i want to shake many young women and say you can grow in private. and what i mean by that is that you don’t have to publicly self-flagellate when you don’t know something or when you say something a little insensitive or whatever else. you don’t have to report your Bad Thoughts and Ignorance to the crowd who waits to judge you. you do not have to pay penance. you do not have to issue public statements. nothing more is gained from burying yourself in shame than you could gain by thinking “oh i don’t know about this” and looking it up real quick, or thinking “hm, that wasn’t how i want to behave, i’ll do different next time” and then moving on with your life. no need to choke yourself with it.
Macy’s To-Do List.
Lighten my hair down to champagne blonde.
Install my 22 inch custom hair extensions.
Get up to 2.5mL of lip filler, currently at 1.5mL.
Start wearing my boob job recovery bra again.
Lose 20 pounds and focus on doing pilates.
Find a good fake tan color for the summer.
Start doing my lashes, nails, and brows weekly.
Switch over from glasses to contact lenses.
Biweekly facials and lymphatic drainage massages.
Sauna and steam room to start off each day.
Invest in higher end clothes and quality makeup.
Do a big throw out of everything I’ve outgrown.
Finish up by 9-1-2025
“the essence of true transformation lies in the willingness to let go of who we’ve known ourselves to be, for the possibility of who we might become”
Universe, please keep me soft, but hard to fool. Surround me with energy that pours back into me. Expose what’s not real. Elevate what is. And when I forget who I am, bring me home.
Staying consistent even when it’s not immediately rewarding is where the shift happens.
my mind is very beautiful and it’s going to take me very far.
i was such a weird lonely little girl and maybe i grew to be a weird lonely woman but idc i built this life for myself and maybe it doesn’t always make sense to others and maybe isn’t always easy or beautiful but it is mine and i cherish it
” It’s amazing what happens when you put your interests out into the universe and make it known what you want - you just have to know what it is. For me, I didn’t want anything except to feel new every day. I wanted to try different things. I felt alive. ”
- Lana Del Rey