I Broke No Contact, Instantly Regretted It Necessary I Was Finally Starting Not To Feel Like A Price

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I have stopped at a restaurant and got bubble tea and two donut things. Very good food

Clearly it’s an unpopular opinion but I actually love season 4. It is not as good as season three but I think it is a perfect ending to an amazing series.

I know the problem with five and Lila being together is weird but other than that being uncomfy I think the season was AMAZING.

I also think the problem with five and Lila is not him being in the body of a like 20-25 year old ( I don’t remember et the exact age) I think it’s weird because it is his brothers wife.

But also I do be living for the drama. And also, it’s not like 5 acts like a teen. He is like 63. It was ahitty that Lila used him but I don’t think the age gap is the problem. His body is a full grown adult at that point.

I hate:

How often I need to go to therapy

How my mom treats my mental health

How my mom reacts to my choice to set boundaries

How my mom reacts to my plan in the future

The fact that my mom doesn’t like me having in person friends because she needs to drive me

The fact that even my best friends mom sees my moms flaws

The fact that I can’t do what I’m supposed to for my age but my mom refuses to get me diagnosed with ASD so I don’t have any conformation

The fact that the only person who treats me like I’m enough is my best friend

My English teacher

That one bitch in all my classes

All the stupid things my mom yells at me for

The fact that my mom said “I worry about you but I worry about how much you’re missing school for this” in response to me explain that my therapist wants me to go back next week

In conclusion: I am burnt out and can’t distinguish emotions except being angry and missing my best friend. Everything else feels muted and hopeless

BRIAN. No one wants those tour dates. Please please please do better ones. I want to go!!!!!

My bestie has learnt the horror and wonders of blue hair dye

@grey-loves-vikings

So, I know I don’t feel sexual attraction or romantic attraction. But I get this weird feeling sometimes. I thought it was gender envy because I only felt it towards guys but then I felt it toward Dixie who want a guy the other day.

It’s like I feel like I want to complement the person but I don’t because I don’t want them to think I want to fuck them.

It’s definitely not aesthetic attraction because I know what that feels like.

But like, can I think someone is attractive “romantically” but not have romantic feelings.

My allo friends always talks about thinking people are pretty or cute or good looking but then when I ask they say they aren’t into them in any way.

So is this just like extrem aesthetic attraction or is it something else?

Me and my squish are hanging out tomorrow and it’s not even part of our preset schedule. We be SO flowy

@grey-loves-dragons

Here’s my thought on the type of magical beings in bureau of magical things:

As we know, they exist. In the series they mention; trolls, tree nymphs, mermaids, gnomes, goblins, Minotaurs, ogres, pixies, dragons, and hobgoblins.

Now my theory is that these all fall into three categories

1: things that are sub categories of fairy/elf

2:things that are “accidents”

3: things that don’t exist

For group one these are things that are very similar to a fairy or an elf. For example pixies, and tree nymphs, gnomes

Group two are things that aren’t supposed to exist and happened through some magical accident. These would be like the minautaur, dragon and mermaids,

And group three would be creatures that are only mentioned as insults. It would be the same way we would use those as insults. If you call someone an ogre it’s an insult even though ogres don’t exist. Some of these would be ogres and trolls, goblins and hobgoblins

Re watching umbrella academy and I forgot how good it is. IM SO EXCITED FOR THE NEW SEASON