You Can Be Either A Little Hungry All The Time Or Be Ashamed Of Your Body All The Time And We All Know

i hope this is my last year

i deserve to be an eel. in a crevice with a bunch of other eels. opening and closing our mouths over and over

update found out that it wasn’t just breaking my fast that fucked up my stomach, but also the norovirus so that was a great experience.

I’m doing better now, however my sister accidentally caught it from me so now she’s sick. I took a little bit of a break from posting so that I could recover as all I could do was drink water, sleep, drink more water, vomit, drink even more water then sleep for 10 hours and sleep be exhausted when I get up.

I will say it was nice to sleep so much as I have reallllly bad insomnia and rarely get to sleep more than 2-3 hours. Most of the time I might be able to get 3 hours of sleep but it’s with periods of wakefulness. I feel like every 10 minutes of sleep I get I can’t sleep for 20-30 minutes, I’ve been off of melatonin for a while now just to give my body a break from it as in high school I was taking waay more then the recommended amount for someone of my height and weight.

Yall I broke my fast/ diet restriction and I regret it soo much. Not just because of my weight loss goals, but mainly because everything that I had( which wasn’t much) fucked with my stomach so badly

“The world needs men! Women need men! Otherwise, who is gonna protect you”

Protect us from WHO or WHAT? Other men? And what kind of protection if being offered to women? Because I’m not seeing any form of “protection” lately. For example, the New York punching. Most of the women being punched were in broad daylight, in public, stating there were other men around. No help???

Just recently, a women in University of Chicago got threatened at gunpoint, this man tried to rob her. There were 2 men who could have helped her, and they just stood by doing NOTHING! The only reason she even lived is due to self defense, she grabbed the magazine out of his gun. He was robbing her for her cellphone.

So meanwhile she’s quite literally struggling, there’s just 2 men watching, relaxing, this is a normal event!

I’m not saying we need men for self defense. But if the few arguments men have left to seem useful, one being “we will protect you!” It’s all bullshit. They don’t mean what they say, they don’t even do what they say.

Women, we can defend ourselves. Once again I will stress the importance of learning self defense and arming yourself with any weapon. It might save your life one day!

mini mood board 4 inspired bc idk why but i cannot fucking. stop. eating.

all i think about is my weight and the wanting to lose, but i am stuck maintaining and ending up in binges.

i need to be smaller. i have to. i’ve been working so hard why am i messing this up??

kinda wanna scream. kinda wanna cry. kinda wanna sleep. kinda just wanna disappear

REBLOG if you are ACTIVE this DECEMBER ✨

..and i’m looking for mutuals lol

Born to be clingy and obsessive, forced to be cool and nonchalant about things