What Will Happen?

Clay

Sometimes, if I like you

I'll let you mold a part of me or, thin out my walls

Sometimes, I feel young, energetic and naïve

But sometimes the weather forecast, forecasts colder weather

And I start to feel a little lethargic,

A little tired,

Maybe a little cracked

And trapped in this mold

Sometimes I grow harder, colder and more fragile

And sometimes my eyes seem to have a glazed coating

Because there are some tools out there

However tools don't get under my skin

If anything they get under my nails

I've got ribs and knives

So don't mess with me

Sometimes I'm as closed off as a clam,

With a secret,

Hidden pearl

Obviously I'm pretty imperfect

And I've become tired of finding a reason for

Being bent out of shape and having sharp edges

Edgy is my style

Because this is art

And anything ugly should not be held against the piece

And sometimes I have to let it go

Or just let it slip

Out of the grogginess of my tired head

Even if it leaves a shattered mess on the floor

Destruction is an art too

Like how angry painters have been known to throw paint at canvases

Fire me up

And I hope I won’t explode

With the unspoken air in my lungs

You're On My Mind

I can’t sleep with the thought of you on weighing on my mind

I want to fast forward, you want to rewind

I hate how you were so kind

I want to see how this works out

You're too heavy and I'm not strong

My mind isn't where you belong

It just feels so wrong

I'm too scared to move you to my heart

It’s 6:28

I'm wishing you were at my gate

Most people consider this early but for me it’s late

I haven’t slept at all

Before I snuck out for some cold water

At skateboarding you almost taught her

When she falls, you better catch her

High school loves very infrequently last

Every night you keep me up

Never asking, “supp?”

No more cold water in the cup

I don’t look up to you

I'm not terribly trusting of this

You are something I don’t like to miss

Cold water gone, this love seems slightly amiss

The dog is barking, roosters crowing

I want sleep

I want my internet creep

But thoughts of you, I still keep

Will you love me?

Baby Girl

How can I break this umbilical cord,

And continue living?

I can play this game of

Who can stay up the longest

And win

You’re hiccuping to show maturity

I know you're not drunk

What a man you are

Baby girl is in college

Baby girl has a drivers license You don't want baby girl thinking that the car is hers

You don't want baby girl to have control or freedom

Unless it's with your permission or knowledge

I can't pick out classes

Without you sticking your nose all around

And I'm tired of your boogers all over my life

This is the curse of being the baby of the family

The

Girl

I need to leave

But I cannot

If I did I would not survive on my own

I'm exhausted of getting stared at

As if I were an exhibit at a museum

I can either be hung up like artwork

And die on the inside, a long a drawn out death

Or let go of my breath and live differently

Something has to change

Because this isn't working

With your two sides

You use so much energy and anger

Towards trying to find out what baby girl is up to

And you're pissed that you cant just communicate with anyone,

In order for you to have an idea

Of what baby girl is doing

I cannot survive this way

Much longer

I do not enjoy feeling like a prisoner in the house I live in

Hiding in my room

Playing the game

Of who can stay up the latest

I'm drained of organizing my schedule

In accordance with someone else's

I want to cut

This umbilical cord

That keeps me imprisoned like a ball and chain

Life Goes On

Breathe

I tell myself as I want to leave

But right now I don’t know how

I have been stuck

In a little bit of a rut

And my hatred for fakes Grew to the size of lakes

It feels like I'm playing a game

That doesn’t have any aim

I'm curious which is why I play

While I keep my feelings at bay

I have become tired of hiding behind doors

And metaphors

Frozen in mid breath,

Sitting before death

The reaper scares me no longer

Not because I've become stronger,

But because I've become scared of going on as life does

Just because

Society

We don’t realize that we are the forest,

Not a tree

A nest of dripping honey

Not a bee

We don’t realize that we are the ocean

Not a drop

We don’t realize that we are the mountain

Not just the mountain top

We don’t realize that we are a band or an orchestra

Not a single instrument standing out alone

We are a skeletal system

Not a bone

We are a class

Not a single student

A mass

Not volume or weight

We are an entire troop

Not a soldier

The whole soup

Not the noodles

We are society

You are bigger than you think

Yes there is a big human variety,

But without you to fill the small hole, the waters would come flooding in and we would all sink

It's Working

Head spinning

Head winning

Heart cruising

Heart losing

Brain barely working

Brain thoughts lurking

Feet walking

Feet stalking

Knees yell

Knees swell

Shoulders weak

Shoulders seek

Forehead sweat

Better yet

Befuddled

Everything is muddled

Hands shake

Fingers break

I'm so dependent

I sure am happy I sent it

You make me loose

I am a really silly goose!

When you disappear I miss you

I don't have a clue

I trust this one

Half the battle with you has been won

How and why is what I ask

What if you are wearing a mask?

