Just Woke Up Thinking About This And I Need Tumblr To Be My Therapist For A Second Because I Just Need

Just woke up thinking about this and I need tumblr to be my therapist for a second because I just need to explain my thoughts.

When I first watched BSD (Bungo Stray Dogs), I was ok with Ranpo. I didn't like nor dislike him until I saw his backstory. The story that made most fans cry made me feel so...unsettled. It was like looking in a mirror and it scared me.

I never believed in kinning before him. Relating to an anime character? A BSD one at that? I feel like people are just projecting because it's their favorite character. Those were my thoughts. But then I met Ranpo.

I understood him. I felt what that felt like when I saw his backstory. I felt like part of me was on the screen. For the first time ever, I felt truly related to someone on the screen. It scared me a lot. I kinned a person. RANPO AT THAT.

Actually seeing a part of me I activley try to ignore and deny was a slap to the face for me. It scared me. So for a while, I avoided him. I avoided media or fan content with him in it. Of course, he's in the show, so I can't avoid him forever though. I didn't like him because he scared me.

My entire life I felt like I couldn't connect with people. Not as in I couldn't be friends with anyone, though, that is also true. I didn't understand anyone around me. To me, I was a human. I was sentient, capable of complex thoughts, and I was able to lie and "control the 'people' around me". Looking back, that was a stupid sentiment.

I was human and everyone around me was an npc. That was pretty scary for me. I didn't understand the difference between us as a child. Though I knew that everyone around me was something other than me, I only saw me and them. And if I just said a simple hello, it could become us. I miss that.

When I met Ranpo on screen, it was the moment he said it was like they were all monsters that scared me. There was something he didn't have. Something he didn't understand. That's what he thought, but in reality, it's that he's the one who has something that everyone else doesn't.

For me, it truly was just something I didn't have. And for my whole life, I've been trying to figure it out. What makes them different from me? It didn't make any sense. Everyone understood something that I didn't. Everyone had this "rule" to being a human being that I didn't know about. And that was scary.

Dazai was a bit different for me. I loved him from day -30. Literally. I watched complimations of him being stupid months before I watched the show. Years even. I didn't kin him at all and he was just a silly but complicated guy for me. But then I noticed something after realizing I kinned Ranpo.

My whole life I felt that I was the only human and everyone around me was an npc. But really, it was more that everyone around me was a human and I was...something else. I didn't know what. But it wasn't human. I mean, obviously I am physically and in every scientific way, human, but there's something missing, y'know?

Thinking about it makes me feel so cringe but I really can't explain it any other way.

I don't consider myself a Dazai kinnie because even I can't completely understand the reason he thinks himself not human. I just related a small bit to the sentiment.

So as a um...thing hiding itself as a human, I felt exposed when I was confronted with Ranpo. I eventually came to terms with it and now I like Ranpo. Though he still unsettles me because of the similarity.

So yeah. That was my vent. :)

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I Call These The Dazai Chronicles Lol

I call these the Dazai Chronicles lol

Also it won't make sense if you haven't seen ep 1 but what's going on is Junichiro and Dazai are pulling pranks on people. Sooo that's why there are 2.


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4 months ago

The difference between sin and continuous sin

Two people were eating poison, and I came up to them giving them a warning. I say, "stop, do not eat that poison, fo you will surely die". One obeys and heads the warning, turning from the poison and throwing it away, while the other refuses and continues to eat it. The one who disobeyed dies and the other lives. This is like sin. All sins are forgivable for Christ, (except for blasphemy if the holy spirit as well as recieving the mark of the beast) so both had equal opportunity to live. But if you refuse to listen, you will surely fall.

This is the case with many things. Porn, cheating, murder, abuse, drinking, lying, sexual immorality, and yes, whether we like it or not, that includes LGBTQ+ activity. It is a choice made everyday and if continued until the day of judgement or, you know, when we die, it's too late as there was no repentance. But the one who sinned and turns from it with a watchful eye, no matter how many times they fall short, as long as they truthfully give it their all to turn from their sins and toward Jesus, they will be accepted into heaven.

