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° RULES WERE MEANT TO BE BROKEN °

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pairing: Matt Sturniolo and fem!reader (best friends brother)

in which: Matt knows you very well,maybe even too much for your liking,but he should be off limits...

~warnings: nicknames,kissing,mentions of makeout,physical touch...nothing muchh lol,English is NOT my first language!~

Matt always told himself he was good at hiding things. Hiding when he was upset, hiding when he was stressed, and most importantly—hiding the fact that he had feelings for his brothers' best friend.

You.

You, who had been around for years.

You, who had practically become part of the family.

You, who always ruffled his hair playfully, who always saved him the last slice of pizza, who never failed to notice when something was bothering him.

And tonight, you were staying over.

Matt swallowed hard as he sat on the couch, trying to focus on whatever movie was playing. His brothers were already knocked out, leaving just the two of you awake. You stretched with a sigh, your shirt riding up just a bit, and Matt forced himself to look away.

"Tired?" he asked, his voice coming out steadier than he expected.

"A little" you admitted, glancing at him with a small smirk. "You okay? You’ve been kinda quiet."

Matt bit the inside of his cheek. "Yeah. Just thinking."

"About what?" - your voice echoing through his ears.

He hesitated. He could lie. He could brush it off. He could pretend that the idea of you lying just down the hall, so close yet so out of reach, wasn’t driving him insane.

Instead, he met your gaze.

"You."

Your expression changed—surprised at first, then something else, something softer. "Matt—"

"I know it’s messed up," he cut in, shaking his head.

"You’re Nick and Chris’s best friend. You’re… off limits. I get it. But I can’t help it. I don’t wanna pretend I don’t want you anymore."

A beat of silence passed before you shifted closer.

"Who said I wanted you to pretend?"- your voice waking something in him immediately that he couldn't control.

Matt barely had time to process that before your lips were on his. It was hesitant at first, as if testing the waters, but when his hands found your waist, you pressed closer, deepening the kiss.

He groaned against your lips, years of pent-up longing spilling over as he pulled you onto his lap.

Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging slightly, and he let out a low sound that made heat pool in your stomach. His hands grabbing onto your hips, gripping them with his fingers, while your body was moving and grinding onto his lap by itself, it was the motion you just couldn't stop. It felt too good. But so wrong. Soft sounds leaving past your lips, the whines that shushed when Matt kissed you, but the friction between you two just unbearable..

"Are you sure?" he murmured between kisses, his breath warm against your skin.

You nodded. "I’ve been sure for a while. Just didn’t think you were."

Matt huffed a laugh, running his hands under your shirt, fingertips grazing over your warm skin.

"Guess we’ve both been idiots then."

You smiled, leaning down to capture his lips again. As his hands explored, and the night stretched on, all thoughts of "off limits" faded away, leaving nothing but the feeling of each other.

And ofcourse, not waking Nick and Chris up.

author's note: this is the second part of the best friends brother series i made,and probably the last,im still thinking of making them an au,but still not sure absolutely,sorry guys for any grammar mistakes or anything lmaoo,but lmk what you think and should i make them a au??

Lili's corner ♡...

no pressure tags: @chrislilcumslvt @adoreechxmpion @strnilolover @cockettechris @luvrbrii @hearts4werka @stellasturns @mattsmommy69 @evie-sturns @chrepsi @mattscoquette @mattslolita @victoriassadcorner @sturnfannn @sturn10log1rl @sturnlsstuff @chrattho1 @issysh3ll @idontcare4urmom @sweetshuga @liiixsturniolos @fairyrcts @unknvhx @sturns4ever @sturnioz

° RULES WERE MEANT TO BE BROKEN °

( 2 ) - link to ( 1 )

pairing: Matt Sturniolo and fem!reader (best friends brother)

in which: Matt knows you very well,maybe even too much for your liking,but he should be off limits...

~warnings: nicknames,kissing,mentions of makeout,physical touch...nothing muchh lol,English is NOT my first language!~

Matt always told himself he was good at hiding things. Hiding when he was upset, hiding when he was stressed, and most importantly—hiding the fact that he had feelings for his brothers' best friend.

You.

You, who had been around for years.

You, who had practically become part of the family.

You, who always ruffled his hair playfully, who always saved him the last slice of pizza, who never failed to notice when something was bothering him.

And tonight, you were staying over.

Matt swallowed hard as he sat on the couch, trying to focus on whatever movie was playing. His brothers were already knocked out, leaving just the two of you awake. You stretched with a sigh, your shirt riding up just a bit, and Matt forced himself to look away.

"Tired?" he asked, his voice coming out steadier than he expected.

"A little" you admitted, glancing at him with a small smirk. "You okay? You’ve been kinda quiet."

Matt bit the inside of his cheek. "Yeah. Just thinking."

"About what?" - your voice echoing through his ears.

He hesitated. He could lie. He could brush it off. He could pretend that the idea of you lying just down the hall, so close yet so out of reach, wasn’t driving him insane.

Instead, he met your gaze.

"You."

Your expression changed—surprised at first, then something else, something softer. "Matt—"

"I know it’s messed up," he cut in, shaking his head.

"You’re Nick and Chris’s best friend. You’re… off limits. I get it. But I can’t help it. I don’t wanna pretend I don’t want you anymore."

