Hey Guys Im Back ☹️

very hungry

very demure

OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH HELP I'M GOING TO THE DOCTOR WHICH MEANS I NEED TO GET WEIGHED WHICH MEANS THAT ALL MY WORST FEARS ARE GONNA COME TRUE AND I HAVEN'T ACTUALLY LOST ANY WEIGHT AND THE DOCTOR IS GONNA CALL ME OVERWEIGHT AND MY MOM IS GONNA UNDERSTAND WHY I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT BC I'M SO FUCKING GIGANTIC

so last night i was on facetime with my boyfriend and i said that all of my weight goes to my stomach and thighs, not to my ass or b00bs (if i'm gonna be fat i might as well have the goods to go along w it, right?) and this MALE said, "no it doesn't, i've noticed" LIKE WDYM??!!! I'VE LOST WEIGHT??!!! I HAVEN'T GAINED ANY TO GO ANYWHERE??????!!!!!

guys what if i just don't eat and when i stand up i faint and everyone worries about me <3

the doctor told me i weighed 124.8 pounds yesterday

when i was in 7th grade i weighed 98, why can't i be back there?

i have grown five inches since 2022 though so that's kinda cool

tell me how i chewed like 80 pieces of gum in the first two weeks of school

what if i draw an X on my hand so that anytime i reach for food i'll see it

too real i'm 5'4 (lowk up there am i right :P) and lit always have bigger hands and feet than everyone i know, even my guy friends

I wish I had naturally small hands and feet :(

i was at cheer today and i was doing a backbend and i could feel my hip bones, which lately have gotten much more defined, and i stood up and started saying something to my friend about them and she said "yeah they're so sharp" HELLLL YEAHHH THEY ARE BABBYYYY

also tho they hurt when i lay down soooo that's not cute

if i had a smaller ribcage i think all of my problems would be solved 🎀