Thinking About The Messy Side Of Jonah. The “I Beat An Old Man To Death And Called It An Overreaction”

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he says that every season

I need to find someone to explain to me TMA like I'm an idiot (I am)

Did I miss something?

I know I'm still at the start but it feels too confusing

New hc This is why Oliver Banks liked him so much

Jon doesn't want to die. he thinks he should die, which is a feeling that's followed him since he was eight. he goes through most seasons with the air of someone who fully believes they're about to take their rightful place in the grave, and he's terrified of it. there are some attempts in s4 where he tries to convince himself that he either wants to die or thinks he shouldn't, but I don't think any of it truly sticks. everything he's lived since he was eight has been with time bought by the death of someone else. and he's going to die, it just hasn't happened yet!

then the apocalypse happens, purely because he just hadn't died yet. he should have, but he didn't!

then he meets Annabelle Cane for the last time and learns that he was, in fact, never meant to die. at least not until he does everything the web planned for him.

jon must have been so good for the end

"It doesn’t want to harm me."

"And me?"

"I won’t let it."

Wait hang on, I just realized TMA is horror because you, the listener, are part of Beholding. You are the being beyond. You're literally part of the story because they all feel watched and listened, and you're the one doing the listening.

I have more thoughts on this but don't know how to articulate them

I love listening too tma in order because it's like

Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,viscerally unpleasant horror,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode, something that touches at the core or what makes you you, puts words to sensation you have had following you your entire life, alters you as person, Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode, viscerally unpleasant horror, Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode,Cool episode, HOMOSEXUAL OCCURRENCES!!!

"your gender is what is in your pants"

me, pulling out a fanart of jonathan sims: yippie!!

NOOOOOOO

Day 6: Hugs

YOU THINK IT'S A GOOD HUG?

FOOL!!!

anyway I can't finished it in a day so here's a sketch

@jonmartinweek

mag 159 animatic because i can't get this scene out of my head