A beat of silence passed before you shifted closer.

"Who said I wanted you to pretend?"- your voice waking something in him immediately that he couldn't control.

Matt barely had time to process that before your lips were on his. It was hesitant at first, as if testing the waters, but when his hands found your waist, you pressed closer, deepening the kiss.

He groaned against your lips, years of pent-up longing spilling over as he pulled you onto his lap.

Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging slightly, and he let out a low sound that made heat pool in your stomach. His hands grabbing onto your hips, gripping them with his fingers, while your body was moving and grinding onto his lap by itself, it was the motion you just couldn't stop. It felt too good. But so wrong. Soft sounds leaving past your lips, the whines that shushed when Matt kissed you, but the friction between you two just unbearable..

"Are you sure?" he murmured between kisses, his breath warm against your skin.

You nodded. "I’ve been sure for a while. Just didn’t think you were."

Matt huffed a laugh, running his hands under your shirt, fingertips grazing over your warm skin.

"Guess we’ve both been idiots then."

You smiled, leaning down to capture his lips again. As his hands explored, and the night stretched on, all thoughts of "off limits" faded away, leaving nothing but the feeling of each other.

And ofcourse, not waking Nick and Chris up.

author's note: this is the second part of the best friends brother series i made,and probably the last,im still thinking of making them an au,but still not sure absolutely,sorry guys for any grammar mistakes or anything lmaoo,but lmk what you think and should i make them a au??

Lili's corner ♡...

no pressure tags: @chrislilcumslvt @adoreechxmpion @strnilolover @cockettechris @luvrbrii @hearts4werka @stellasturns @mattsmommy69 @evie-sturns @chrepsi @mattscoquette @mattslolita @victoriassadcorner @sturnfannn @sturn10log1rl @sturnlsstuff @chrattho1 @issysh3ll @idontcare4urmom @sweetshuga @liiixsturniolos @fairyrcts @unknvhx @sturns4ever @sturnioz

° RULES WERE MEANT TO BE BROKEN °

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pairing: Matt Sturniolo and fem!reader (best friends brother)

in which: Matt knows you very well,maybe even too much for your liking,but he should be off limits...

~warnings: nicknames,flirting,mentions of kissing..nothing much honestly,English is NOT my first language!~

The thoughts screaming through your head as you found yourself in Matt Sturniolo’s dimly lit bedroom. At this point you couldn't even remember why you came here at first place,your heart pounding so loudly you were sure he could hear it. The air was thick with tension, a charged silence hanging between you two as he leaned against his desk, arms crossed, that knowing smirk tugging at the corner of his lips as his words snapped you out of your thoughts.

"You’re playing a dangerous game, love." Matt murmured, his voice low, teasing.

You swallowed hard, shifting on your feet. "I’m just—Nick wanted me to grab his charger."

Matt raised an eyebrow, clearly not buying your excuse. "And yet, here you are, standing in my room like you’re waiting for something."

You weren’t sure how you had gotten here, not really. One second, you were hanging out with Nick, your best friend since childhood, and the next, you had found yourself wandering into forbidden territory—Matt’s orbit. He had always been off-limits, an unspoken rule enforced by your friendship with his brother. But rules had never stopped the way your stomach twisted every time he looked at you like that.

Like he was looking at you now.

Matt pushed off the desk, closing the space between you in slow, deliberate steps. Your breath hitched as he reached out, his fingers grazing your arm, featherlight.

"You sure you don’t want something else?" he asked, voice laced with something dark and enticing.

Your throat went dry. You should leave. You should turn around and walk out of his room before you did something you couldn’t take back.

But then Matt reached up, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his touch lingering just a little too long.

"You drive me crazy, you know that?" he admitted, his breath warm against your skin.

A shiver ran down your spine. "I do?"

He hummed, tilting his head. "You think I don’t notice the way you look at me? Like you’re trying so hard not to want this."

Your pulse roared in your ears. "Matt—"

He cut you off with a smirk, his fingers trailing down your arm until they reached your hand, his thumb brushing over your knuckles.

"Tell me to stop, and I will. But if you don’t…" His eyes searched yours, dark and full of promises.

You hesitated for only a moment before making the choice that had been lingering at the back of your mind for far too long.

You didn’t tell him to stop.

Instead, you closed the distance, your lips crashing into his in a kiss that was long overdue, full of the tension you had both been holding back for years.

His hands gripped your waist, pulling you flush against him as he deepened the kiss, his lips moving against yours with a desperation that matched your own.

And in that moment, nothing else mattered—not Nick, not the consequences, not the fact that this was a line you shouldn’t cross.

