Love Demands Exposure So The Question Isn’t Do You Want Love But Do You Want To Be Seen?

Rhinoplasty ~ $3,500. 

I had my nose done back in 2021 for $3,500, and yes, the stimulus checks I got subsidized it. I was 18, wanted to fix my nose so badly, and had plenty of spare time on my hands, so I did it. I don’t regret it in the slightest, but I view myself differently after having it, and while my face changed for the better, it still changed to a point where I felt as if I was unrecognizable for a few years. I had no pain, recovery was swift, my bridge and nostrils are perfection, and I tape to this day. It was worth the money, and again, I don’t regret it, but I do think that anyone who has facial plastic surgery needs to be mentally prepared for the stress you’ll experience immediately postop and during your year of recovery.

Breast Augmentation ~ $6,500. 

I had breast implants, an internal bra, a little bit of lipo on my bra line, and a fat transfer to the upper poles of my breasts, and it was worth every penny. I was flat as a board before, but I didn’t want to do anything that would seem overpowering on my frame, so I discussed it all with my surgeon, and we found a solution together. They sit like they’re fake but feel like they’re real, they look amazing in bikini tops, and the lipo and internal bra were worth every cent of the extra cost. I went with silicone over saline. I had the classic under-bust incision (and it’s so faded now that it just looks like a thin white line), and apart from some heavy bruising in the area, recovery was easy.

Full Body Electrolysis ~ $2,000. 

I was grandfathered in with the pricing here, but I’d still really recommend electrolysis if you want a permanent form of hair removal. I got started on electrolysis when I was 16. It took around nine months of regular sessions and consistent effort to get to where I wanted to be, and five years have passed with very minimal hair growth. I had thick, dark hair, and I hated it so much that I did what everyone I knew at the time was doing and decided to have my body hair removed. Electrolysis hurts like a mother; it leaves your skin stinging, but in my opinion, it’s the only way to make sure the hair stays gone long term. My underarms hurt the least, my bikini area was bad at the start, and the backs of my knees were horrendous, but numbing gel really helps.

MIND GAMES ARE SO BORING! i am double texting! triple texting! i am texting you first! this reminded me of you! this sunset is beautiful but not in the way you are! someone walked by wearing your scent + it feels like the universe did this on purpose so i can be reminded of what it feels like to be touched by you! open your heart to me so i can live there! build a home in me and i will keep you safe!

” It’s amazing what happens when you put your interests out into the universe and make it known what you want - you just have to know what it is. For me, I didn’t want anything except to feel new every day. I wanted to try different things. I felt alive. ”

- Lana Del Rey

bipasha basu in bachna ae haseeno (2008)

Universe, please keep me soft, but hard to fool. Surround me with energy that pours back into me. Expose what’s not real. Elevate what is. And when I forget who I am, bring me home.

btw I am doing it afraid

Iconic image of Princess Diana on a yacht in Portofino, Italy, in August 1997.

War is over. Woke up to 10 different emails. 5 waitlist notifications and 5 financial aid offers from 5 schools.

I saw what I wanted in my mind’s eye and decided I could have it. I decided that nothing was too grand, nothing was impossible or out of my reach, and nothing would hold me back from getting it. I thought to myself, “I would like to be beautiful", and so with a lot of work and planning, beautiful was what I became.