Sorry I Cried In Front Of You. Do You Still Think Im Cool?

the Hamilton hyperfixation is taking over my soul btw

@iloverocks51 and @cottagecoretree.....

“man i’m glad none of my irl friends can see the shit i post on tumblr”

then i remember

the one

Everything sucks and I am not okay.

Okay then. Try these things. (mainly for neurodivergent people but really its for anyone who has a problem but Doesn't Know What)

SHORT TERM- i feel bad right now and need immediate relief

Get off your phone. Seriously

Drink a glass of water

Eat something with protein

Shower if you haven't already

Brush your teeth

Tidy your space a bit

Open a window and stretch your legs or go outside on a walk if you can

Say something nice to someone

Put on some music. Something relatively happy

Hug a living being (pet, sibling, parent, etc)

Change clothes or feel a nice texture or listen to some 8D music. Sometimes its a sensory thing

Get something small done. Reply to an email or something

Do something creative. Draw, write, sing, whatever

Learn some cool new information

Talk to someone. Phone a friend, talk to your parents, text someone, etc

Read a damn book (fanfic counts)

Sleep, or if you can't manage that, try to relax or meditate for 5 or 10 mins

If you have over excerted yourself physically mentally or emotionally, gove yourself a break.

LONG TERM - ive been feeling bad for a while and want to get a bit better overall

Try to talk to someone about life generally. You might just figure it out

Stop making suicide jokes. Yes, that includes ironically saying "i want to die" at any minor inconvenience. for me, this was changing it to "im going to commit a war crime" or "I'm going to buy a completely unnecessary amount of clothes". Be ridiculous with it. Keep the comedic value.

Stop being self depricating. Failed a maths test? "oh im just really bad at maths" turns to "my maths skills are unmatched. im a genius" it can be sarcastic. then youll get used to complimenting yourself and will do it unironically out of habit

Change something. For me this was cutting my hair. i felt out of control. i cut my hair because i couldn't do anything else. this could be joining a club, buying new clothes, dying your hair, choosing a new perfume or deodorant. Anything that makes you feel in control

I might add more to the long term list in the future but this is it for now. You will get better, the silly little guy on the internet believes in you <3

I wish people would understand that not everything is for everyone to get. you will be left out of some conversations, a lot of art will not apply to you, you will not like things that people you like enjoy, and just because you cannot add to the topic of discussion or relate does not mean that it is not valued or worthwhile. the internet has coddled people to such a concerning extent that everyone feels like they need to vocally disagree with something just because they don’t get it. Knowing something, and genuinely getting it are not the same. NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR YOUUUUU

I feel like I was following you was it not following you wth

yeah i thought you were too, maybe the algorithm messed it up idk cos i swear we were moots

The picture of dorian gray is so good, i can read it over and over again and it never gets old!

its me and my silly little fantasy books against the world (i havent read most of them and dont intend to)

me listening to Hamilton as study motivation

i got new books!! (the goldfinch by donna tartt and farenheight 451)

Thanks for the tag!

Last song: If You Want To by beabadoobee

Favourite colour: green

Last book: The Secret History (currently re reading and annotating the song of Achilles)

Last tv show: i dont really watch shows but the last film i watched was Hamilton

Sweet/savoury/spicy: Sweet

Last thing i googled: stock image of a man holding a british and lgbt flags (i captioned it with "the marauders be like" and sent it to my friends)

Looking forward to: my friends coming over this weekend

currently obsessed with: Sharks

No pressure tags @woods3115 @inkprincesse @w1nterb3rrry

people i'd like to know better <3

tagged by @assignmentimprobable - thank you friend!

edit: also tagged by @redbelles thank you meg!!!

Last Song: marigolds by gwen stefani

Favorite Color: blue!

Last Book: the grandest stage by tyler kepner

Last TV Show: JAG (judge advocate general)

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: sweet

Last thing I googled: "NMOC aerosol"

Looking Forward To: may 1, when i will have some fucking clarity on [redacted].

Current Obsessions: jag all day all the time. i'm sure you all have seen the semi-regular tumblr breakdowns

Tagging: Going to tag the last few mutuals in my notifs! @ruztyryan @weisse-rose @sluttyhenley @captastra @pixlerelish @waxworkdaughter @vcollies @captainstressed and anyone else, just say I tagged you!