Because some rules were meant to be broken.

author's note: this is gonna be part one of this story,i was thinking of making it an au but not sure yet,we'll see,sorry guys if it's not the best and yes i know its short,i apologize if there's any grammar mistakes lmao,this is little special for celebrating 300 of you following me all this times and being with me! thank you alll sooso much i really love and appreciate every each of you.send me more requests if you have any and lmk what you think of this one,the next part is cooking for after. ♡

○ Lili's corner ○

no pressure tags: @chrislilcumslvt @adoreechxmpion @strnilolover @cockettechris @luvrbrii @hearts4werka @stellasturns @mattsmommy69 @evie-sturns @chrepsi @sturniqloo @sturnfannn @sturn10log1rl

i take requests but im not 100% comfortable with a REAL smut,the detailed and very sexual ones,but yes i can make little less smutty ones. I write fast. Im in a sturniolo fandom since late January last year officially,im always open for new ideas for bots!! No racism,hate,sexism,ANY type of hate or harmfull behavior will NOT be tolerated,immediate block. We can always be friends!

masterlist guide :

♡ - fluff

♤ - angst

☆ - smut

• nothing else ♡

• friendship was never friendship ♡

• rules were meant to be broken ( 1 ) ♡

• rules were meant to be broken ( 2 ) ♡☆

He's so cute omfg,he's giving boyfriend vibes here and im here for ittt🫶🏼🩷🥹

i haven't written in so long but i have this fic idea of matt x y/n which they went ice skating with foggy and karen so does anyone wanna write that or maybe someone already has? pls it would be so cute 😭

⭐Welcome!⭐

~✰~ Hey! I'm Celeste, my pronouns are she/her, and I'm 19! My blog is going to be strictly Sturniolo related for now!

~✰~ What should you expect? I am a Chratt girl I can't choose. I will be eventually writing Fics, one shots, blurbs, snippets, imagines etc... Chris or Matt only. I will NOT be writing smut Fics about Nick. Expect a lot of smut, and angst. I can also get behind some fluff, plot building, so we'll see where that takes us:)

✰~ Some of my interests: Sturniolo triplets, Billie Eilish, Music, Art, Writing, Movies & Shows, Ukulele, Piano, and much more.

~✰~ Music: Billie Eilish, Lana Del Rey, Clario, Montell Fish, Frank Ocean, Mac Miller, Tyler the Creator, The Neighborhood, Dominick Fike, Radiohead, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Cigarettes After Sex, Hotel Ugly, Steve Lacy, Wallows, Mac DeMarco... I could go on for ages, so I'll stop here.

~✰~ Feel free say anything in my inbox! Whether it be about the Triplets, writing requests, music, questions, or an insane thought you have I wanna hear it! I want my blog to be a safe space for anyone who want to interact with meツ

⭐Masterlist⭐

⋆｡°✩-Chris-✩°｡⋆ ⭒coming soon

⋆｡°✩-Matt-✩°｡⋆ ⭒coming soon

⋆｡°✩-Chratt-✩°｡⋆ ⭒coming soon

I need him to eat me like that 😮‍💨😩🫦

I need the whole photo 🫩

I want them at the same time 😫

i get to hug and see daddy on tour 😘

i wish i can get an autograph tho…

the tattoos… the body… the hands… the veins…😍

the eyes… the hands… the veins 😍

I want to sit on their faces so bad!! I want to feel the scruff from their beards between my thighs

I’d honestly let them do me at the same time 🤭

He makes me wet 😮‍💨😌😌

My sizing kink is coming out.. I just wanna sit on his lap and see my legs between his 🥹 He’s also giving daddy energy 😮‍💨

Hey! So, i saw you took my request for Misa but i was wondering if you could take another request?😊Just a headcanon about the Wammy boys and if their S/O name gets written in the Death Note. How would they react? What would happen if their S/O just had a heart attack in front of them. Would they try to save them or spend their last moments together?🤔 It can be female or gender neutral, your choice! Also, i want to say thank you for writing the Misa headcanon i requested!!😁❤😊 Have a good day

Aw you’re very welcome, anon! It was quite interesting to write, especially since I’d never written anything for Misa before that. And this one seems just as interesting to write... Idk how my angst writing skills are... but enough of my rambling... let’s go!! 

Oh and btw, I excluded BB this time cuz I don’t know much about him tbh.. Just that he’s a serial killer born with Shinigami eyes or sth like that (I’m gonna fix that over the next few days so I might edit this and add him later so if he’s your fav I’m sorry 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️)

Trigger warning: Angst, death and swearing!

L

It always seemed as though L was one step ahead of Kira

Reasonably... L assumed you wouldn’t be caught up in this, seeing as you were a normal person, almost completely uninvolved with the case.

However, what L didn’t realize is that Kira would do ANYTHING to get to L.

And now there he was... 

Witnessing your death.

The utter agony in your eyes made him sick. He had seen many people die... However now that it was you... 

He almost walked away to save himself from the sight of your cold, dead eyes.. 

But he remained there by your side until you drew your very last breath. 

He kissed your forehead, bidding you farewell.

He hoped to see you in another life

And he swore that he’d bring Kira to justice... For you.

Mello

After the gang had gotten the Death Note, they needed to confirm it worked. 

Rod had suggested they use it on some of the lower ranking people in the room... 

Little did Mello know, you happened to be one of them.. 

So, the guy they chose to use the Death Note, Kal Snyder wrote your name down along with a couple other guys.

Mello’s eye’s widened as he saw you collapse along with the others. 

“What the actual fuck Snyder? You do realize I was in a relationship with them right?” Mello barked.

“S... Sorry.. I thought-”

“No, no excuses, Fuck you” Mello pointed his gun at Snyder’s head, clicking the safety off.

No one... and I mean NO ONE killed Mello’s S/O and lived to tell the tale.

He then shot Snyder in the forehead, killing the bastard. 

Then his attention turned to you. 

You were already dead, but still, he softly kissed your lips one last time before standing up. 

