Okay, So, I'm Not Very Religious Anymore Due To A Terrible Childhood, But I Miss Singing Hymns.

Ight, imma try to make these little post of mine more productive. I think trying to write something more positive/hopeful/soothing might help my mental health

Havin Conservative Parents is Fun

Y'all, I'm tired of trying to talk with my Dad about the US, cuz he'll say the we're struggling, and I'll chip in with a statistic (this time it was that the average income for an American is under $40K a year after taking out the top thousand people), and he'll start trying to explain how it's the fault of immigrants, or black people, or women, or queer people.

Mom's kinda mildly upset that I don't really talk with him, and I've tried to explain to her that not only do I disagree with him (them, but she's a bit calmer in her bigotry), but I myself am hurt by what he says (as a bisexual woman-ish person). And what does she say, Everytime? That he's had a different life, and that he's older, and that he doesn't have the same capacity for emotions as I do.

I can respect that to a certain degree, but we're not about to pretend like that shit doesn't actually fuckin harm people- and not just "hurting their sensitive feelings"- people are killed because of this kind of blaming and hate these people with "less capacity for difference" spew

Imagine having been born in 1905... And all your life it doesn't fucking stop. The Great War, the Spanish Flu, and then you go out of your mind for 7 years. Everyone is traumatised and nothing matters. Then another crash. And then the rise of fascism, and the War to end all Wars didn't and it's 1945 and you're just about still there. You may have fought or ferried the boys from Dunkirk or sabotaged the Nazi occupiers or worked in the factories and put out fires during the Blitz and you're lucky to be alive, because not all your friends made it. But you are and finally, fucking finally, it stops. It stops. You are tough as nails and you can put that strength to work into building something and you do, and people have cars and can buy icecream and you have a pension fund and the kids have money of their own and no nightmares.

I want that for us. I so want that for us. I want to be the generation that has seen fucking everything and is like a MRSA bug and unfazed and when that Cheeto finally dies, I want us to. Plant the gardens and clean the seas because we can and we want to and we remember some joy, some time of trust even when it got broken and we can say to the 20 somethings "let us show you what we can build, how it can feel."

And maybe Gen beta will take it all for granted like the boomers did, but we can give Gen Z and Alpha some peace because we, and Gen Z and Alpha have seen the Dark Times and fuck that noise.

I am going to fight for myself. I'm going to put real effort into my mental health and get better. I don't want to be miserable for the rest of my time with this life

Finally bit the bullet and actually downloaded Tumblr- yay! Hoping this will encourage me to post more art, because it honestly gives me a dopamine hit, even with the little bit of attention it gets

Alright, alright, I said I'd post more art stuff

I woke up in the middle of the night and had this design in mind. I can see though, now that I've sketched it out, it's a lot of little pieces of other character designs I like, so I probably won't use it for anything. The character's name is Quillan tho

A h art I've sat with for a v e r y long time. I had seen that putting Nightie in front of a stained glass window had already been done by quite a few lovely artists on here, and got nervous 👍 Also, some head canon-y things, like the rosery and him having his swords with him. Never used a watermark before, but I hear that's important, art wise idk what I'm doing help

I can't wait to be in a place in Life again where I can be openly kind to people again

I love you all, you're just also scary sometimes

Sharing my brain parasite with the masses

I legit can't stop- send help

Anyways more fanart for ASATT, more of @quieteeks's Martyr, and more of my attempts at art, yay

Ha, one more piece, and then I'll sleep

Did this one on a sticky note with my acrylic markers. I actually really like looking at it. I used a picture from Pinterest (I know, I'm sorry) as a reference.