Dream Journal

Swedish children discuss the concept of god in a way that makes most adults look like morons.  Just for fun, here’s a list of the most atheist countries in the world:

1 - China

2 - Japan

3 - Czech Republic

4 - France

5 - Australia

6 - Iceland

I Really Hate the “ I Can’t Help it Attitude “

I come from a long line of drunks, my Mothers family were Swedish Immigrants and my fathers family was German and Irish.  Not giving validation to stereotypes, but, all these people have drinking problems.  If you read say Angelas Ashes, Frank McCourts dad would work long enough to get paid, drink away all the wadges and lose his job for not showing up, over and over. 

He has a way with the drink they say.  That’s bullshit and I’ll tell you why, i can remember stories of people in my family drinking canned heat ( that alcohol based fire in a can ) and you’d think that would kill you but scientifically if you mix enough regular alcohol with rubbing alcohol it cancels out the formaldehyde digestion process, though I wouldnt try it...

My family on ALL sides, came from dirt, just, the poorest of the poor, and they ALL had drinking problems, but they all went to work, and they all raised their kids and they all did what they fucking had to do, period.  This whole “ Im a junky, I’m an alcoholic, I have no control over my actions because I’m drunk and or on junk “ is horseshit and the worst part is, you know that, even when you’re plowed you know you’re being a selfish asshole.

The root cause of your problem isnt substances, abstaining from said substances is just a crutch, a facilitation of excuse, you need to learn how to drink or smoke or whatever with a little fucking decorum and discipline.  A fat person may lose weight and say well im never eating bacon again, the bacon didnt make you fat, the fact that you had to eat 4 plates of it did, the bacons not the problem, the drugs arent the problem, the economy, the people around you arent the problem, your family isnt the problem, the fucking problem is YOU, and you need to change you and not just eliminate all the things that make you a dickhead about life, because there are alot of things...

Ur the man

Love you too

Themed Blogs

You know like, the fat goth chick that makes sure every picture they post is black and white, or even worse the like color themers, people that have purple writing and tint all their pictures purple, thats not art, its fucking gay and a waste of your time and mine, get a real skill if you wanna make art.

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My blog is going to be nothing but ranting basically, but i LOVE reading other peoples rants, and how fuckin unimportant the shit they care about is.  Gays and Lesbians crying about microgressions on how theyre genderfluid and not some other made up word or whatever stupid bullshit their special club comes up with.

Weebs bitching about Anime, Housewives bitching about their favorite fictional characters beings killed off from their faggy where has my life gone housewife shows.  Fat girls crying about sexual harassment, who you kiddin honey, you WISH you were being sexually harassed, hell so do I.  Yes I called you honey sugartits, cry about it on your blog.

Oh this ones my favorite ( and once i get some followers im sure the comment flames will be epic ) people bitching about people bitching in their comments about posts bitching about things. Though I’m bitching about people bitching about people bitching at their bitching, lifes all very grey area-ish.  No the stranger online didnt like you or what you had to say, no one on the internet or any other medium likes you either, hang yourself, I’ll teach you how to tie the noose if you want, start by putting the rope down like an “S” then you take one end and start wrapping it around...

Oh yeah, he does music too.

Your Addiction is Bullshit

I’ve quit more drugs than most of you have done, It’s all in your weak little mind.  Now dont get confused, I’m not belittling addicts, it’s a hard thing to deal with, but you can do it, and you can do it without other sad addicts and meetings and bullshit.  These are crutches that still keep whatever substance near and dear to your heart, sure you dont do it, but you talk about it each and every week, and then when you go back to it you wonder why.

Believe all the fairy tales you want, theres no such thing as a successful 12 step program, stop being a fuckin rube about it, I go days, weeks without this or that drug, sometimes its physical symptoms, thats just like having the flu, man up.  You’re stronger than any drug, or you’re not and it will kill you, you decide which its all within your mind, but stop, STOP being an annoying cunt about it, if everytime you open ya mouth you mention your recovery or whatever, just spike up, atleast youll shut the fuck up about it.

The first time I smoked crack I was like 14,we were doin it ALL weekend, none of us slept, and then I went to school monday.  I felt like shit for days, but I got over it, without any external influence what so ever, i could do it as a child, you can do it as a sentient adult, stop this nonesense. 

