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craft update

yesterday after going to the dentists, my nana wanted to go to the craft store to look around since there was a big sale and I had a coupon. So we walk around and I offhandly mentioned that I wanted to try doing cross stitch, so she goes all in and gets me a starter kit and some of the fabric for it. I even have some embroidery floss that’s back at home.

anyway I wanted to show everyone my new hobby lol

I’ve spent a little over 5 hours on this guys, why is it so addictive!

Suicide doesn't sound so scary anymore 🤷🏻‍♀️

Wishing to curl up and die

It's just not a good night

winter photos

I’m officially going back to my college dorm this Saturday so you know what that means, fasting without my family pressuring me to eat every chance they get!

ngl I really was glad that I could visit my family for a while school way getting to be too much for me during finals so this was a great time to reset.

I has decided that if I’m never heard from again it’s because my finals have successfully offed me, finals:100 Daphne:- Literally all I’ve done today is cry, study, cry while eating the lunch I don’t deserve, cry more, study more, panic cuz I broke the necklace given to me by my late grandfather, cry cuz I couldn’t find it only to find it after 2 hours, lay on the floor and cry more till my roommate got home, then go with them to eat, feel worthless because my friend got mad that I asked to get a drink, then apologized after I said that I didn’t need the drink and that I was sorry then I proceed to cry on the phone with Charlie because he asked me how my day was and even though he was high out of his mind he called to talking me through my panic and calmed me down and then I found out that I have a final today and started freaking out yet again

Oh yeah, Charlie is my very supportive boyfriend and the love of my life :3

When you grow up in an abusive home, you don’t become a people pleaser to please people. You become a people pleaser to keep the potential for more abuse away.

Hey, reblog this if you’re ok with mutuals messaging you and stuff!

Asking for my sanity :]

I feel this way a lot, especially as someone who never thought I was gonna live to be 18. But it’s crazy to me realizing that I was 13 and 14 when I really thought that way, honestly I still do feel that way. And the only thing keeping me going on in this shitty country is that it would cause a whole lotta problems for my family if I did die, especially this far along in my life.

sometimes the feeling of wanting to unalive myself are super strong, other times it sneaks up on me- especially when someone says something that might not seem so big to them, but actually really hurts me, happens and next thing I now I’m suddenly super quiet and thinking that they would be a lot happier if I wasn’t in the picture-.

sometimes i just get hit with the feeling

i wasnt supposed to make it this far

also what do i do now

I feel bad for not being as active as I normally am, but I contracted the norovirus from a boy that I babysit and it's been hell.

i'm not complaining but I could do without the feeling like shit every second of my days.

maybe in another universe, I can ask for help when I need it.