Just Give Me A Million Dollars And I’ll Take Your Thetan Count (OT) And When You Reach OT 9 Ill Tell

All Things Remain Much the Same

You know what I LOVE about reformed junkies and what not?  even without the junk they’re still awesome at only talking about themselves, their problems, and things relating to them, its good to know suckin ya own metaphoric dick aint contingent on a needle.  They’ve learned alot...through Jesus....

( dies laughing )

Concerning Lucifer part 1

Lucifer, latin for the morning star, venus, or simply light bringer, the enlightened one.  In pre Judaic times, Canaanite mythology, Lucifer, or Attar, as he’s referred as, attempted to claim the throne of Ba'al and, finding he was unable to do so, descended and ruled the underworld.  Our Judaeo-Christian version is about the same, in ours Lucifer thought God was treating humans as children and puppets and thought we could handle more, he also thought he could handle more and was being underutilized in heaven, and god and him had a war and you know the rest.

In the garden, he appears as a serpent, and tells Eve to eat from the “ tree of knowledge of good and evil “ which we all sort of assume is sex, and yeah, it is, but it has more undertones than that, anyways I digress.  He wanted humans, being godlike in the very nature of their creation, like lucifer, in gods image, thought they deserved to know more. 

If you actually read the bible, and take it literally ( it’s been proven atheists actually know the bible a large percentage more than devout christians, like the bible says, know thy enemy... ) then everything that makes humans, humans, is due to lucifers influence.  Our need to question, explore ( especially sexually ) our distaste for authority and our love of knowledge and of conquer.  Our innate need to scape the world in straight lines we can understand rather than letting the path wind as it may. 

All god did was make us, kick us out of his house, drowned us, turned us to salt, then said well you’re on your own now, and abandoned us.  In the book of Job God makes a bet with Satan, God being petty as he is says no no, people all love me, look at job, job praises me daily.  Satan says well thats just because you’re good to him, if you werent hed curse your name.  So god killed all of jobs livestock and crops, killed his wife and children and gave job painful blisters all over his body, and job still praises gods name.  God turns to satan and says ha ha poopyface, see, i win!  Poopyface.  and Satan presumably takes a sip of booze in silent horror and confusion and says yup, you win again, i guess...

Satan appeared to jesus when he was in the desert and said you know, ya dads gonna kill you, your friends betrayed you and i just wanted you to know, im not like, asking for your soul or anything.  And jesus was like fuck you satan my daddys the best, my daddies always right poopyface!  and satan shrugged and said like, the fuck is up with these people...can lead a horse to water I guess, then he presumably got drunk and had some kinky leatherclad fetish sex with someone. 

People are always hating on Satan, because they dont understand him, and nothing scares humans more than what they cant understand.

“ But who prays for Satan? Who in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most, our one fellow and brother who most needed a friend yet had not a single one, the one sinner among us all who had the highest and clearest right to every Christian's daily and nightly prayers, for the plain and unassailable reason that his was the first and greatest need, he being among sinners the supremest? “ - Mark Twain

Ive said it a million times, and like all my thoughts they are either ignored or chalked up to me being an asshole, asshole is an easier title than " mind set i cant fully understand " humans love a witch hunt but...

12 step programs will never work, their very basis implies that you are too stupid and weak to fix your life and you need some random theological third party, and a contact book of sponsors to stop yourself.  When you relinquish power to a higher power, you assume no responsibility, you assume no control, and whats left of your will power flutters away.

Much like a confessional in church, you then fix nothing about yourself, bottle shit up til it explodes and then apologize on sunday to a sponsor who will do nothing but tell you it isnt your fault and that your struggle is in jesus' hands or, whatever.  If you take this approach, you will always be a junky, whatever the substance, heroin, alcohol, sex, whatever.  You are nothing but your mind, the whole world is processed and interpreted through your mind, if your mind never changes, if you relinquish responsibility, you will always see the same world, because the world is what it is, its just how you feel about what it is that changes your perception.

I may be an asshole, but atleast im not a victim.

Concerning Politics

One of my favorite books, “ No Longer Human “ by Osamu Dazai was written in 1930s Japan, during which his drinking buddy, Horiki, brought him to a secret communist meeting, thereafter horiki never showed up again, and he did it out of whatever reason, but he made a comment that the communist movement was mostly right, and so obvious it didnt merit discussion, much like debating 2+2 equaling 4, and thats where America is at, Trump supporters, are retards, people against trump, are retards for trying to sway the retards behind him, and i dont really give a shit what you think on the matter, if you can be sold so cheaply you should be counted a moron, regardless which side it is you defend, its simple 2+2 to anyone with a mind.