I know I sound mean, and i sound like all the ignorant people that havent been there, but I’m not mean, and i HAVE been there, half your addiction problem was people enabling and coddling you, you cant recover with more coddling, youre responsible, YOU, and only YOU can change it, collect all the dumb sobriety coins you want, theyre a nice little token of how youre wasting your life now instead of booze or heroin or, what the fuck ever.

Jesus doesnt love you, love yourself.  Hell if Jesus IS real he’s the one that let you get all fuckin smacked up in the first place, he was a bit of a wine drinker I’m sure he was just passed out.

I love these new DNA testing sites they have, I should really drop the 80 bucks.  But these videos of like, skinheads finding out theyre jews, or white supremacists finding out they’re 18% subsaharan african is just, wonderful.  Not just because its funny but because math doesnt lie, and it’s hard to say it lies.

Really ALL humans are SOME african, but these tests dont go THAT far back.  I watched a video of Irish people taking these tests, and they came back as youd guess if you know history, brittish/irish, spanish, and middle eastern.  Germans/Scandinavians often come up 78-80% western european, and then some middle eastern or Indian.  I’m interested to know but I’m also poor, so I will guess, based on no actual science other than the videos ive seen of people with my general ancestry and roots:

70-75% Western European

10% Middle Eastern

5% Italian/Iberian ( Spanish )

5% Native American

5% Other.

Now when I break down and buy the test, which lets be honest i probably will, I’ll site this and see how close I am.

A Thought on Brain Neurology and Hallucinogenics

( Working Title: A drunk monkey tries to lazily teach other monkeys the essence of monkeyness through half explanation and zero sources sited )

We are our brains, we know this, but do we really grasp what that means?  We are lumps of fat, with, for easy example lumps of different fat in which not actual thoughts but memories reside.  We fire an electrical charge through pathways to said fat pockets, think of it like hallways to different doors.  How your mind actually works, it doesn’t tell you fire is hot, you see fire and subconsciously remember a time when you were burned and know fire is hot.

So firstly your brains working in a sort of weird unbenounced symbolism, but here’s the fun bit:

A.) the more the “hallways” are used the wider they get, electricity always seeks the path of least residence, thus if you are depressed, anxious, what have you that is partly why, those hallways are big, but most lead to one redirectory door, we’ll cover that...

B.) each time you visit a door, each time you remember, you dont remember the event, you actually remember REMEMBERING the event, so each time you open the door like a bad game of telephone the room is different, the couch is green now and not blue or whatever.

Now i wont get into the complexities of the brain and all the different areas, but for easy talk, we have a part of the brain that’s like our autopilot, our automatic train of thought, when you watch tv, ,when you take a bath, when you do anything not too hard, you’re half in auto pilot.  It used to be rumored, and is now confirmed by science that hallucinogens expand the mind, and they make you more creative, and why that is, is most these hallways lead to this autopilot door, which then directs you down familiar hallways.  Psilocybin Mushrooms in particular, shut down this autopilot section, and thus you have to discover, lets call them round about hallways

These hallways which cut out that autopilot central hall directory, electricity will attempt to find the door its searching for for whatever experience its looking to relearn from at that moment, however it will often find a closer door, an unlocked door, which will open and be a recollection of a different memory that teaches the same thing, fire hot, whatever.  The brain has a way of compensating like that in more ways than one. 

Mushrooms are now being used fairly regularly in western medicine to cure depression, because unlike contemporary anti depressants, which depress the parts of the brain that create the depression, or stimulate the parts that will help, etc, they dont control the regulation of the squeaky door so to say, they find a whole new door, time and time again, your brain all doors.  Xanax will inhibit the anxiety bit of your brain, but you’ll always need xanax, youll never be cured, and really lets be honest western medicine doesn’t want you cured, you wont buy the xanax then.

If you love knowledge, if you love your brain, do mushrooms, drop acid, just like all the anti pot propaganda, its all lies and science proves its all lies time and time again.  Don’t do heroin, don’t smoke meth, but definitely trip.  Thank you for your kind attention, and i hope we can taste colors together sometime soon.