His rage boiled and soon overflowed as he snapped and shot the rest of his gang.

The only thing that could calm him down now was some chocolate of the very darkest, most bitter variety.

Matt

Matt thought he’d done everything he could to protect you... 

But turns out.. Kira had gotten to you regardless.

It happened in the car while he was driving.

Cigarette hanging out of his mouth, one hand on the steering wheel the other resting atop your hand. 

When suddenly you spasmed in pain.

“Shit...shit.. shit.. SHIT” Matt screamed out.

He immediately pulled over. 

Matt knew what was happening.. But he didn’t want to believe it.

“Y/N! Y/N! Hey stay with me.” He desperately attempted to bring you back to your senses... Hoping, praying that this was something different, something you could recover from..

But soon, as you stopped breathing, and his attempts at CPR proved futile...

The reality that Kira had truly killed you hit him like a ton of bricks. 

He cried for you... He’d never lost someone this close to him before.. 

He was sure this would stay with him for the rest of his life...

Near

Near had seen this coming... 

But no matter what he did, he couldn’t find a reasonable way to prevent this.

You had been killed by Kira right in front of him. 

As much as his heart hurt for you, he refused to show it. 

Anyone who looked at him would barely be able to tell that anything was wrong.. 

But still he was hurting. 

However, he knew that now wasn’t the time for mourning.

He knew he’d get Kira in the near future. 

He’d avenge your death.

In Quarantine with Mello & Matt

This is still relevant... right?.. Right????

Mello

Ok so this man is irritable

He is even more irritable now that he can't leave the house for anything other than food, groceries, hospital trips and anything else that is important.

He will wear a mask and adhere to guidelines of course, he's not an idiot.

But expect more fights over mundane ass things like who washes the dishes or how annoyed he is that he can't get more chocolate because it's like 4am and the store is closed

.He totally supports small businesses around your area. He will buy their homemade chocolate products if he can..

He will throw hands if somebody coughs or sneezes on him.

Mello isn't the worst to be around during quarantine though.

When working from home (which he does most of the time anyway) he likes cuddles and just general being in the same room as you are.

He gets kinda into baking and really into writing.

Mello really enjoys making bread especially with you.

He also likes making cakes and other sweets..

As for his writing, he gets to a point where he can basically churn out a novel per month... and yes he publishes that shit!

So while Mr. Author extraordinaire is writing his many books of varying quality, he’s extra vulnerable to your affections.. Kisses, You got it, Hugs, Yea, sure, Just leave him be for a while after.

If you get into any other hobbies, he’ll try them with you. 

If you get into anything with yarn or anything like that, He’ll probably love it... He’s like lowkey kinda cottagecore

Mello also gets into online gaming to talk to Matt more often.

Matt

He was basically in quarantine long before it all started. 

Basically nothing changed for him... Well except for the fact that MMOs are more popular!

He’s super stoked to play games all day and geek out.

Buuut, of course he still has a job... in the mafia.. There’s times where you have to force him out of his fantasy world and into the real world. 

Matt is super chill about basically everything... Though.. he is just a little bit stressed seeing the total cases rising.

The only way you could tell is by his smoking habits.

Matt does seem to get just a tad bit clingy... and lazy.

He wants to stay in bed or on the couch with you all day..

He, like Mello will be interested in whatever hobbies you decide to try.. But he won’t do knitting or crocheting... because “that’s old lady shit” to him.

Matt will LOVE you if you start baking though, He will be your designated food taster. 

Matt will try to get you into gaming as well as nerd culture if you aren’t already into it to some degree.

Slushie runs to the local 7 Eleven (Or similar slushie selling convenience stores) happen on an almost weekly basis.

He’ll eventually start impulse buying things he finds cute or interesting... so be prepared for a whole lot of meaningless junk... but I mean he is buying from small businesses online.. So that’s a good thing... But really.. Do you really need 200 worms on strings wearing top hats, Matt?

PEOPLE, WE DON'T WANT ANY MORE SMUT, WE WANT FLUFF

Anyone else but you.

Warnings :: nothing just fluff

Pairing Loverboy!Matt and Sweetheart!reader

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You and Matt we're sitting outside In the front porch with Nate, Chris, Nick, Mary Lou, and Jimmy there was a little fire lit up since it was pretty chilly since it was night, you had Matt's phone up on a table ready to start singing.

Matt hit recorded and started playing the guitar he started a little of the song knowing you were a little shy to start "your a part time lover-" he got cut off by you since you were getting confident "part time lover and a full time friend the monkey on your back is the latest trend I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you"

"I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you" he sang looking at you deeply in love.

"Here is the church, and here is the steeple we sure are cute for two ugly people I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you"

"The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me so why can't you forgive me? I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you." Everyone started clapping Matt pressed the stop button on his phone you smiled shyly and cuddled up against Matt since it was getting pretty chilly he put down the guitar and putted his arm over your shoulder trying to keep you warm.

After a few hours Matt posted the video on his tiktok as his monthly post fans went crazy since a lot of people have been asking you guys to do this cover

The comments:

maliaagee: aw best couple in the whole media *liked by creator*

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Authors note: sorry if this is short chat I just felt like writing something and the cover of anyone else but you came up on my fyp and I just thought it was cute so 😭 yes hope you guys enjoyed!

