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I won't say that I'm happy with your decision. I will also never say that I hate you for the decision you made. Because I believe you know your life and your dream so well than me or than anyone else. I believe that you know what you are doing and you are doing it for yourself. For yourself only.

All I want to say is I may not be happy with your decision but I will always support and cheer for you in your life. Because you are one of them who made me laugh when I don't even wanted to smile. The jokes of yours that made me laugh, the lessons I learnt from you, the time I spent with you and the memories we made together I will never ever forget them in my life. There were sometimes I wish it could be great if I too have the same attitude like you. But during those times you proved me that there can be only one like you. That's the reason why you were loved, being loved and will be loved by a lots of people.

As a friend and as a well wisher i would like to wish all the very best for your future endeavors. Be yourself and dont worry about what other might think. No matter how hard it gets, be brave and face it. I hope you'll always remember me like i remember you. All the best and I'm surely gonna miss you. Lots of love from me 💕💐

Hwaiting with your new life. Begin the new chapter of your life with a smile... oops! with a laugh on your face like you always do. Love you 😘

—MAP OF THE SOUL: Persona—

+ Translation Credits: @doyou_bangtan

I'M LOST

So, first i lost my teddy and until today i havent found it.Then i lost my earphones but it turned out to be in my trousers in the laundry basket.

Then i lost my calculator but it was actually mistook by the girl beside me.

Then i lost my chemistry assignment paper but then found it stucked in between one of my reference book. Then i lost the last page of my chemistry lab report. But later found it among the paper i used to scribble.

Today i lost my physics lab manual. I took all the books from my desk yo find that one book. It was right there but i couldnt see it. But later somehow i found it.

IM SO LOST.

If I decided to go for it that would be the biggest betrayal I can do to myself

So today I saw Zul (my classmate) drinking this one tamarind drink i used to drink when I was small so I asked him where to get that drink. He told me to buy it from the vending machine in front of library. So after submitting my physics workbook i walked all the way down using 'tangga 4 flat' to the vending machine in front of library. But the drink was not there. IT WAS EMPTY.

Then iI texted Zul asking where's the drink. He said he forgot to tell me that he bought the last one.

But then he suggested me to go to the vending machine in front of biology unit. So for that one drink i climbed again 'tangga 4 flat' and went to the vending machine in front of biology unit. *THANK GOD IT WAS THERE !* So i bought it and went to my dorm happily. It felt like my hardwork didnt went into vain. It was worth all the sweat i dropped. The End. Thank you for listening to me so far. Bye Bye. Im now happy with my drink.

This one small bottle made me so happy 😆

I thought that for the first time ever I am going to fight for what I want till the end. But in the end, I gave up. Again. But this time it wasn't because I wasn't brave enough but I didn't knew if that is really what I want, if that is worth fighting for. What if it wasn't what I wanted after all?

I'm 21 ❤

I turn 21 today. On 5th of January 2022. Somehow I'm very proud that I achieved this number. 21 years of living, how many times have I cried over so many ridiculous and heartbreaking things and how many times have I genuinely laugh out loud. 21 years of living, I have learnt a lot. And I want to keep on learning. And I want to see the world. not just the small world I've seen so far but the big wide world out there. I want to go and explore and maybe find a friend. It's been more than 6 years since I had a friend. since the last time, my ex so-called best friend left me without even telling me why. Oh wait, she did when I asked. She told me that my moody self was annoying and that she didn't wanted my friendship anymore. Well at least she had a reason for leaving, unlike the other so-called best friend I had, who stopped talking all of a sudden without any reason (rumors have it that her mother hated me for being friend with the girl she dislike so my wonderful ex best friend being the loyal daughter she is, cut off my friendship *sighs*). Thanks to god everything is in past tense. I haven't find any best friend or even a close friend since then but I honestly wish I will soon. And there it is my birthday wish. To find a best friend. But I don't want to force myself to find a friend. I don't think i cant effort to lose another friend after treating them as my best friend with my whole heart. That hurts a lot. A lot. I want best friend, my genuine and desperate wish. it feels so jealous to see everyone having a good time with their best friends, seeing them eating together, going out together and spending time together. I wish I'll have those days soon too.

And my second wish is to be brave. I know I've always been brave, but I wish I have a little more or maybe even a lot more of braveness. they said the first step is the scariest and once you move pass that everything else will fall into place. but the thing is, to take that very first step, the amount of courage ness you are going to need is indescribable. Some does it easily, and some needs that extra spoon of courage to take that first step. In my case, I think I'm going to need a whole bucket of that courage hahahaha. Like I said, I have always been brave, when i went to the beach alone for the first time when in matriculation (it still scares me how anything could have happened, just anything when that grab driver went to a wrong deserted place because i chose the place wrongly.) But don't worry. I don't make sill mistakes like choosing wrong destination anymore. You know I'm 21. Or even i had to go to hospital last year due to lack of Hb and almost got blood transfusion. I cried a lot but I was still brave for being able to face it. Well, at least for me. I know I'm brave but I would like to be more brave. I believe i will be soon.

I wanna live. live the life I want. be happy and do everything I wish I can. I want to be more brave.. Let's live; happily and bravely.

Forever Young

After watching the video of army singing Young Forever to bts at wembley i couldnt help but keep repeating the song to myself 💜 It was such a great moment ❤

Under the endless sky we sometimes are stucked under the same sky

"My time is coming, and when it hits the surface of the earth, people shall yield in admiration." 👑