I Saw What I Wanted In My Mind’s Eye And Decided I Could Have It. I Decided That Nothing Was Too Grand,

please don’t spend your life convincing yourself that love or joy is reserved for the idealized version of you that only exists in the future

Rhinoplasty ~ $3,500. 

I had my nose done back in 2021 for $3,500, and yes, the stimulus checks I got subsidized it. I was 18, wanted to fix my nose so badly, and had plenty of spare time on my hands, so I did it. I don’t regret it in the slightest, but I view myself differently after having it, and while my face changed for the better, it still changed to a point where I felt as if I was unrecognizable for a few years. I had no pain, recovery was swift, my bridge and nostrils are perfection, and I tape to this day. It was worth the money, and again, I don’t regret it, but I do think that anyone who has facial plastic surgery needs to be mentally prepared for the stress you’ll experience immediately postop and during your year of recovery.

Breast Augmentation ~ $6,500. 

I had breast implants, an internal bra, a little bit of lipo on my bra line, and a fat transfer to the upper poles of my breasts, and it was worth every penny. I was flat as a board before, but I didn’t want to do anything that would seem overpowering on my frame, so I discussed it all with my surgeon, and we found a solution together. They sit like they’re fake but feel like they’re real, they look amazing in bikini tops, and the lipo and internal bra were worth every cent of the extra cost. I went with silicone over saline. I had the classic under-bust incision (and it’s so faded now that it just looks like a thin white line), and apart from some heavy bruising in the area, recovery was easy.

Full Body Electrolysis ~ $2,000. 

I was grandfathered in with the pricing here, but I’d still really recommend electrolysis if you want a permanent form of hair removal. I got started on electrolysis when I was 16. It took around nine months of regular sessions and consistent effort to get to where I wanted to be, and five years have passed with very minimal hair growth. I had thick, dark hair, and I hated it so much that I did what everyone I knew at the time was doing and decided to have my body hair removed. Electrolysis hurts like a mother; it leaves your skin stinging, but in my opinion, it’s the only way to make sure the hair stays gone long term. My underarms hurt the least, my bikini area was bad at the start, and the backs of my knees were horrendous, but numbing gel really helps.

I’m busy crafting an image befitting of the woman I’d like to be and the lifestyle I’d like to live in the future.

Chic and cringe are twin sisters and sometimes they switch places!!!

yeah “i can teach you” is kind and gentle and warm and comforting. it’s also hot. right

Favorite American vacation spots?

The Greenbrier in West Virginia and the Montage at Palmetto Bluff in South Carolina are both gorgeous. I prefer the South to the West Coast now, so my opinions on vacation spots are going to be biased. Both resorts are more relaxing than Amangiri (Utah, ugh) and the Miraval (I can’t do Arizona), and the Florida resorts and 30A have been run over by influencers, so I don’t bother visiting anymore. Another really fun thing to do is to rent a nice beach house somewhere right on the water, in an area with great restaurants and even better weather, and spend a week just relaxing. I rented a spot on Lake Michigan with a few girlfriends last summer and it was a perfect time.

love demands exposure so the question isn’t do you want love but do you want to be seen?

. I don’t have a jealous bone in my body and I won’t begin to foster one. I want everyone to experience the height of pleasure .

“the essence of true transformation lies in the willingness to let go of who we’ve known ourselves to be, for the possibility of who we might become”

do you ever look at strangers smiling or dancing or having fun and think “i love you”? or see someone bop their heads along with the music from their headphones and you just wish you could tell them how pretty they look doing just that? or feel your heart warm when you watch someone laugh really loudly and then think about them later that day, completely randomly? you’re a part of that, too. someone has kept quiet about how beautiful you are to them, has smiled at the thought of this complete stranger that made their day, has repeated a joke you made to someone they love. there’s a lot of quiet love and admiration and connection in this world and even if you think you don’t belong, you’ve always been and always will be a part of it.