Introducing Sweetheart!reader

➢ Sienna by The Marías, best paired with Loverboy!Matt, love letters to Loverboy!Matt, holding hands with Loverboy!Matt, skateboarding, Dr Pepper, dark red nail polish, guitars, silly, Hispanic, Tiktok influencer.

Introducing Loverboy!Matt

➢ Echo by Clairo, best paired with Sweetheart!reader, stuffed animals, love letters to Sweetheart!reader, holding hands with Sweetheart!reader, cuddling with only Sweetheart!reader, big softie, Italian, silly, sometimes passenger prince, YouTube influencer.

Grief.

Warnings :: mentions of death & addict, Grief, depression, ED, SH, Suicide

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⚠️DO NOT READ IF YOUR IN A BAD MENTAL STATE OR IF IT TRIGGERS YOU & DON'T DO THIS⚠️

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March 11.

Well Matt died what now.

I mentally don't know if I'm going to get better or not, I wish I could tell someone but I really can't they won't believe me.

I feel so drowned and depressed like so many emotions in me I don't know how to feel anymore, like my body is in pain I feel like I'm not worth anyone's time, I feel so hopeless and not worthy, I wish I could tell anyone but they will say I'm to young or it's the damn phone but no it's none of those two.

I just mentally feel like this and I have for a while tbh, my head hurts almost everyday so does my body and I don't know why, I don't have motion to do anything anymore I just feel like staying in bed all day, I try to act it off when I'm with someone but sometimes I can't and have to hold in my sadness, I really didn't want to feel like this I really didn't.

I have so much to say but I don't know how to start or say it,

God I miss Matt.

maybe just maybe one day I'll feel better, I just want to go back to when I was younger happy all the time, no worries just happiness with Matt by my side but as I grow everything gets harder and stressful, I can't tell anyone about my struggles cause they won't believe me no matter what only Matt would understand but he's gone now. I don't know if I can trust anyone anymore tbh I feel unworthy, depressed, I feel a lot of stuff now, I don't even feel like talking to anyone anymore, I'll get annoyed easily if someone starts talking to me now and I don't know why. sometimes I want to die sometimes I don't, I feel horrible most days on a daily basis for some reason, I want to cry, yell, scream, everything I want to vent to someone but I'll feel like a burden no matter if they say I'm not.

I'll always hate myself, my body, my face, my personality, everything about myself. I sometimes feel boring and like I have no personality like Matt used to say, I do think to myself that I should have not took my childhood for granted, people say I'm not struggling but I am they just don't see it, depression can be invisible that's what I do when I'm around people cause if I talk about my feelings I'll mess up or they just won't understand.

June 10.

I wish my pain would go away I physically want it gone my head has been hurting on a daily basis again I don't know why, maybe one day people will see how much I'm struggling, sometimes I wonder if people even like me, life's getting harder I'm getting distant from everyone even my own family tbh I wish Matt was still here, maybe life is supposed to be like this maybe it isn't, it's crazy just to think about all the times I was happy when I was younger I wonder and think what happened to me what did I do to myself what did humans do to me that I changed so much, maybe one day I can trust someone enough so that I could at least vent for a little.

After Matt's death I haven't felt the same, why wouldn't he come to me and tell me he was struggling so much. I didn't even get to say goodbye maybe soon I'll see him up there with family members and friends but I really do miss Matt it physically hurts no one would understand.

June 15.

Why was I still here? My dad died right on fathers day what worse could happen, I knew that was what my dad wanted tho he was dead before he hit the ground I knew he would be dead cause he always talked about it, well right that happened a year ago. You may be asking what about my mom? Well she's an addict I felt alone but with Matt I never did but he's gone forever and I can't do anything about it.

I haven't eaten not since last month I've felt nauseous I don't even have an appetite anymore I've gotten a eating disorder fuck what's wrong with me. I've gotten more then 20 anxiety attacks in the past week by so many things I don't even know what makes them if Matt were here he would be helping me a lot but I remember he isn't anymore, sometimes I wait for him by his door thinking he'll come out but he doesn't. And I can't even go in his room I'll just sob on the floor right when I enter his room the memories the laughs the crys everything, fuck I really missed him.

June 20.

This could be the end of everything and I'll get to see Matt. I can't even be clean for more then a week my arms stomach legs thighs wrist were a battle field, not eating not being clean for more then a few days not speaking was my cry for help but no one noticed, I've wrote the letters my mom my best friend my sister my brother in law my fav aunt my fav cousin everyone, I was finally done with them so maybe it was time time for me to go.

JULY 10.

Well it's my birthday it's finally time not for me to turn 18 but time for me to leave. I was in my room the lights off a knife in my hand and pills on the floor next to me, I took them and twisted the knife I fell to the floor. My mom heard from downstairs and came running to my room she opened the door and saw me laying on the floor unconscious she ran beside me and fell to her knees crying and called the police and ambulance she was sobbing at this point. The ambulance took my unconscious body and by the time I got to the hospital I was gone. The doctor's told my mom and she fell to her knees once again sobbing till she bearly could breathe.

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Authors note: holy shit I can't believe I wrote this y'all sorry if I wrote something wrong I'm dyslexia so mb😓 hope y'all enjoyed had to put a big ahh warning so no one would do anything that I wrote but if anyone is going there this I hope you get better! (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

Cyber Sex

Summary: Matt is on tour, he was left alone in the hotel room for a while. While your on the phone you hear noises coming from Matt, What are those noises?

