I Am Far From The First Person To Say This, But My Favourite TMA Headcanon Will Always Be That Elias

Sorry, having sad Martin thoughts again.

So there's this particular scene from episode 144. I for some reason forgot this happened in my first two listens (how, idk. S4 makes me feel a lot), then caught it on my third.

This is the second time we hear Daisy coming to talk to Martin in his office while he's working for Peter.

Cold AF. Hurts like hell to hear. You can understand his distrust of her, she tried to kill Jon, threatened to pin him with the murder of Jurgen, and Jon almost died again saving her from the coffin. All that tracks.

But that's not what's happening here. Because this follows immediately after:

Daisy kept coming around the office, getting friendly. Martin knew Peter was around and, if he saw anyone constantly hindering his progress of becoming a part of the Lonely, would have sent her right to it.

But he couldn't just be nice, or didn't feel like he could. Can't give a proper warning when Peter could be anywhere, and if he's too light a touch, she might see it as a call for help and keep hanging around.

So he does the only thing he can, tells her to piss off. It works. He's more lonely than ever, severing yet another connection he was even starting to form again, but she's safe from Peter now.

Which, I have to reiterate, he could have just let Peter deal with her. He is probably harboring a lot of jealousy for Daisy right now. He can't be anywhere near Jon, but now suddenly Jon and Daisy are spending time licking their wounds and listening to the Archers. And Martin is a pretty petty person. He could have kept her talking until Peter got bored and sent her away. Job done.

But he didn't. He readily admits to not really liking anyone here, and not believing anyone likes him either, but he's still trying to keep people safe. Not just Daisy – the entire institute

He's been single handedly keeping half the Institute from being vanished into the Lonely. And he does it because of Jon.

He doesn't like Daisy, but Jon does. Jon nearly died saving her. Jon did die attempting to save everyone. So when Jon didn't wake up from his coma, even though Martin was falling into his own despair, he decided to make the best of whatever life was left in him to honor Jon's memory and keep the others safe.

And there's just something about Daisy in particular being the one to reach out to Martin, as well. She knows what it looks like when you start to give yourself to the Fears. She tried to throw out a life preserver, but if Martin took it, it could have dragged her down too. Or at least, it's how he felt (depression will do that to you. You're not worth saving, and if anyone attempts to do so, then they'll only get hurt, so why even bother asking for help?)

Yet another "I don't know how to end this ramble", but just – ugh. This man hurts me. I will never be okay about this goddamn show.

Found this on Pinterest, but count this screenshot as a reblog

OH MY GOD YES. I've seriously had such a major grievance with this ship name forever because it just seems so unimaginative? but this is a PERFECT explanation

now, how do we justify "jontim"....

my main grievance with the tma fandom is that JonMartin is just, an Objectively Bad ship name. I'm sorry but in a world of Lonely Eyes, Door Keays and Terminal Velocities fucking Jonmartin? seriously?? Jon and Martin? yeah i sure hope it does. that is certainly the two main components of that ship. 10,000 people following the ship tag, 9900 fics on AO3, over 5 years of podcast and not a single person managed to popularise a ship name beyond literally just. smokshing their first names together. and don't get me started on "Jmart". that's not a ship name. that's a cornershop 12 year olds go to buy monster. wheres the magic? the ~spooky~? the "first date is essentially the apocalypse"? we are getting a bad grade in ship names, something that is both Normal To (Not) Want and Possible To Achieve.

Oh my lord this is so beautiful I love my pathetic little eyeball man

All I could think while drawing this is how impractical it would be if jon cried.

Switching between these every day

My favorite character interpretation for both Jonathan Sims and pre distortion Michael Shelley is that they’re a little odd in general even without all the fear entity stuff.

Jon stares just a little too long when makes conversation. Michael moves in a sudden jerky way that would remind most people of a spider moving its legs. Jon always looks a little too…stiff. Like he’s a porcelain doll sat against the chair instead of a man. Michael never walks flat on feet, he noticeably puts his weight on either on his heels or his toes.

Jon’s eye, hair, and clothing colors always look a bit dull somehow. Like someone drew him and then turned the contrast down. Michael’s fingers and toes are noticeably long and quite a few people have told him that he has the longest fingers/toes they’ve ever seen.

I could pretend this headcanon is profound commentary on their humanity, but honestly I’m just very fond of viewing Jon and Michael as cryptid adjacent.

Does anyone else think about how Oliver Banks was Lonely? He was so afraid of the death that followed him that he risked everything to sail as far away from life and humanity as possible, which is awfully reminiscent of Peter Lucas.

But the thing is, even when he wasn’t heading to Point Nemo, he was still isolated. He would be just as alone in a bustling city as he would be in the middle of the ocean. Because even as he walks amongst others, he is still surrounded by only the dead.

He cannot get close to other people because he can’t see them as people, only as the corpses they will one day become. And that may be one of the Loneliest fates of all.

Bury your gays except the gay has the ability to come back to life so it's just torture for the both of us

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE! This was an idea I had several months ago and having gotten the chance to work with all these amazing artists has been such an honour. Everyone did a tarot card inspired design based on the magnus archives fears and OH MY GOD they turned out so good.

feel free to check out each participants work and socials as listed! :D

The Lonely - @mariibeann

The Hunt - @oceanichymns

The Vast - @vpstrange

The Stranger - pencilshavings13 (IG)

The Flesh - @mintybagels

The Extinction - @wolfythewitch

The Desolation - swing_byforest (IG)

The Spiral - @mistspelt

The Dark - raven_and_rook (IG)

The Eye - @lailas-in-space

The Slaughter - eggbench (IG)

The Web - @mossiistars

The Buried - @teafromthemicrowave

The Corruption - @jouxlskaard

The End - @yelloartt

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Hello, Jon.

Apologies for the deception, but I wanted to make sure you started reading, so I thought it best not to announce myself.

I’m assuming you’re alone; you always did prefer to read your statements in private. I wouldn’t try too hard to stop reading; there’s every likelihood you’ll just hurt yourself. So just listen.

Now, shall we turn the page and try again?