*at Shop When I Bought Bread And Vitegan*

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I'm learning Spanish. ¡HOLA AMIGOS!

Hey there, I hope you are doing well. I'm writing this post asking for a help. Yes, I need a help. I'm thinking of taking an additional language as one of the course for my university. The choices I have are French, Germany and Spanish. But the problem is that I'm not familiar with any of this languages. I understand that knowing an additional language will help me a lot in my future. But at the same time, I'm very worried about how I'm going to learn a language that is completely new to me among my never ending assignments and exams. I don't know what choice I should make. I don't want to give up on learning a new language but at the same time I'm so scared. Please help me make a decision.

Childhood memories 💕

When I was small, I used to go with my dad for grocery (?) shoppings. And I remember there was this one shop in Alor Gajah town, where is was similar to local marts. It was right in front of Peter uncle's old house and beside it was a bundle shop if I'm not wrong. It can also be seen from the traffic light at the T-junction which comes after passing the now newly opened shop lots with pizza hut, tea live, family mart and so on. So, every time I go there with my dad, he used to buy me this sweet. I loved this sweet that much. It tastes different and even it's colour looks unique (well, atleast for 5/6 year-old-me). I even remember saving it cause I was scared I might run out of it. But afterwards, I never got to eat it for a very long time.

But few days ago, I found this sweet again in one of the stores in UMT. And I was freaking happy. I just grabbed it without thinking hahahaha. Didn't even checked the expiry date until Kuganeshini reminded me of that hahahaha. Anyway, I was so happy I found this sweet again. Might even visit that shop more frequently now just for this sweet 🤭

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For the first time today I cried while talking to my mom after joined KMM. I always be very careful not to make my mom feel worried about me in KMM. But today I really couldnt control and I bursted out crying. I'll never forget this day. Those who made me cry be ready. I'll make sure you pay back for making me cry and making my mom feel worried too. Damn because of some useless selfish bitches i cried today and make my mom feel worried too. I make sure you all answer for this.

So the club I am part of is planning on doing some projects and they're apparently looking for program director to lead the programs. I would like to apply myself for the position but I am so scared of doing it. Because of some not good events from my past, I could seem to bring myself forward for any kind of events. I am scared that I'm going to be lost with no help or get myself stressed while working on the project. What if I really got lost without any help? What if I fail to finish the project and embarrass my advisor too? These questions are torturing me. I don't think I can ever stand my lecturer or my educator looking at me with that humiliating face as if I'm useless one more time. I don't even have any friends or just anyone to rely on. I really really wish to overcome this fear of mine. But it's too hard to do it. It's very scary despite my desire. What should I do?

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Kindness is everywhere

Every time you think, there is no more kindness left in the world, there will always be a person to prove to you that you're right. But at the same time, there will always be another person to prove you wrong. You just had to look around to see that person. Just like how someone wrapped me in blanket when I was sleeping in cold when they could've just ignored too.

Even when one bad thing happened and fucked up your day, there'll be another good thing waiting at the doorstep to make your day

Dont forget to open the door

Am i supposed to be grateful or not ?

The life i always wanted to live is got to live by others. Meanwhile i'm living a life others are dreaming to live. Coming to think of it i have never lived the life i've always wanted. It's sad to think that way but i have to be grateful with what i have rather than only thinking of those things that i dont have. I'm just not blessed enough.