It Won’t Stop! It Won’t Even Let Me Sleep.

I am not feeling anything.... nothing at all.

No anger , love , hatred, care , guilt, sadness , happy ,pain and whatever feelings there exists.

I feel nothing.

I wanna be vulnerable again , wanna cry it all out , wanna laugh being happy .

I want to feel it!

Want that serotonin, dopamine, gaba to hit my dormant receptors and produce feelings , normal feelings which everyone deserves , ME TOO!.

Why after happy morning,

there are sad nights?

When I hear the voice of echoing rain drops embracing my ear, it reminds me of something I would never let go.

Something so precious to be lost in the world full of usless , wanted , materialistic world.

It is the thing which connects one to oneself and to others.

Like the wedding photograph of the couple , hanging behind the bed post or in living area , or hidden in the album , like the lost piece but never with the faded charm.

It is a bucket full of memories that everyone wish to cherish whole life and taking to the grave or making it memorable for souls who ever touched them.

Why? why? why? why don’t you listen?

So , you get up early with the hope that it will be a good day.

All cheered up , ready to conquer it.

But....

It turns out to be same day you have everyday.

The days are kept getting worse and it's harder to keep that smile and vigor on for everyone.

I can't give up too soon.

Eventually everything gets fine whether you survive or not.

Some people just look for a reason to leave..

A beautiful day ♥️

Life is too short to keep grudges...take everything as a part of your journey. 😊❤️