Warnings: Smut, Masturbation, Dom! Matt, Sub! Reader, fluff at end ( js a bit ), Poc friendly, no use of y/n, Pet names.

Not proof read !!

Matt was currently on tour, you didn't go because there was really no point, and his fans would go crazy. And he didn't want to cause any issues, because the fans know nothing of you. Yet.

You and Matt were texting back and forth, he told you he had some free time, he had about two hours to himself, so you guys decided to facetime, the long distance killing you both.

The phone rings two times before you see Matt on the other end, Matt looked so good, he had a black hoodie on with the hood up, his eyes hooded, his pink lips swollen like he was biting them.

"Hey baby" he says his voice a bit raspy like he had just woken up, "Hi baby, hows tour?" you ask, Matt goes on a rant about how much he's loving tour, loving the fans, going to different places. But he stays on one topic, how much he misses you.

"I love tour, it's fun. But I miss you." "I miss you too Matt, I can't wit for you to come back."

You had your phone set up against your vanity, the only thing that could be seen was, the hoodie you were wearing that was one size to big, obviously being Matt's hoodie, he takes a mental screenshot of how good you look in his clothes.

You were getting tired of sitting around so you get up and walk away from your desk and walk around your room, you have a pair of Matt's boxers on, so your ass looks bigger than usual.

"fuck" Matt says just above a whisper, "I miss that ass mama, I miss that pretty pussy, how tight it is, how wet I make you." You take a second to try to form words, Matt left you speechless. He was so blunt about everything. A pool begins to form in between your legs.

"Fuck, i'm hard now. You wanna help me out baby?" you nod, you grab your phone and go onto your's and Matt's shared bed. You lay down and wait for Matt to say something.

Matt on the other end begins to palm himself, "fuck baby ... I miss you so much, I need your help." You begin to take off your underwear. You start rubbing slow & small circles on your clit, "Matt pleaseee, I need your help." You angle the phone down so Matt can see your wet pussy, "Fuck baby your so wet, all for me?" Matt says.

You slowly insert one finger, while Matt takes his dick out of his pants, he starts stroking his dick. Taking quick glances at the phone whenever he felt the need to. You look at the phone, you see Matt's face scrunched up in pleasure. Matt angled the phone lower, you see his perfect dick, the same one you haven't seen in almost a month.

It was pink, thick, and long. You imagine his dick replacing your fingers, "Matt pleasee, go faster I need to." You said, Matt speeds up his and, going faster and faster each stroke, you go faster, now having two fingers.

Your chanting out Matt's name, each time you say his name he tries to wrap his hand on his dick tighter. Imagining your pretty pink insides taking him so well, "fuck baby, you take me so well. How those fingers making you feel?" "Not as good as you Matt I need your dick, I need it so bad." Matt smirks at this, knowing not even yourself can make you feel as good as he does.

"Matt baby, i'm so close, i'm so closeee." you whine out, "Me too baby, let's cum together." You guys both release at the same time, "Come on baby, taste yourself for me" you take your fingers out of your sensitive hole, your seed spilling out of you, while you move your two fingers up to your mouth, swirling your tongue around.

"Good girl, your so good for me baby. I love you" "I love you too" you say in a sleepy voice, but before you can fall asleep, you hear Matt telling you that you need to clean yourself up, so you get up to go wash up.

You laid down, set your phone up to go to sleep on the phone with Matt. Matt had an idea, he was tired of keeping your relationship private so he posted a pic of you both on his instgram.

Matthew.Sturniolo

Caption: I miss my baby, so here's a picture to show my appreciation for her <3. @ randompage

Tags: @hoesformatt, @luverboychris, @summerssover, @hearts4chriss, @muwapsturniolo, @jnkvivi, @urmom2evil

Shower Sex

summary: Inspired by the new Friday Video, Matt went to take Nick to get his wisdom teeth taken out. While you stood home, when Matt gets back home he walks into the bathroom ...

Warnings: Smut, Shower-head usage, overstimulation, praising, fingering, Cream-pie, No use of y/n, poc friendly. Blue = Matt, pink = you, Credit's to me for the edit (shameless plug).

Not proof read !!

You were laying down in Matt's bed, he already left about 10 minutes ago to taken Nick to his appointment with Chris. You were scrolling on tiktok, an edit of Matt popped up and you wanted to be annoying and send it to him.

My Man 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻🩷.

Damn this editor ate down, you look so fine. i wanna eat you 😩.

Okay weird, What I told you about sending me these edits?

I don't care, you look good asf.

yelling out my man foreverrrrr

lmaoo, okay baby. I'll see you later.

Dry ass response but okay.

Relax.

You didn't say anything else after that not knowing how to respond, so you just let him rock.

An hour passed and you wanted to see where Matt is, so you check his location and he was already on his way back to the house, you wanted to shower before he got home so you get up from his bed and get into the shower.

After 20 minutes of you being in the Bathroom you hear Chris's loud ass laugh, you just wait for Matt to come in the bathroom looking for you.

you hear the bathroom door open, assuming it's Matt of course, but still you call out his name, "Matt?" he hums and you hear the sound of clothes dropping.

you feel a colder breeze enter the shower, Matt came inside the shower, he doesn't say anything he just gives you a hug and places his head on your shoulder.