Nietzsche once said “ Distrust in all those whom the urge to punish is strong “ and youd be hard pressed to find a more true statement, not that im OVERLY intellectual but i have my moments, and the more you know the less you know, and if you think otherwise you dont know.  Not that im defending neo Nazis like trump but, as Nietzsche also says

“ the poison which weakens the weaker nature strengthens the stronger, and he doesn’t call it poison, either.  We’ve, since our inception as “culture(s) have backed one horse or another blindly, any real political mind, I think, will tell you theres no way to totally fix anything, light beats the dark, but dark beats the light as often, we are in a limbo of fates between the smug and the moronic and which prevails isnt a testament of right or wrong, but rather, which particular power can flex the most at any given point, everything you have thought, think, or will think is a lie and until you understand this basic fact, you will never understand anything at all...

Watching nazi shit lately, Anne frank made it til something like 3 weeks before the war ended, she and her sister died of typhoid, shall we then assume that despite good or bad, we are to make it right up until we may make it, and die short? Do we all simply live JUST to die? what is life, is life truly contingent on those around you that allow it?  Is life forever a witch hunt?

Are you only heard when some crazy force silences you?  if anne frank, despite her words that should have been heard, were ugly, would her diary sell as well?  Many many MANY deep thinking minds were destroyed in ww2,i find it strangely convenient that the stories that sell best are the ones with a good face that are edited well, are all stories contingent on how we sell them to the tribe of man?

What makes a story you want to read,is it the thoughts therein or is it how pretty the thoughts are worded, do the sounds need to come out of a face you somehow remotely relate to?  what IS it you consider depth, and more importantly WHY is it considered depth?  Have you any questions to ask?  Is the editor of the story really the one that makes ya dick hard/ginny tickle, do you even know what it IS that really tickles you? Questions Questions.

Shall it then forever be a battle of who has the prettiest words,or is it, supplementally the one who says the words closest to your own thoughts?  Do you strive to relate to people or do you strive to find those who would mirror yourself in your small view of the world and tiny endeavors therein?  

shall you then punish those who would deny your instant gratification?  should a stifling word become you antithesis?   Have I done too many mushrooms in my life?  Probably...

Do you really know what it is to be alive before you face death?  How many people do you have to bury do you think before youve outlived enough people?  what is it you want from life, what the fuck IS it you want?!

Do you imagine death as some floating experience in the clouds, do you see it as the end?  Are there truly any ends?  What IS it to end?  are not all beginnings some other end?  Can your tiny brain even conceive of not being?  If not, is that some copping mechanism?   Are you just stupid?  what IS stupid?

Are the victims of the world the only voices that matter?  Do we all not suffer our own hell, Is the winner not really a loser? Has not every action we should do have repercussions of which we cant comprehend, can we even comprehend ourselves?  

Will our spouses that cheat on us, or our self involved children save us from such fates?  are we just dooming those around us to suffer in our fate, to drown in the tides of our own raging waters?  Why is it we only destroy that which we hold dear?

Are you breathing right now?  Are you sure?  if you were to wake up tomorrow after that 8 hour death and find out there were infact no life to return to,would YOU be any different?  Do you cry out of pain or do you cry for attention?  What IS it to cry?....

Here is another song I played on the kids guitar ( its actually a really nice playing spanish guitar its just...small ) which I play admittedly different on purpose, I never liked the original rhythm it doesn’t feel right.  Though his is much better, this is Bob Dylans “ You Belong to Me “

America is a horrible, terrifying country run by mostly rich old white men supported by white mouth breathing morons whom the urge to punish is strong especially if you're not white.  America literally sucks you dry of any resources, until you run out, then they lock you up and use you as slave labor.

America then uses the funds from that and their other vast shady endeavors to wage war under false banners for oil and further wealth gain, which it then evenly distributes amongst basically 12 mr burns type old guys, half of which are Pfizers ( hitlers family ) and Rockefellers ( Oil vampires that have their hands in the med/food pfizer cookie jar )

I know i know, im some stupid liberal and im reporting fake news, because math isnt science anymore...

“ Sometimes i feel so happy, sometime I feel so sad.  Sometimes I feel so happy, but mostly you just, make me mad, baby you just, make me mad. Linger on, your pale blue eyes, linger on, your pale blue eyes.  Thought of you as my mountaintop, thought of you as my peak, thought of you as everything, I’ve had but, couldn’t keep, I’ve had but couldn’t keep.”

“ For seven long years I’ve been in prison, for 7 long more I have to stay, just for knocking a man down in an alley, and taking his gold watch away.  Sitting alone, sad all alone, sitting in my cell, all alone, oh thinking of those good times gone by me, knowing that I once had a home “