Wasted-life-musings - Musings Of A Wasted Life

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If you have any deductive power you will know, A.) I AM a rap fan, and B.) 90% of rap is just, total shit.  When I took poetic verse in school we learned different formats for rhyming most rap A rhymes with B and sometimes C is thrown in, so you get blahblah blah A, blah blahblah B, C A B C C, if you can follow all that.

Much like Reggae, Funk or Blues rap is very formulaic, but this is a man who not only has something to actually say but does it in a format entirely his own.  Does he have better songs, absolutely, does this song prove the point, definitely.  Ladies and Gentleman if you dont know that DOOM’s nervous large you don’t know rap.  I’ll put money on it, interview any rapper worth a fuck and he will tell you he’s a DOOM fan. 

Addiction is bullshit, i cant stress this point enough.  We all love being high, hell thats what orgasms are all about, but you dont need anythin besides foodair and shelter.  When you’re coming down youre not really feeling withdrawels, thats the futility of reality setting back in, and the boredom you feel thereafter is what life really is.  We’re mammals that live far past when we should, and it fucks up our too evolved/not evolve enough brains.  You can stop anything you want to stop, but if youre stopping only because some other ape tellsyou you should well then you deserve all the pain that should bring, and if you stop of your own volition, then you should consider your suffering enlightenment, but rest assured life gets no better after.

Chi non beve in compagnia o e un ladro, e una spia, He who doesnt drink in company is either a thief or a spy

Watching Childs Play, Playing as a Child

Childs play ( you know, chucky, killer doll )came out in 1988, and im watching it and realize:

A.) Im nostalgic about my late 80s early 90s childhood

B.) My childhood sucked

C.) My adult life is so bad im nostalgic for my shitty childhood.

I have these stories that make me already sound like an actual old man, but when i was young i lived in a 2 room house heated with a kerosene heater and life was well, pretty gay, but lifes pretty gay now and i had to do less back then, teehee.

Mystics and schizophrenics find themselves in the same ocean, but the mystics swim whereas the schizophrenics drown.

R.D. Lang

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I Really Hate the “ I Can’t Help it Attitude “

I come from a long line of drunks, my Mothers family were Swedish Immigrants and my fathers family was German and Irish.  Not giving validation to stereotypes, but, all these people have drinking problems.  If you read say Angelas Ashes, Frank McCourts dad would work long enough to get paid, drink away all the wadges and lose his job for not showing up, over and over. 

He has a way with the drink they say.  That’s bullshit and I’ll tell you why, i can remember stories of people in my family drinking canned heat ( that alcohol based fire in a can ) and you’d think that would kill you but scientifically if you mix enough regular alcohol with rubbing alcohol it cancels out the formaldehyde digestion process, though I wouldnt try it...

My family on ALL sides, came from dirt, just, the poorest of the poor, and they ALL had drinking problems, but they all went to work, and they all raised their kids and they all did what they fucking had to do, period.  This whole “ Im a junky, I’m an alcoholic, I have no control over my actions because I’m drunk and or on junk “ is horseshit and the worst part is, you know that, even when you’re plowed you know you’re being a selfish asshole.

The root cause of your problem isnt substances, abstaining from said substances is just a crutch, a facilitation of excuse, you need to learn how to drink or smoke or whatever with a little fucking decorum and discipline.  A fat person may lose weight and say well im never eating bacon again, the bacon didnt make you fat, the fact that you had to eat 4 plates of it did, the bacons not the problem, the drugs arent the problem, the economy, the people around you arent the problem, your family isnt the problem, the fucking problem is YOU, and you need to change you and not just eliminate all the things that make you a dickhead about life, because there are alot of things...