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14th doctor headcannons: ANGST EDITION (because let's be real he's not the most mentally-stable of time-lords)

TW for panic attacks and just general angst - stay safe <3

he has the 'I could've done something to prevent it, therefore it's my fault' mentality for almost everything bad that has happened throughout their adventures

he's only now just starting to realise that he's not to blame for absolutely all of it (he's been told that it's not his fault countless times by practically every companion he has)

they despise feeling helpless or being told they can't do anything to help people

had a panic attack when UNIT was told by the UN not to 'interfere' with the construction of a British nuclear testing facility even though it was highly unstable

15 minutes later he went back in time and prevented its approval, of course

tends to go non-verbal during panic attacks (you can tell he's reached the tipping point when he stops trying to talk his way out of a situation)

Donna prompted him to start learning ASL to help them communicate when he has panic attacks

they start having little ASL conversations during boring UNIT meetings that she drags him to (they bicker like siblings)

he tries to avoid sleeping as much as possible since he has really vivid nightmares, usually about his past companions

on really bad nights he sneaks into the TARDIS and flies to a random nebula to watch the stars

sometimes they lose track of time staring at the sky for hours until Donna has to send the other doctor to find him

on those nights, the two doctors tend to sit together in silence for a while, heads resting against each other in quiet reassurance

he dissociates a lot more than his previous versions

sometimes multiple times in a conversation, especially if it's a conversation about things he'd rather forget

his friends have gotten real good at bringing him back (most of them have years of practice at this point) but River Song was always the best at it

which makes it hurt all the more when he finally feels someone tapping gently at his shoulder or calling his name and he looks around to see where his wife is

only to remember that she's not here

he doesn't cry very often - he's more likely to scream or kick something or go into problem solving mode then he is to cry

but occasionally, despite their best efforts to keep moving forward, keep running, they think about all the people that they've lost, all the lives they've ruined, all the companions they couldn't save and they can't stop the tears from flowing

...

he's so very old now

he's so very tired

the American revolution: they were both convinced the British were going to win and now refuse to talk about it again.

Aziraphale and Crowley meet throughout the ages because of special occasions.

It's almost inevitable, given the events that they cross paths. So here's my question: on what other occasions have they potentially crossed paths?

I wanna talk about The Angel Who Would Be Crowley.

Because I had a certain set of expectations, which got thoroughly trashed in the first five minutes of S2, and my genuine response is, "Oh, fuck, yup. You're right. That's WAY better."

Looking around at GO fandom, I'm not alone in this. So let's talk about it.

Basically, a lot of people (myself included) believed that he was a high-ranking angel, and therefore as chilly and remote as every other powerful angel we'd seen at that point. We pictured Crowley-To-Be as long-haired, regal and imposing --and the fanart at the time reflected this. I'd link some if Tumblr didn't hate links.

Something like this:

We were collectively drawing on a few things --mostly, Crawly's appearance and general bearing in the Biblical scenes of S1--

--But also scattered hints of his importance, backed up by conspicuous absences in Heaven and a few profound displays of power. That's all better covered elsewhere, so I won't reiterate the arguments here. All I'm saying is: I think our headcanons were justified.

But it turns out he was this:

!!!

With his curly little--!!

And his neat white--!!

IT TURNS OUT, he was an angel who squeaked and squealed when he was happy; who flailed his arms around and made explosion noises with his mouth to explain nebulas; who preened when told his stars were pretty. Furfur, who knew him before the Fall, says:

"You used to jump on me back, little monkey in a waistcoat..."

(The use of a diminutive there, 'little'...oh, that fascinates me.)

In a pretty huge subversion of expectations, we're given these glimpses of an angel who was sweet, and joyful, and heart-meltingly silly.

In sum...an innocent.

(Perhaps innocent to a troubling degree.

We see how he troubles Aziraphale, during their first conversation. He starts looking around and behind them, checking to make sure that no one can HEAR the blithe and reckless things coming out of this angel's mouth. This angel who talks like he's never been reprimanded in his life; like it's never occurred to him that anyone would want to hurt him.

Before the Beginning, Aziraphale understood Heaven better than he did. The danger is plainly occurring to Aziraphale.)

So now, we the viewers are in on a cruel joke that Aziraphale has known all along, which is that this --THIS-- is the angel who--

*checks notes*

--did a million lightyear freestyle dive into a boiling pool of sulphur. For asking questions.

...Imagine you are Aziraphale, and everything inside you wants to believe Heaven are the Good Guys, and God is Good and Everything She does is capital-R Right...and now try to reconcile that. Keep trying. I don't think he ever totally managed it in 6000 years.

All this gets further complicated when we learn that, despite all of the above, we were still right. That sweet excitable babby up there?

He WAS a powerful and high-ranking angel.

That much is explicitly confirmed, with significant evidence that he could have been among the mightiest of archangels...

...Who apparently accosted his fellow angels for piggyback rides. And was remembered millennia later by those (now fallen) angels as something 'little.'

What does that tell us about who he was? Is?