So throw the posion out and be the one who lives


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11 months ago

A complimation of EVERY bsd art I've ever done (except for the Dazai Chronicles)

A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)
A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)

Ok this one doesn't really count because it's an animation, that I have yet to finish, but here's a screenshot.

A Complimation Of EVERY Bsd Art I've Ever Done (except For The Dazai Chronicles)

The order is the 1st one, the 4th one, the 3rd one, the 5th one, the 2nd one, the 8th one, the 7th one, and then the 6th one from oldest to newest. Couldn't figure out how to put it in order sooo. :/

I love looking back at old art and just seeing how far I've come. Sometimes I feel like I just suck at art and that I'll never improve or be how I want to be, but then I look back and realize I'm just being stupid. I already improved such a significant amount from when I first started. Why can't I improve now?

When it comes to art, people like to put limits on themselves, but honestly, there are no limits with art. It's something almost anyone can do. I say almost because the only people who literally can't make visual art are people paralyzed from the neck down or dead people. I've seen blind people make art. I've seen people with no arms make art. I've seen people who are blind and have no arms make art. Ok, that's not true, but I'm sure a blind and armless artist exists somewhere.

You will never be your best at art because with every drawing, you improve. To you, it may look ugly today, but in a year, it'll be so much better. This post isn't a very good example because I lack consistensy in my style, and so it looks worse sometimes, but still.

Also, can you tell that I like Chuuya and Dazai? I tried drawing Atsushi and Aktugawa once but um. I didn't finish that. Oh but, I also tried making a Lucy x Atsushi animatic if that counts. I didn't finish that either.


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1 month ago

God has a purpose for you, bigger than yourself, bigger than you can imagine. David established his kingdom, yes, but his influence stretched much farther than Israel and much longer than his reign. Job perservered and proved his loyalty to God, yes, but he also taught as example to his friends, family, and us, generations after his story. There is no bounds to what God can do, all that is stopping you is yourself. Not even the enemy, demons, or satan himself could stop you if God has enabled you. You will lose many battles but the war has been won on the cross, so know that all the losses, sacrifices, and suffering that comes with this path is nothing compared to the victory of Jesus.


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Guess who snuck into my English EOC released test today?

Guess Who Snuck Into My English EOC Released Test Today?

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Ok wait am I stupid?

Ok so I just had a dumb question pop into my mind out of nowhere. I randomly just figured this out and I NEED someone to explain to me.

So, Dazai met chuuya when they were 15, which is why it's called the 15 manga and ark. So, if they were 15 back then and they're 22 now, doing subtraction, it's been 7 years since they met, right? Ok that adds up, because they always mention how their partnership has gone on for said many years. HOWEVER, Dazai left the port mafia 4 years ago and was in hiding the whole time. Subtract 4 from 7 and, correct me if I'm being dumb, but that leaves 3. They've been partners for 3 years. Not 7. Not 6. But 3. Have I been lied to or am I overthinking this? I NEED ANSWERS PLEASE


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Aktugawa plz why

Ok, so if you haven't seen bungou stray dogs season 5, this is a spoiler. Proceed with that in mind.

Aktugawa's ability can manipulate clothing right? Is there a specific reason why he can't use the clothes on someoneelse's back or what? Like I love my boy Aku, but my dude would be so overpowered if he just used his head. Ik he can use more than his coat cuz he used his shirt on the ship in season 5, so unless they were both of some special material, he can use any cloth. Bsd could have been so much shorter if my dude just stabbed and sliced everyone with the clothes on their backs. Like the only way to dodge that is to strip down to nothing, and I don't think anybody's gonna do that, or at least think to do so immediently. We could have killed Fukuichi so easily if we just kept stabbing him with his OWN clothes. I love you Atsushi, but we can all agree that if Aktugawa just used that move when they first met, bsd would have been an episode long.


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