Ive said it a million times, and like all my thoughts they are either ignored or chalked up to me being an asshole, asshole is an easier title than " mind set i cant fully understand " humans love a witch hunt but...
12 step programs will never work, their very basis implies that you are too stupid and weak to fix your life and you need some random theological third party, and a contact book of sponsors to stop yourself. When you relinquish power to a higher power, you assume no responsibility, you assume no control, and whats left of your will power flutters away.
Much like a confessional in church, you then fix nothing about yourself, bottle shit up til it explodes and then apologize on sunday to a sponsor who will do nothing but tell you it isnt your fault and that your struggle is in jesus' hands or, whatever. If you take this approach, you will always be a junky, whatever the substance, heroin, alcohol, sex, whatever. You are nothing but your mind, the whole world is processed and interpreted through your mind, if your mind never changes, if you relinquish responsibility, you will always see the same world, because the world is what it is, its just how you feel about what it is that changes your perception.
I may be an asshole, but atleast im not a victim.
Lucifer, latin for the morning star, venus, or simply light bringer, the enlightened one. In pre Judaic times, Canaanite mythology, Lucifer, or Attar, as he’s referred as, attempted to claim the throne of Ba'al and, finding he was unable to do so, descended and ruled the underworld. Our Judaeo-Christian version is about the same, in ours Lucifer thought God was treating humans as children and puppets and thought we could handle more, he also thought he could handle more and was being underutilized in heaven, and god and him had a war and you know the rest.
In the garden, he appears as a serpent, and tells Eve to eat from the “ tree of knowledge of good and evil “ which we all sort of assume is sex, and yeah, it is, but it has more undertones than that, anyways I digress. He wanted humans, being godlike in the very nature of their creation, like lucifer, in gods image, thought they deserved to know more.
If you actually read the bible, and take it literally ( it’s been proven atheists actually know the bible a large percentage more than devout christians, like the bible says, know thy enemy... ) then everything that makes humans, humans, is due to lucifers influence. Our need to question, explore ( especially sexually ) our distaste for authority and our love of knowledge and of conquer. Our innate need to scape the world in straight lines we can understand rather than letting the path wind as it may.
All god did was make us, kick us out of his house, drowned us, turned us to salt, then said well you’re on your own now, and abandoned us. In the book of Job God makes a bet with Satan, God being petty as he is says no no, people all love me, look at job, job praises me daily. Satan says well thats just because you’re good to him, if you werent hed curse your name. So god killed all of jobs livestock and crops, killed his wife and children and gave job painful blisters all over his body, and job still praises gods name. God turns to satan and says ha ha poopyface, see, i win! Poopyface. and Satan presumably takes a sip of booze in silent horror and confusion and says yup, you win again, i guess...
Satan appeared to jesus when he was in the desert and said you know, ya dads gonna kill you, your friends betrayed you and i just wanted you to know, im not like, asking for your soul or anything. And jesus was like fuck you satan my daddys the best, my daddies always right poopyface! and satan shrugged and said like, the fuck is up with these people...can lead a horse to water I guess, then he presumably got drunk and had some kinky leatherclad fetish sex with someone.
People are always hating on Satan, because they dont understand him, and nothing scares humans more than what they cant understand.
“ But who prays for Satan? Who in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most, our one fellow and brother who most needed a friend yet had not a single one, the one sinner among us all who had the highest and clearest right to every Christian's daily and nightly prayers, for the plain and unassailable reason that his was the first and greatest need, he being among sinners the supremest? “ - Mark Twain
Here is another song I played on the kids guitar ( its actually a really nice playing spanish guitar its just...small ) which I play admittedly different on purpose, I never liked the original rhythm it doesn’t feel right. Though his is much better, this is Bob Dylans “ You Belong to Me “
Feed your head.
A 12 step program:
1 - Earth is formed from dust and shit
2 - Water forms, weird little fish frog things come out
3 - Monkeys evolve from said fish frogs in southern africa
4 - Monkeys leave africa, come up with religion
5 - Lots and lots of people die over religions
6 - we start farming animals, get a slew of diseases
7 - we wipe eachother out with diseases
8 - we invent penicillin and shit
9 - we go back to killing eachother over cartoon characters in the sky
10 - History repeats itself
11 - We all get fat, and destroy the atmosphere, we die and take everything with us
12 - The sun dies, no one is around to notice we were ever there
The End
Hellraiser Directed by Clive Barker (1987)
Once upon a time, Hitler took power in Germany and the German people backed him, under the guise of a work party to compensate lost jobs due to immigration, and we all know how THAT went. The Germans, they took a long rich history of intelligent hard working people, and forever ruined their credibility thereafter.
When America elected trump, under the guise of immigrants ruining our welfare, and by improving our infrastructure somehow magically by creating more jobs no one wants and by building a wall on a border that’s nothing but underground drug tunnels, we did the exact same thing, and when america fails and disappears, which it will, we will be a footnote in a book written in some new language, we'll go down as a short lived failed experiment of redneck morons, built on lies, genocide and slavery, and ending just as cartoony, and not soon enough.
I’m an American, a REAL American, none of this eagle bumpersticker love it or leave it horseshit, an American questions, an American doesn’t love it or leave it, he changes it through peaceful democratic means. This whole heritage not hate shit is just that, shit, you don’t see Germans flying swastika flags for history. No you’re neonazis and that’s why you elected trump, lets be honest now, He said everything your ill-informed mind wanted to hear, you, much like him, researched none of the facts, he just said shit, and you just listened because it was what you wanted to hear, and now we as Americans have lost what LITTLE intellectual credibility we had in the world, and will probably get bombed from if not it, the domino effect thereafter.
The Buddhist in me would like to remind you: Everything is as it should be, and we live long enough to be enlightened enough to be dead for even longer, to be free of the suffering of need, by no longer having any needs. Don’t cry when America is gone, don’t cry when anyones gone, you’re a child of the Earth and to the Earth you’ll return, anything else is Babylonian babble. America....it was fun while it lasted, wasn’t it kids?
Some of my Junkie friends have melted their minds so badly I don’t even know what the fuck they’re saying half the time, especially when typed. I don’t mean spelling mistakes, i mean its like they have their own weird version of brain damaged english, they all seem to understand eachother, the rest of us are pretty much in the dark though. Here’s a real example:
“ docking it all day we gettin it in.... cant let them bring u down or they will alway feel important....im scared to run with this chick the past got me in totally diffrent mindset “ Sure those are all, words, they umm, sort of convey, something or rather.
And in typical histrionic needy junky fashion, they usually post about chicks/dudes not loving em, or how no one wants to hang out with them, woe is them, no one wants to hang out with you because you cant form a coherant sentence, you’re always stealing something or trying to borrow money, you turn every conversation into an excuse to cry about yourself, and you are literally walking hepatitis. We’re SO gonna miss you guys when you OD, good thing you all manage to have like 3 kids you dont teach shit to before you kick the bucket, pass it forward...
“The Quiet Vessel” by Bryan Olson
Musings and more of a despondant 30 year old man, former drug addict, current writer/alcoholic. I'm unmarried, I have no children, and all my dreams are dead, I've wasted my life, and you can too! Never say never. Sometimes prolific, mostly offensive observations about people, life, and the nature of the universe. I'm a communist, your god's a lie, hate mail welcome.
221 posts