I Miss Being In Love With Life.

I can't wait to be in a place in Life again where I can be openly kind to people again

I love you all, you're just also scary sometimes

Okay, so, I'm not very religious anymore due to a terrible childhood, but I miss singing hymns.

A group of people coming together to sing of hope and faith. There's something about that I think we all need more of nowadays, whether in a worshipping sense or not.

I needed this, hope more people read through it 👍

Hey, you.

If you're American, and you've been having a hard week egg for.. reasons -

I have something to say to the Americans.

Just remember.

They aren't immortal.

Nobility has lied for centuries. They told us they were placed on the throne by God - the rule of the king being the will of the Creator.

The French proved them wrong.

You are young. They are human. They will one day die.

And on the day they die - regardless of if hell is real or not - there will be a movement when they are laying on that death bed. They will feel their live slipping from their grasp.

And they will feel the fear.

The possiblity of eternal consequence.

They will fear what waiting for them on the other side. The one journey they cannot buy their way out of. The moment the bell tolls for thee.

And honestly, the thought brings me peace.

Trumo and Elon AREN'T demons - though it's so easy to think of them as so.

They are evil humans. And all humans die. Trump? He's 80. He's over three times my age. He's older than my grandmother. He eats McDonald's and Diet Coke like no one's business. Knock on wood I'm betting he's got ten years TOPS.

('I'll be the last president' - my ass. If you take a bad fall it's game over dude. You won't release your health records cause you're most likely due for a heart attack soon mfer. Your minions don't like your candy ass Junior enough to have him as a successor and Baron doesn't fucking care so realistically speaking whats your game plan here? 🤨 Elon's kids have too many daddy issues to take your place. You can't even use a sword. Napoleon would slay you where you fucking stand you pansy)

So if you've been struggling this week, I just wanted to remind you.

Black people won our civil rights without the support from the media, without online social networks, without the support from 90% of white people.

70 years ago, around when my grandma was born - I could not sit next a white person in school. If a white man was walking towards me on the street, I'd have to step into the gutter and let him pass. At risk of being actually killed by the whole town if not.

Nowadays in my city I could tell a white guy my age 'Fuck you!!' to your face. Middle finger and all. And they're not gonna put me in jail for it. No stranger is gonna jump in. The whole town isn't gonna care. If anything, people will just record.

That all happened in ONE generation.

So no matter what Trump does.

Remember. He's not immortal. He will die like we all do.

You're young. You'll have the rest of your life to reverse everything he's done.

That's the thing about personality cults. Once the personality is removed, the whole thing falls apart. And the personality in question is once again - an 80 year old who eats Big Macs and wears suits two sizes too large. A man who would probably get genuinely upset if you asked him to recite his 8 times tables.

If Trump dies in the next 10-20 years, before he turns 100, I'll be 35-45. a.k.a - my generation will be entering the older majority. Our generation will be the eldest and the most influencial. What then?

The Trumpettes won't have their leader for their personality cult so they'll have no one - not even their republican parents - to tell them who to think.

We'll be older, wiser. We'll teach our kids the signs. We'll tell them stories what to do, and invest pubic funds to conserve the history of our fight - to never be erased.

If you're scared this week, I understand.

But remember. We've fought harder with less - and we still won.

So keep your head up. Doom is the tool of the enemy. You keep going, you keep living, and you survive to tear down their legacy while the bastard spins in his grave.

Keep going. Keep your angry hearts and clenched fists. Hold on tight to your love and rage. And keep going.

That's what Hobie would want. That's what a Hobie is there to teach us.

Hope this helped someone, anyone, even if it was a little bit. If this helps you get through the day, or the next hour, with the smallest bit of hope - that's all I want.

Thanks for reading this far! Here's Hobie :)

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And bonus:

Ayo I just gotta add this in here -

Word to god, and when I say this I say this with my whole chest -

I'd be DAMNED before I ever say I'm scared of Donald Trump.

First of all, I'm black and poor. There's been a white man wanting me dead since the moment I left my Mama's hoohaa and guess what, I'm still here. That mfer ain't special. Call me when the klansmen come not when done mfers with tiki torches cosplay call of duty.

Cause none of them coming to the hood..tf.. Try that shit in neighborhood with Bloods and Crips.. Y'all not the only ones with automatics and lots of money. It's just the black people with money and automatics keep shit quiet. If these racist mfers had ppl breaking in they house the way Kendrick had mfers breaking in Drake's with choppers they'd be terrified as fuuuckkk

And secondly there's 4chan fellas out there that probably legit jack off to the idea of a black queer trans person crying in fear. And those mfers can kiss my black ass and kick rocks cause I wake up every day smiling. So -

Anyway I'm done lol

I just had to get this out of my system lol. OKAY BYE FOR REAL

I am going to fight for myself. I'm going to put real effort into my mental health and get better. I don't want to be miserable for the rest of my time with this life

OKAY I'M DONE IT'S OUT OF MY SYSTEM

This man has infected my mind, however I don't draw in a "circle head" style, so I'm only putting a few on here. I wasn't sure if I was gonna, but ya know... support and fanart and stuff. I hope I've done @quieteeks's Martyr at least some justice 👍

AH ANXIETY WHY DID I POST ANYTHING EVER AHHHH

Workin on my anxiety by adding more to this account thingamajig 👍

My country is failing apart, but damnit, I am going to keep improving

Uuuugh mental health and healing is difficult because you gotta but mental energy into, and that's conscious, whilst physical healing requires physical energy, which you don't have to focus on or put effort into, cuz it's subconscious and your body puts forth the energy for you.

This does mean we gotta scold ourselves when we have icky thoughts or are overly anxious and it's haaaarrdd

Imma try noting and posting more stuff as a sort of rejection therapy thing, idk, I've got some art on here now and it's terrifying and I think that'll eventually be good for me

Havin Conservative Parents is Fun

Y'all, I'm tired of trying to talk with my Dad about the US, cuz he'll say the we're struggling, and I'll chip in with a statistic (this time it was that the average income for an American is under $40K a year after taking out the top thousand people), and he'll start trying to explain how it's the fault of immigrants, or black people, or women, or queer people.

Mom's kinda mildly upset that I don't really talk with him, and I've tried to explain to her that not only do I disagree with him (them, but she's a bit calmer in her bigotry), but I myself am hurt by what he says (as a bisexual woman-ish person). And what does she say, Everytime? That he's had a different life, and that he's older, and that he doesn't have the same capacity for emotions as I do.

I can respect that to a certain degree, but we're not about to pretend like that shit doesn't actually fuckin harm people- and not just "hurting their sensitive feelings"- people are killed because of this kind of blaming and hate these people with "less capacity for difference" spew

Ha, one more piece, and then I'll sleep

Did this one on a sticky note with my acrylic markers. I actually really like looking at it. I used a picture from Pinterest (I know, I'm sorry) as a reference.