I Need To Finish Soon. I've Gotten So.much Progress Done Already But It's All Going To Be Gone If I Don't

on the bright side one of my packages arrived but the quality kinda sucked :/ That one’s on me though, ordered from a bad seller

Dissonance

Got left alone at the mall today but strangely I feel better, I just did the AP exam today and cried in an underground parking lot until my voice hurt but honestly I feel better than I did a couple days ago

The train station is so beautiful when everything's in bloom...

Ah... I'm tired. Finals are over, and I'm worried about my marks now— but at least there's time to sit in bed and stare at the wall for a while.

I want to disappear...

Got damn!!!

I wonder what will happen if I actually try to put some effort into my appearance.

Feeling so bad about myself on the regular, it shouldn’t be too much of a risk, right?

Mostly I just want to look presentable day to day

Who knows?

A sharp turn

HOLY MOLY I’VE JUST HAD A GORGEOUS IDEA. In my brain it’s so likely to work I think it really will. I need a rational mind to bounce my ideas off of because this is a ltitle too happy for my tastes and I’m feeling manic?? Or maybe this is just regular excitement and I’m not used to it.

My dad is not being my rational mind he is fanning the flames and thinks it may be possible as well is he delusional too or could this actually work

can i come over and play for 10000 years

oof

I suppose I’ve just had the most unproductive weekend I’ve ever experienced. AP exams are closing in as well. A ton of schoolwork to do while the year closes in, a dying personal life, not mentioning the fact that I’m probably in trouble when it comes to extracurriculars. Missed some important harp stuff, so I’ll need to talk to my teacher about that.

Spilled my guts out to a friend over the past two days with little to no reaction, too, so I guess there’s that wonderful thing too. :/

Whenever I think it’s not possible to fall lower than this I end up surprising myself. Guess I should really just suck it up though. All this depressing stuff has been ruining my life and future, and I’ve done nothing to stop it.

Can’t really feel bad for myself anymore. This sucks. Maybe I am depressed, but I guess that’d be searching for excuses to inexcusable behavior. I should stop lying.

Whatever happened to determination?

no idea if youve taken youre exam yet but i wish you luck!!!!

thank you for the spam, that rlly surprised me.. your blog is so pretty and fun to read through!!

i have my own exams to take in these next few weeks, so maybe our combined will to pass will result in it lol

good luck ^^

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Omg yes best of luck on your exams!! You've got this!! I spammed your blog because, well, it was really relatable... Glad we're friends, hehe (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

I'm imagining we're studying together like this ~♪

My instagram where I go on dates with nobody

Lazy

Ahhhhh

Spring break has really made me lazy. I thought I had the capability to laze around day after day if undisturbed, but it seems I do end up getting restless from time to time. Can't believe I'm even allowed to lie in my bed for eleven more days. Hopefully, I'll take this time to clean up, draw, and study instead.

Overall, it's nice to see myself actually want to do something instead of feeling content doing nothing at all. Glad I'm not completely devoid of energy- can't wait to see what the break brings!