Hell, Aziraphale has known to be wary of the archangels (and the judgements of Heaven in general) since before the Fall even happened. He chooses to believe they are Good; he can't fool himself into thinking they are Safe.

Yet he's absolutely certain that Crowley won't hurt Job's children. Enough to stand in a burning building and say to them, "I can't save you, but don't be afraid. I won't need to."

And what reason does he give?

("I know you."

"You do not know me."

"I know the angel you were.")

What does that tell us about who he was? Is?

("The angel you knew is not me."

But how is Aziraphale supposed to believe that, when he can see him all the time?)

tl;dr --yes, this is better. I love the tragedy of it.

'Innocence died screaming' and all that.

questions and statements are very welcome :D

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

headcannon time:

the whole time Aziraphale was pretending to be the gardener for Warlock's family Crowley was just...fixing the plants for him

like I love Aziraphale dearly but that angel cannot garden

everything is either over-watered or as dry as a literal desert

Crowley is fighting for both their jobs over here

he's just running around on his breaks trying desperately to keep the plants alive without Aziraphale or the Dowling's noticing

because he would never let his angel realise he's killing the plants

SNEK HATS

this has probably been done before BUT Aziraphale makes these little snake hats for Crowley

you know the ones...

14th doctor headcannons: TARDIS EDITION

When the TARDIS upgraded she made sure there were a bunch of ramps everywhere because the doctor gets the zoomies sometimes and needs to run around in excitement (^_^)

and also because WHEELCHAIR ACCESS yaaas baby

On April fools, she moves all of the ramps exactly one centimetre to the left (the doctor tries to run across them and immediately faceplants) (The TARDIS recorded it and sent it to Donna)

there's technically a bedroom on board but when the doctor does sleep he likes to curl up under the control console because he says he can 'feel her heartbeat'

it became the only way he could fall alseep without nightmares

one time Donna found him there and practically melted

she can play music but only does so for comedic effect (she likes ABBA the most)

The Doctor: Okay, I don't exactly have a plan, per say, but I'm sure I'll come up with something in the moment...

The TARDIS: 🎶 Mama Mia ! Here we go again !

She has a photo she took of Donna, Rose (Noble) and The Doctor all laughing together that she doesn't show anyone but keeps just in case she gets separated from the Doctor again and gets lonely

my cat at 3am on a school night

after careful consideration, i decided that meow meow meow meow meow

the dumbest temptations that Crowley has ever performed:

tempting a cat to walk over to him when the little 'pssh pshhh kittyyyy' noises weren't working (It was a black cat so it was totally evil and demonic guys trust)

spent 30 seconds panic-adjusting the meat he was offering to Aziraphale in the Job flashback so that it would taste just right

"IT NEEDS MORE SALT WAIT NO THAT'S TOO SALTY NEVERMIND WHERE'S THE SEASONING WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DON'T HAVE SEASONING HERE I THOUGHT GOD CARED??"

his sunglasses made everything too dark for him to see the little stars in Aziraphale's eyes so every time he gets a new pair he makes sure they're just dark enough to hide his eyes and block out bright lights but not dark enough that he can't see his angel's beautiful pupils <3

snakes.

whenever a snake species starts becoming endangered he tempts governments into giving funding for wildlife conservation (occasionally if they're still endangered he grabs a snake or two to raise and reintroduce himself) (It's EVIL because they're POISONOUS and eat...well, mostly mice but don't tell Hell that)

tempting the guy in charge of the playlists at his favourite bar to play angsty songs on repeat when he's brooding >:(

The TARDIS rooms headcannons: DOCTOR EDITION

c h a o s

in the best way possible, of course

there are at least 10 different unfinished tinkering projects scattered around the room at all times

whenever the doctor swears he's going to finish one, he gets an idea for another (me with fic writing fr)

he has a desk in the corner, which is mostly covered in notepaper with a mix of English and circular Gallifreyan scrawled across them

and we're pretty sure that's a bed under all that paper

but at this point who knows? Does the doctor even sleep? (he does, just not in his bedroom...or, you know, a bed)

the door to the room changed depending on the preferences of the doctor occupying it

10's door had about 20 different 'gadgets' glued onto it, while 12's was made of deep mahogany panels and what was probably once a bright brass doorknob (it hasn't been polished in 604 years)

although the various companions can enter the doctor's room at any time, the TARDIS tends to steer them away from it whenever he needs to be alone

but when she thinks that the doctor could stand to gain from actually talking about his feelings for once, companions may find themselves turning a corner and suddenly becoming face-to-face with his door

practically the only clean surface in his room is a set of shelves lined with trinkets and souvenirs that remind his of each of his companions

a preserved rose for Rose Tyler, a bead from one of Clara Oswald's dresses, a framed paper snowflake for Ruby Sunday, and a blank page that some of the companions suspect is from River Song's diary (it is)

pinned onto the wall next to the shelves are a collection of polaroids, one of every person that's ever travelled in the TARDIS

Donna's one has both her and the doctor laughing together (or possibly at each other), and Yaz's one is blushing furiously next to an equally red 13, and Wilfred's one is just him beaming at the camera

the doctor likes to pretend he's not sentimental, but we all know the truth <3