Chat I Wanna Start Writing Fanfic’s But I Have No Idea How To 😔 CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME OR SUM?

like what am I even for

Hai can someone please give me advice on how to start writing fanfics cause mine are currently shi oki thanks bai 😀

Grief.

Warnings :: mentions of death & addict, Grief, depression, ED, SH, Suicide

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⚠️DO NOT READ IF YOUR IN A BAD MENTAL STATE OR IF IT TRIGGERS YOU & DON'T DO THIS⚠️

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March 11.

Well Matt died what now.

I mentally don't know if I'm going to get better or not, I wish I could tell someone but I really can't they won't believe me.

I feel so drowned and depressed like so many emotions in me I don't know how to feel anymore, like my body is in pain I feel like I'm not worth anyone's time, I feel so hopeless and not worthy, I wish I could tell anyone but they will say I'm to young or it's the damn phone but no it's none of those two.

I just mentally feel like this and I have for a while tbh, my head hurts almost everyday so does my body and I don't know why, I don't have motion to do anything anymore I just feel like staying in bed all day, I try to act it off when I'm with someone but sometimes I can't and have to hold in my sadness, I really didn't want to feel like this I really didn't.

I have so much to say but I don't know how to start or say it,

God I miss Matt.

maybe just maybe one day I'll feel better, I just want to go back to when I was younger happy all the time, no worries just happiness with Matt by my side but as I grow everything gets harder and stressful, I can't tell anyone about my struggles cause they won't believe me no matter what only Matt would understand but he's gone now. I don't know if I can trust anyone anymore tbh I feel unworthy, depressed, I feel a lot of stuff now, I don't even feel like talking to anyone anymore, I'll get annoyed easily if someone starts talking to me now and I don't know why. sometimes I want to die sometimes I don't, I feel horrible most days on a daily basis for some reason, I want to cry, yell, scream, everything I want to vent to someone but I'll feel like a burden no matter if they say I'm not.

I'll always hate myself, my body, my face, my personality, everything about myself. I sometimes feel boring and like I have no personality like Matt used to say, I do think to myself that I should have not took my childhood for granted, people say I'm not struggling but I am they just don't see it, depression can be invisible that's what I do when I'm around people cause if I talk about my feelings I'll mess up or they just won't understand.

June 10.

I wish my pain would go away I physically want it gone my head has been hurting on a daily basis again I don't know why, maybe one day people will see how much I'm struggling, sometimes I wonder if people even like me, life's getting harder I'm getting distant from everyone even my own family tbh I wish Matt was still here, maybe life is supposed to be like this maybe it isn't, it's crazy just to think about all the times I was happy when I was younger I wonder and think what happened to me what did I do to myself what did humans do to me that I changed so much, maybe one day I can trust someone enough so that I could at least vent for a little.

After Matt's death I haven't felt the same, why wouldn't he come to me and tell me he was struggling so much. I didn't even get to say goodbye maybe soon I'll see him up there with family members and friends but I really do miss Matt it physically hurts no one would understand.

June 15.

Why was I still here? My dad died right on fathers day what worse could happen, I knew that was what my dad wanted tho he was dead before he hit the ground I knew he would be dead cause he always talked about it, well right that happened a year ago. You may be asking what about my mom? Well she's an addict I felt alone but with Matt I never did but he's gone forever and I can't do anything about it.

I haven't eaten not since last month I've felt nauseous I don't even have an appetite anymore I've gotten a eating disorder fuck what's wrong with me. I've gotten more then 20 anxiety attacks in the past week by so many things I don't even know what makes them if Matt were here he would be helping me a lot but I remember he isn't anymore, sometimes I wait for him by his door thinking he'll come out but he doesn't. And I can't even go in his room I'll just sob on the floor right when I enter his room the memories the laughs the crys everything, fuck I really missed him.

June 20.

This could be the end of everything and I'll get to see Matt. I can't even be clean for more then a week my arms stomach legs thighs wrist were a battle field, not eating not being clean for more then a few days not speaking was my cry for help but no one noticed, I've wrote the letters my mom my best friend my sister my brother in law my fav aunt my fav cousin everyone, I was finally done with them so maybe it was time time for me to go.

JULY 10.

Well it's my birthday it's finally time not for me to turn 18 but time for me to leave. I was in my room the lights off a knife in my hand and pills on the floor next to me, I took them and twisted the knife I fell to the floor. My mom heard from downstairs and came running to my room she opened the door and saw me laying on the floor unconscious she ran beside me and fell to her knees crying and called the police and ambulance she was sobbing at this point. The ambulance took my unconscious body and by the time I got to the hospital I was gone. The doctor's told my mom and she fell to her knees once again sobbing till she bearly could breathe.

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Authors note: holy shit I can't believe I wrote this y'all sorry if I wrote something wrong I'm dyslexia so mb😓 hope y'all enjoyed had to put a big ahh warning so no one would do anything that I wrote but if anyone is going there this I hope you get better! (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

Chat I might be writing a fanfic by myself so if it turns out bad SOMEONE TELL ME AND GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO MAKE IT BETTER 🙏

Cuddle monster

It had been the perfect day in L.A.—warm sun, cool breeze, and hours of laughter as Chris, his girlfriend, his brothers Nick and Matt, and their best friend Madison wandered the streets, snapped photos, grabbed overpriced iced coffees, and just soaked in the kind of carefree joy that only comes with good company and no plans.

