Repeat After Me:

this!!!

I want to be skinny

Every time it's going well for a week but then I completely destroy it by binging

I hate myself

I need to get my shit back together. I got so fat and I look even more disgusting than before

you don’t need to be skinny to be beautiful!

now, me on the other hand

I'm not crying you are 🥺

actually you will not enjoy hearing this but you literally have to abandon your self deprecating humor. besides the fact that it can drive people away you literally are only hurting yourself by constantly making jokes that further cement the idea in your head that you are not good enough. I do not care that you think its a good coping mechanism it is absolutely not and you need to start challenging negative thoughts instead of feeding into them.

I have a boyfriend since a month now and I slept over at his place from Friday to Sunday and my parents were super mad because we only talked about staying from Friday to Saturday and I betrayed my family and chose his family instead. They also said that I have to move out, they will sell the house and go to Italy (that part was definitely exaggerated) but I don't think they were lying when they said I have to move out til Friday. Like bro. I am not able to move out like from what money lmao. I am so scared they will throw me out. They threatened to do that before and now they added that they threw out my stepbrother (he is 30 now) a few years ago I can't remember how old he was then. I just want to spend time with my bf because he makes me feel like there's nothing wrong. When I'm with him I don't have to think about how bad I want to d word and how shitty everything is and how shitty I feel all the time. When I'm with him everything bad is just gone. We don't know each other for that long so I'm not sure if it is because I'm not too comfortable with showing my emotions but I legit cried in front of him because of a movie (more than once actually) and I didn't feel bad for crying in front of him.

I can hear my parents talk in the living room and I am getting so nervous because I just assume that every time I hear them speak they are talking about me. I don't want to be home but I don't want to be anywhere else but my room. Why does everything always have to be so complicated

scrolling through tumblr like looking at skinny people would make me skinny

i can't stop eating. i hate myself

they way ive had this stupid ass ed for so long and im still not skinny shoulda done this shit the healthy way bro 💀💀💀

someone else's thinsp ideal changes from day to day? some days I wanna be boney and some days I'm okay with wanting to be skinny fat

it doesn't make any sense yet here I am