I'm stuck with a bad case of the what if's

Those two words leave me hanging off cliffs

I will let you slither into my shoe, you already know it's a slipper

You understand fart rippers

Head no longer twirling

Heart won, happily whirling

Tree

Sometimes I feel like a tree

A tree with little wings that rustle in the wind

I have taken to hating bird brains

Being paralyzed with tension there's nothing I can do when they shit on me

Sometimes I like the rain

I like the washing

It also quenches my thirst

And keeps me sane

I love the cooler air

That sways me,

Unrhythmically

Blowing through my hair

People don’t like rain when it fills up their shoes

I don’t have feet

But I have plenty of rings

And no one I’d like to choose

I dream of flying away

To find a whole new world

My roots are too big

I feel like a tree by the end of the day

Sometimes I feel hurt because of love that is young

What is the point of them carving into me?

Yet their love dies long before I ever will

And on some days I miss where they once swung

On those days I shed a little sap

Hoping new things will stick to my bark

Like a new swing or a new summer fling

On those days I don’t mind the bird crap

Sometimes I flunk

And grow more knots

And become more twisted

On those days I think that I’d prefer to be trunk

Sometimes I feel that I'm not fair to my roots

As they hold me,

I try to strangle myself with them

More than ever, the wise owls give me disapproved hoots

Sometimes I feel like a tree

As the giving tree, I have found limits to my giving

I only give up and never give down

I feel like a tree, stuck to the ground but growing up with reality

Not Again

Lost in forever To ever stop loving me you'd say never Then your forever's turned into never's Your endeavors turned into feathers Feathers that floated away When you used to say that you'd stay My smiles went away for miles While I'll burn my files, Of every second I spent thinking about you And every time you stayed for set after school I'll go back to my rules for fools I won't sit in my pity pools of tools People don’t realize that you're spoiled Even though this relationship you burnt and boiled Hun, you have someone who you can go to while you run I'm stuck here without the fun; I don't have anyone to protect me from my own gun The gun you didn't see, You pointed at me If you ever come back you better pack You don’t have the knack of begging on your knee; if you try to your face I will whack I can’t believe I fell for you twice You didn't catch me and now I'm paying the price She never knew or will be able to comprehend the way I loved you You are discluded from my thought stew; it's time for me to make another brew I find this poem shameful It’s also painful I was clever and never said forever I know that nothing lasts forever, not even love, Especially not your love!

First One About You

Theater is life

Someone kept stealing my lines though…

Soooo…

How’s the weather?

Its ever changing, wasn't that clever?   How was school?

Did anything interesting happen?

No answer, oh he was just napp’n

This isn't awkward, it’s just weird

I think this is what I feared   I know that you have a crush

But I don’t know anyone

Can’t you just be gone?

I'm just scared

Because you care   I like to be alone

I'm single

I don’t want a boy to break my heart like a pringle

I've been hurt so many times

You would know if you read all of my rhymes   Can you take me?

Am I ready for a big jump?

Should I prepare for another painful heart thump?

I think that your crush is just lust

Right now your love I don’t really trust   Hey.

Do you even know the difference between lust and love?

I want to try you on and see if you fit like a glove

Sometimes I do get lonely

Maybe all of you is just baloney   I should get my head straightened out

Are you the one?

Should we become Suan?

I need to stop making jokes out of your name

For now I'm glad you came   Do you really want this?

Do you want this terribly stubborn mess

Don’t expect anymore, or any less

If I could just make up my mind

Boy, you seem kind   Thanks to Facebook

You said, “Hi”

What if you ever saw me cry?

Baby

Maybe someday you'll save me   I still remember that time

When you were telling a mini story

In all your glory

When you pulled me off the couch, I was a sour lime

But you asked, “Babe can you please be mine?”

Inside

The past is the past

It may not have been the best

Let’s just leave it at that

But soon I'll be free from this wrecked nest

Right now it's not fun

It's those memories

I should hurry up, get over it and be done

Families that feel like enemies

The stares that pierce through you

They judge

But they don't have a clue

Their stubborn heads won't budge

I now look forward, so don't make me look back

I will be better someday

I won the treasure by slapping the jack

I didn't mean it like that way

No one to trust

No one to hold and clutch

Heat full of tumble weeds and dust

Not even a love touch

I was invisible

They didn't care

But anything is live-able

So I built my own lair

They didn't pay attention either

Suck it up and deal

Never got a breather

No one cares how I really feel

Say that you love me then break me like a china plate

Why did you make me sit on a towel?

Well now you're too late

Never had good bowels

Always felt out of place

I'm sorry but some things can't be forgiven

After things happened I don't feel safe

But I'm going to keep on live'n

Always felt different and weird

In a bad way

I tried to make all of it disappear

Nobody I wanted ever stayed

Tears roll'n down my cheek

They hit the floor like glass

The feelings that are deep down are antique

It can happen that fast

I've learned how to turn myself into a rock

Always picking up my own head

It causes me to have writers block

While people eat the meat, I don't whine and take the bread

No one cared if my head drooped down

I was forced to walk alone

They ignored me when one my face there was a frown

That's when my heart turned to stone