Okay So I Just Need To Rant And Kinda Need Advice

okay so i just need to rant and kinda need advice

there’s this girl i’m friends with, and i need to start this by adding i’m not wanting to attack her or anything, i’m just trying to understand what’s happening

so, i’m a trans guy. she’s known me when i was in the closet— but it was literally glass, her + all of my other friends admitted that they weren’t surprised when i came out. she was super cool about it. she’s queer and a total ally to trans people, esp considering there’s other non cis people in our group

but like… she keeps saying stuff that makes me feel like she doesn’t see me like a man ??? even tho she’s super cool with like anyone else being trans ??? she’s not malicious at all with it or being remotely transphobic openly, but it’s a few little things that are making me really confused

for example, we were at the mall and all trying on dresses for shits and giggles. she convinced me to try on one and i absolutely HATED it. i felt so weird and uncomfortable and i was standing in the dressing room all stiff and gross.

my other friend noticed and was like “yeah no i can tell you’re crazy dysphoric rn go put your pants on”

but she comes up, and she asks what i’m trying on next. i say i’m not trying anything on and she gets visibly upset and keeps trying to get me to try them on. i was gonna just do it to make her happy but my friend stepped in and said i was obviously really dysphoric and uncomfortable and i wasn’t gonna. she got really weird about it and just walked off.

she also gets kinda weird whenever i mention being a man or transitioning and stuff ?

but it’s this one thing that gets men really annoyed. my best friend is gender-fluid, but they mostly present feminine and uses female terms mostly. the friend i’m talking about keeps making jokes about me and my best friend being a gay couple. i snapped once and told her we’re not fucking dating and even if we were, we wouldn’t be a lesbian couple like i felt like she was implying

but she keeps making couple jokes ??? specially gay couple jokes, but i feel like she’s implying we’re lesbians

i’m just frustrated. i don’t think she’s transphobic, she’s openly an ally to literally everyone else about not being cis, but specifically me i think she just thinks i’m a confused butch lesbian. or maybe this is just a mistake because i only came out mid last year?? idk

i don’t know if i should talk to her about this or if i should just keep moving on and hope she gets better with it. she’s a genuinely good friend and i don’t wanna lose her over this, but also every time she implies me and my friend are lesbians i wanna rip my hair out

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