Yesterday I Was Actively Fighting Tears While Staring At Ducks And Listening To Clairo In The Park On

just got my first good morning text and ew i dont like it i dont like it

it's 3:28am and i am so exhausted but i literally cannot fall asleep because i am too excited to eat pizza tmrw why am i literally a rat in nyc

- listening to nfr on loop

- being so over people

- fighting The Urge

all point to signs period is coming but she's not due for two weeks... right? aunt flow honey please come early i'd really appreciate not hosting you while traveling <3

i miss my friends

ugh almost got ASSAULTED by a bee ew like keep your chubby furry body away from me

fuck yeah just did yoga feel fresh and new and peaceful and calm intentions have been set body has been stretched and exercised i am so fkn ready to get ready for bed and attack tomorrow

genuinely tweaking rn... probs because period is in a week? but why am i on the verge of tears like wtf i have to be back at work in less than thirty minutes...

okay so you know how last week i had a REALLY SUCCESSFUL WORK CRUSH INTERACTION (granted i did absolutely nothing to prompt it but i do think bc i looked Very Cute (see: hair was wavy and was wearing my uo shirt with my zara slacks) and this was like the one time we were working in the same shift wc decided to take initiative? a girl can dream)

now i rarely see wc- they always schedule us opposite and so today this was like the only time im gonna interact with him until next week and dude. i fumbled so hard....... well to be accurate, i guess to fumble you have to be playing the game. but i was so blech today mainly just really tired and hella out of it and i said hi first but i said it super blechhhhh and then later i saw wc on the line and i was tryna get bread and wc was like HEY WHATS GOOD (not psychotic but very energetic) and i was like 🥹👍 and scampered off bc of chaos. also bc i think the fact that my brain defaults to "no one Reallllly wants to talk to you" and i therefore treat everyone like that i come off super chajkakaoainwnsna like i hope wc doesn't think i hate them...... it's actually quite the opposite... also bc i felt super shitty today. udsghsnakakan i hope we have a shift together this week bc i think we'd really vibe...... ugh just broccoli things i guess rip

stonks

happy earth day planet ilysm <3333 ✿