"What happened baby? Is Nick okay?" "yea he's fine, he went to take a nap" you feel matt kissing up on your neck.

You ignore it for a little trying to keep the conversation going, "You okay Matt? You seem tired?" "mhm, im fine" with that last sentence Matt started sucking on your neck, sending vibrations through your whole body.

"Matt.. I still haven't even showered.." "that's fine baby i'll be quick."

Matt's hands trail down from your waist, gripping your ass before making it to your already throbbing cunt. He began to rub slow small circles on your cunt, while rubbing your inner thighs with his thumbs.

"Matt please" you sigh out, "Please what." "Touch me baby please"

Matt slowly inserts his index finger inside you, it goes in easy, your slick helping him out already. "Damn baby so tight and wet" he slowly takes his finger out to tease you.

"grab the shower head" you reach up to grab it and matt takes it from you and puts it on the third setting, he puts it on your clit on warning.

Your jaw drops, Matt takes his free hand and moves it closer and closer to you hole. He slowly inserts his finger in, while still pushing the shower head closer.

You were a moaning mess. Chanting Matts' name, "Shh baby, we don't want Chris to hear now, do we?" you nod your head, trying to contain the moans that were threatening to come out of you.

you were getting overstimulated at this point, "Matt please, pleasee" you said, "Please what?" "Let me cum please."

Matt quickens the pace of his fingers, removing the shower head, now just relying on his fingers to please you, "Cum ma." Shortly after you release on his fingers, leaning back on him.

"You did so good for me mama." Matt said, you catch your breath and put the shower head back. As soon as you put the shower head back, matt grabs your waist again. Without warning he pounds himself in you.

This causes a pornographic moan to slip from your lips, Matt is quick to grip your face, "either you shut up, or I stop." you nod, and bite your bottom lip, trying to contain all the moans.

Matt's thrusts don't slow down, there fast and hard, he's hitting all the good spots. He thrusts harder, hitting your g-spot, "Shit matt." you said barely above a whisper.

"oh? right there?" he says while thrusting up to your g-spot again. "yes matt right fucking there." Matt doesn't stop, continuously abusing your g-spot. You begin to tighten around Matt, signifying your close to your orgasm once again. This doesn't stop matt though, he's still thrusting into you at a relentless pace.

"Matt baby i'm closee." "Me too baby, Come on cum with me" as he said that you both let go, he pushes himself deeper inside of you one last time before cumming, you right after.

Matt doesn't move, still inside you pushing his cum deeper into your pussy. he finally pulls out, causing the mixed sum to go down your leg.

"you did so good for me baby. Now let's take an actual shower" he says while grabbing all the things to clean you both up.

Tags: @hoesformatt @chrissturniolosbitch @hearts4chriss @luverboychris @mattslolita @summerssover @muwapsturniolo

Say it

Summary: in which Matt & Nerdy Poc reader are Friends with benefits, but matt says something unexpectedly …

Warnings: overstimulation, squirting, fingering, oral f! receiving, praising. fluff at end ! No use of y/n , Dom! matt x Sub! reader. texts: blue = matt pink = reader .

Requested: @chrissturniolosbitch requested !

You and Matt have been friends forever, you guys have been through everything together, you guys have done everything together.

Matt was your first everything which led to you guys being friends with benefits, you were always so interested in school, while Matt wasn’t so much.

You were in college in LA while Matt was perusing his youtube career. At times you would be in their youtube videos but you never wanted to because you were camera shy.

When you guys established this friends with benefits thing, you guys decided no strings attached. No feelings, which was fine for you both in the beginning, but as time went on you both started to have feelings for each other.

One day you were bored and decided to text Matt to come over, which would be no problem because he always wanted to be with you.

Matt 🫶🏽🫶🏽.

Matt can you come over ?

Yea i can, what’s up ?

i want you.

Omw.

“FUCK Matt right there” Matt was eating you out like no other, you were tugging on matt’s hair, causing him to groan into your pussy, sending vibrations through your entire body.

"Matt I'm close, im so close don't stop" Matt didn't plan on stoping, he was going to keep going until you came all over his face. "FUCK Matt I'm cuming" you came all over his face, "wait I still gotta clean this up" he said Matt when back down to your glistening cunt, he began to lick all of your juices of your thighs and make sure to lick the rest off of your throbbing cunt, causing you to clench around nothing.

Matt came up and looked at you with pure lust. You just wait to see what matt's next move is, Matt begins to take off his pants, leaving him in only his boxers, you look down to see his cock, he has a wet spot on his boxers from his pre - cum.

Matt finally takes of his boxers, causing his dick to slap up on his stomach, your waitin to see what he's going to do next, "I want you to beg, beg me to fuck you" he grabs his dick and start rubbing it between your folds, your eyes begin to roll, and you start to whine, Matt has never been like this, but you like it so you obey.

"Matt please fuck me, please please please, I need your cock in me now" as soon as you said that Matt rams himself in you and you let out a pornographic moan.

"Who's pussy is this? Tell me right now." Matt says growling in your ear" Yours Matt, all fucking YOURS" "yea that's fucking right" you're unable to process words from how hard Matt is fuckin you, your back begins to arch off the bed, allowing Matt to ram into you faster.

