John Laurens because they were gay. Idk what else to say tbh. ill post an analysis of it later if i can be bothered