Wasted-life-musings - Musings Of A Wasted Life

When you’re lonely, you seek people.  You find people, you compromise, you sell your good traits and pretend the bad arent there, an vice versa.  When you reach a certain point, you dont care anymore and all your relationships fail, and then you’re lonely for a long time, and then you hook up out of desperation with excuses therein as to why you arent desperate.

And of course those relationships fail, because theyre more about your own problems and less about the people involved therein.  Then you stop caring, and die.  Some people do this quicker than others.  We all start as hot love affairs and end as roomates with benefits, yet we all waste so much time on it.

Id say Humans are 45% concerned with love, 45% concerned with highs, be it drugs or overeating or whatever, 5% regret, and 5% coercive optimism.  Maybe if we all stopped lying to ourselves and eachother we could get somewhere..i mean, did you SEE the new walking dead, how amazing, this is a life well spent, the big bang theory, hahahaha, he said  something sorta nerdy and there was a laugh track! hahahaha, im gonna eat some popcorn, pretend to read a book to appeal to hipsters, then check my many online dating profiles for a hit, this is me spending my life well, this is me, progressing....

current status: avoiding drunk friends on facebook who wanna talk about the good times, like they were really good.  I’m also fighting with someone about suicide and how we all need to give a fuck the sad assholes gone, so, facebooks pretty much out tonight

Just how much money is enough money to realize you don’t need money?  About Jim Carrey amount, dont get a Dave Chapelle amount though because then you’ll flip out, go to africa, and come back a chainsmoking dickhead.

...this, this drinks on you, right?

Your Addiction is Bullshit

I’ve quit more drugs than most of you have done, It’s all in your weak little mind.  Now dont get confused, I’m not belittling addicts, it’s a hard thing to deal with, but you can do it, and you can do it without other sad addicts and meetings and bullshit.  These are crutches that still keep whatever substance near and dear to your heart, sure you dont do it, but you talk about it each and every week, and then when you go back to it you wonder why.

Believe all the fairy tales you want, theres no such thing as a successful 12 step program, stop being a fuckin rube about it, I go days, weeks without this or that drug, sometimes its physical symptoms, thats just like having the flu, man up.  You’re stronger than any drug, or you’re not and it will kill you, you decide which its all within your mind, but stop, STOP being an annoying cunt about it, if everytime you open ya mouth you mention your recovery or whatever, just spike up, atleast youll shut the fuck up about it.

The first time I smoked crack I was like 14,we were doin it ALL weekend, none of us slept, and then I went to school monday.  I felt like shit for days, but I got over it, without any external influence what so ever, i could do it as a child, you can do it as a sentient adult, stop this nonesense. 

I know I sound mean, and i sound like all the ignorant people that havent been there, but I’m not mean, and i HAVE been there, half your addiction problem was people enabling and coddling you, you cant recover with more coddling, youre responsible, YOU, and only YOU can change it, collect all the dumb sobriety coins you want, theyre a nice little token of how youre wasting your life now instead of booze or heroin or, what the fuck ever.

Jesus doesnt love you, love yourself.  Hell if Jesus IS real he’s the one that let you get all fuckin smacked up in the first place, he was a bit of a wine drinker I’m sure he was just passed out.

Are Ancient Astronaut Theorists fucking retards?  Yup.  I mean, IS it possible that aliens came here in search of gold to repair their atmosphere, because there isnt other gold on non inhabited planets, that they genetically altered our dna so we'd be smart enough to mine their gold, is it possible that they invented theology as a way to employ plausible deniability?  That they then left, and never contacted us again, and or monitor us from a distance?  

Sure, that’s ALL possible, of course it's also possible I could be a hot redheaded chick in a nuthouse right now banging my head off a wall and I just invented this WONDERFUL persona of mine.

( God damnit, Nappa...)

Cops Are Scumbags

Cops aren’t heroes, they’re ex military assholes that couldn’t get a real job thereafter because their only skill was being a bully.  They eat/play that hero shit right up too don’t they?  It takes a special sorta person to want to be a professional buzzkill.  But I suppose it depends on how you define a hero, 90% of the time they’re giving out speeding tickets and breaking every constitutional thing they possibly can, 8% of the time they’re shooting a black person, 1% of the time said black persons like age 15 or under, and 1% of the time they’re saving lives. ( yes I made those stats up you stupid fuck )  My fuckin heroes...

( Claps furiously )