Now, back at the triplets’ house, the group had finally started to wind down. Matt was in the kitchen raiding the fridge for leftovers, Nick was mid-rant about a weird TikTok algorithm update, and Madison had already claimed the big couch, scrolling through photos from the day.

Chris leaned against the doorframe of his room, watching as his girlfriend disappeared into the bathroom with her clothes and little overnight bag slung over her arm.

As soon as she closed the door behind her, he turned toward his brothers, a soft grin tugging at his lips. “Dude, she’s seriously the best,” he said, for probably the fourth time that night.

Nick didn’t even look up from his phone. “We know, bro. You only said it like every ten minutes today.”

Matt peeked around the corner, holding a fork with leftover pasta. “You literally narrated her ordering an iced latte like it was the most magical thing you’d ever seen.”

Chris just grinned. “Because it is. She looked so cute when she couldn’t decide between oat milk or almond—like, her little nose scrunched up and everything.”

Nick made a gagging noise. Madison laughed from the couch. “It’s cute, but honestly? You’re kinda whipped.”

“Proudly,” Chris said without missing a beat.

About twenty minutes later, his girlfriend stepped out of the bathroom, freshly showered and in one of his hoodies, face glowing and hair still damp.

Chris immediately perked up. “Hey,” he said, his voice softening, tugging at the hem of his own shirt like he suddenly needed something to do with his hands. “Come here for a sec.”

She padded over and wrapped her arms around his waist, eyes sleepy from the long day. He leaned down and kissed the top of her head, his hands resting lightly on her hips.

“You’re gonna go home now?” he asked, quietly.

She pulled back just enough to look up at him. “That was the plan. I’ve got a few things to do in the morning.”

He pouted a little, his bottom lip sticking out dramatically. “Stay the night.”

She raised a brow. “Chris…”

“Please?” He walked backward, gently tugging her into his room. “I already put on fresh sheets. It smells like that lavender stuff you like. I’ll even make you breakfast in the morning—pancakes shaped like hearts. Or Mickey Mouse.”

She laughed. “You’re ridiculous.”

“I’m ridiculous for wanting to fall asleep next to you?” He gave her his best puppy-dog eyes. “We had the best day, and it just feels weird not ending it curled up with you.”

She hesitated, just long enough for him to notice.

He stepped closer again, brushing a piece of damp hair off her cheek. “I’ll hold you the whole night. No funny business. Just… me and you. Like always.”

After a second, she smiled. “Alright, alright. I’ll stay.”

Chris let out a victorious little cheer and kissed her, quick and sweet, before grabbing her hand and pulling her towards his bed. “Best. Night. Ever.”

By the time the lights were out, and the hum of the house settled into quiet, Chris had his arms wrapped around her like he’d been waiting all day just for this moment. He buried his face into the crook of her neck and whispered, “Told you it wouldn’t be right without you.”

And she smiled in the dark, because she knew he meant it with his whole heart.

Anyone else but you.

Warnings :: nothing just fluff

Pairing Loverboy!Matt and Sweetheart!reader

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You and Matt we're sitting outside In the front porch with Nate, Chris, Nick, Mary Lou, and Jimmy there was a little fire lit up since it was pretty chilly since it was night, you had Matt's phone up on a table ready to start singing.

Matt hit recorded and started playing the guitar he started a little of the song knowing you were a little shy to start "your a part time lover-" he got cut off by you since you were getting confident "part time lover and a full time friend the monkey on your back is the latest trend I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you"

"I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you" he sang looking at you deeply in love.

"Here is the church, and here is the steeple we sure are cute for two ugly people I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you"

"The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me so why can't you forgive me? I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you." Everyone started clapping Matt pressed the stop button on his phone you smiled shyly and cuddled up against Matt since it was getting pretty chilly he put down the guitar and putted his arm over your shoulder trying to keep you warm.

After a few hours Matt posted the video on his tiktok as his monthly post fans went crazy since a lot of people have been asking you guys to do this cover

The comments:

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Authors note: sorry if this is short chat I just felt like writing something and the cover of anyone else but you came up on my fyp and I just thought it was cute so 😭 yes hope you guys enjoyed!

Bienvenido.

Me :: call me kay, she/her, Mexican American, 4 teen, in high school, Matt girl, whale sharks, blue black and dark red, beaches, summer and winter, Dr Pepper, ADHD, social anxiety, bi, editing, rain, July baby.

Shows :: sturniolo Triplets, tarayummy, jake webber, Sam and Colby, kalogeras sisters, badbishlily, killsmartyr, benoftheweek, stranger Things, harry Potter, beautiful boy, thirteen, IT, The Virgin Suicides.

Music :: Billie Eilish, Role Model, Sombr, Olivia Rodrigo, Lil Peep, Rebzyyx, The Weekend, Duster, Alex G, Tyler The Creator, Adrianne Lenker, Big Thief, Mac DeMarco, Mac Miller, Ivan cornejo, The Marías, Cuco, hard life, Arctic Monkeys, The Neighborhood, Chase Atlantic, Frank Ocean, Cigarettes After Sex, bad bunny, Yung Gravy, tv girl, Malcolm Todd, the Beatles.

Introducing Loverboy!Matt

➢ Echo by Clairo, best paired with Sweetheart!reader, stuffed animals, love letters to Sweetheart!reader, holding hands with Sweetheart!reader, cuddling with only Sweetheart!reader, big softie, Italian, silly, sometimes passenger prince, YouTube influencer.

Birthday is in 5 weeks 🥲 (it's 2 am and I can't sleep💔)