The Plants By My Windowsill, Named Mari And Twoey. Hopefully The Recent Warm Weather Is Nicer For Them.

School air is unbearable... Let me out of here! I want to sip drinks with heart-shaped ice!! I want to take a warm nap in the softest pajamas! I want to pet a cat!!!

No matter how much comfort food I treat myself to these days, I always wake up the next day feeling the same.

Maybe it's the world telling me to just lock in and work without caring...

(´д｀、)

no signal

I’ve done minimal work. 3 days remain until school

post something

BRUH I need to get my life together but yes I will

also am thinking of adding a few new pages to make the site cuter

:)))

hehe I wanna look like those cute chinese kids with fitting clothing and strawberry milk + pocky

none of my clothes really fit me so one day I’m gonna get stuff that is pog!!

sometimes I think I like to swarm myself with schoolwork to have something to take my mind off anything bad

I think my brain growth or maturity or whatever was stunted when I was little, must've been honestly

Scared of losing a close friend rn I just wanna make him happy I hope he knows

A possible turnaround

Though it’s been a while since I’ve started my new room project, I’ve surprisingly faced no burnout so far. It seems like life’s being suspiciously nice to me, which gets me a bit on edge- but I’ll do my best to enjoy it while I can.

My parents have approved of my drawings for my room plan, thankfully. That’s a greenlight for me to continue to clean up completely motivated! And even though I can’t exactly feel it on account of some amount of emotional numbness, I do prefer the kind of energy I’m getting from this than anything I’ve felt before. It’s just a happy feeling, out of the blue, unprompted. I no longer want to do nothing, sink into the ground, or cry- I just want to continue and smile?

It feels good to make progress on accomplishing my dream! I’ve also made a custom search engine for myself earlier today- just to fit my dream as well.

Usually I’d show it to my friends, but if they ask why, “I’m trying to change my entire personality and life” doesn’t exactly sound swell from the other end. No worries though- they’ll know a completely different person by the end of this!

I’m off to clean, I’ll make another post later! 

<3 Caramel

I need to finish soon. I've gotten so.much progress done already but it's all going to be gone if I don't finish soon my stuff is downstairs I can do it

Had to rush to annotate my music today. I was hired as a last-minute substitute for an orchestra near me, which means I only have a few weeks to practice it... Hopefully things go well!

The performance is right in the middle of my midterms, too. I suppose it's time to pray...

Wishing the apocalypse started right now, ruining billions of lives and throwing the world into irreversible chaos because I'd rather hide from zombies and eat scraps than do a midterm for two hours

Got damn!!!

I wonder what will happen if I actually try to put some effort into my appearance.

Feeling so bad about myself on the regular, it shouldn’t be too much of a risk, right?

Mostly I just want to look presentable day to day

Who knows?