"Look at you, dumb on my fucking cock. Who else gets to see you like this? No one" "no one Matt only you!"

"That's fucking right" "Matt I'm close, I'm so CLOSE" you yell out, Matt takes his hand and begins to run fast circles on your clit. Your left open mouthed, nothing is coming out of your mouth, Matt feels your clenching around him, "come baby, come all over my cock" as soon as he said that you let go, this time harder than the last, Matt continues rubbing on your clit causing you to squirt. Matt still trying to get to his high, keeps ramming into you.

"Fuck baby, you feel so good, FUCK I'm cuming, I love you so much"

Matt's left in his thoughts after saying "I love you" he really hopes you didn't hear him. But you did.

Matt pulls out of you, your cum mixing together, he lowers himself to your glistening cunt and mixes yours and his cum together.

After catching your breath you call out to Matt, "Matt, why'd you say I love you?" you question, he internally curses himself out, "I'm sorry ma, it just came out." you take a second before you speak. "I love you too matt" and you climb over him to sit on his chest, he looks at you for a second before he pulls you into a passionate kiss, his hands begin to move around your body, he stays on your ass squeezing and needing it in his hands, this leads you to moan into the kiss.

He pulls away "Be my girlfriend." he says, you say yes of course. But as your about to get of his chest Matt grips your thighs, he pulls you up onto his face, and begins to eat you out again.

You have no choice but to grip onto the headboard, considering your still sensitive from the last round it feels even better, your sent into a euphoric pleasure from how good Matt is eating you out.

You can't even form words, all you can do is chant his name, Matt sticks his tonuge inside your clenching hole, Matt feels how tight you are, "come all over my face again baby" with jus two long licks you cum all over again. Your about to move again but Matt is still feasting, hes licking up every bit of cum on your cunt.

Matt still slurping you up, you feel another orgasm coming, this one stronger than the rest "Matt I'm- AH - cuming again" and with that you squirt all over his face.

Your finally able to get up and apologize to Matt, he just starts laughing, "baby it's okay, I did I on purpose. Now let get you cleaned up" and with that Matt carrys you into the bathroom to clean you up, after cleaning up everything, Matt puts you in his Tee, and lays you down on the bed, "goodnight mama, I love you" "goodnight matt I love you too" and with that you both fall asleep in eachothers arms, not as friends with benefits but as a couple.

@chrissturniolosbitch @hearts4chriss @luverboychris @hoesformatt

All Mine

Summary: Matt x Poc reader ! In which Matt & his gf stayed home all day and binged Movies.

Warnings: None, Fluffy, no use of y/n. Shortt :(

It was a Thursday night and you were laying down in Matt's bed, it was almost 2am and Matt had just gotten home from filming a car video. You hear his bedroom door open and move your phone to look at Matt "hey baby, how'd filming go?" He doesn't say anything so you assume it either went bad or he was tried. Went he got to the bed he grabbed your phone and threw it somewhere on the bed, he lays on your chest and wrapped his arms around your waist.

"it was okay, just Nick & Chris being annoying like always" you don't say anything, you just rub his back, " i missed you baby". Matt moves his hands from your waist and puts them under your ass, and says "I missed this too" he squeezed your ass while he said it, it caught you off guard and you let out a high pitched sigh.

You heat Matt let out a low chuckle, he gets up "ima take a shower, pick out a movie" Matt takes his phone out his pocket and throws it next to you, "and pick out something to eat, get whatever you want and just get me whatever" you pick out Mcdonalds and get a 10 piece meal, you get Matt the same thing.

After you order the food you turn on the tv to pick a movie, you picked a scary movie, you picked Scream, the newest one, Matt comes back from the Bathroom with Grey sweats and a white tee shirt on, his pants are low enough for you to just see the waistband of his red underwear. "you picked a movie?" " yea i picked scream 6" he nodded his head and walked to the bed, " what'd you order?" " Mcdonalds" you said while smiling, he didn't say anything and he just laid down with you.

His phone rang as soon as he go into the bed, the food was there, you asked him if he wanted you to go get the food and he said no and went to go grab it, he comes back and puts the bag on the bed, "baby be careful with the sodas, because I got a doctor pepper and I got you a coke" he nods his head and grabs the straws to try both.

He gives you your soda after trying it, "I don't want this, not after you put ur mouth on it" he looks at you for a second and rolls his eyes, "yea ion know why you saying all that, you've done had ya mouth on this dick" you look at him wide eyed, " damn Matthew. Never that serious" he laughs and gives you your food.

He sits on the bed and passed you your food, you were on the other side of the bed and Matt grabs you waist and pulls you closer, you grab the remote and play the movie. After eating you and Matt lay down, you lay down on Matt's chest, you look up at him and see him slowly falling asleep, before he falls asleep he gives you a kiss, "goodnight, love you" "love you too matt" he gets more comfortable and wraps both of his arms around your waist, one hand on your ass.

Matt falls asleep with you shortly after.

im back guyssss, my bad ive js been mad busy, but ill be back for sure.

@hoesformatt @hearts4chriss @chrissturniolosbitch @luverboychris @xxloveralways14 @ksskianshd

i’ve been forgetting about this app…

i’m writing tmr , im starting tonight but idk who to write about , so pick .