I'm A Gold Star Btw. Idk If That Matters. I Just Know What I Like I Suppose.

a part of me understands incel mindset, sex is important to human beings and not having access to it + high libido is not the best combo

I'd never go to abuse women because of it though. I feel like it's mostly bad fate not their fault because most women are not gay, not compatible or my fault for being hurt in life to the point of internal struggle and mental health issues.

It does hurt though. So the anger and frustration is understandable.

I have many many fears.

Some can paralyze me. They make my voice weaker. I'm trying to speak up as much as I can.

And everytime I do I'm mad at myself I didn't say more.

I don't know if I'll change but I wish I could. I want to change. I want to be myself and not afraid of getting hurt.

Not afraid of speaking my mind. Loud and clear.

Loud and clear.

recently I found a really cool male coach

and I think I'm also dissapointed in men as well

he's an older guy but he isn't like those therapists in my city

All they care about is:

- parties

- fucking

- they go to gym only to look buff and flex

Are sexist assholes and/or wimps with fragile masculinity.

I feel like a big part of it is this show off gender bs eating at people's brains, no matter if they're a man or a woman all they care about is putting on a show for people to prove their femininity/masculinity and affirm it.

Secure femininity/masculinity doesn't need to prove itself so badly. It goes beyond gender ideology. This whole obsession with gender concept and conformity is fucked.

It's literally eating at people's brains like a parasite.

Did some good things for myself as of late, hope it'll help me heal

JKR is a hero

and yet she is very gentle and kind to those who oppose women's rights

I could never be as kind to my enemies as she is yet people compare her to Hitler.

I must be the devil herself.

why do you call yourself cisgender?

kinda out of necessity as there are people who think I'm a man if I don't "prove it" somehow

I mean, I had to deal with people who lied about themselves as well and whenever I look at someone's profile I have to analyse everything to make sure. I thought no trans person would likely use "cis" to describe themselves.

but there are people who legit accuse me of being a guy maybe because of the way I talk or whatever because yes, I have some very masculine interests and personality traits

I totally understand disliking the term but for me there are words that piss me off more and I don't really consider it a slur. Tbh I'd much rather ask why some lesbians call themselves "dyke" or "queer", those words disgust me more.

was called a radfem as an insult lol

I'm not even a radfem but I guess it's an insult now

Just to clear things out.

I'm not a radfem myself because I'm an aggressively homosexual superhyperlesbian which contradicts radfem ideals about "sexualising women = bad".

I still see alot of radfems as my allies however, they are the only ones who truly care about same sex spaces which ofc includes same sex spaces for lesbians like myself. Despite of everything I'm still a feminist ally and even though I don't call myself a feminist (not anymore), many characterise me as such.

carry me home

Huculka • Władysław Jarocki

I can't find a woman for myself so I want to be the woman I want to love