My Mind Is Very Beautiful And It’s Going To Take Me Very Far.

I go to the gym twice daily, every day without fail. I do a 3-mile walk every day at noon, I stretch my body twice daily, and I have a single themed class on Sundays at noon in lieu of my walk. I like being slim, active, and flexible, and the time I spend in the gym feels like a reward instead of a punishment or a requirement.

I drink green juice, kefir, aloe juice, kombucha, and green tea religiously on top of water. I had an issue with not hydrating; I turned that around quickly, and I swapped all my sodas for good drinks (with the exception of the occasional Diet Coke). I start the morning and end my night with a hot lemon tea with a little honey, keep myself hydrated with electrolyte salts, and make sure that I’m on track to meeting my daily hydration goals before I let myself have a soda.

I believe in little treatments and I indulge myself. I do float tanks frequently and love the feeling, I keep up with red light therapy, I love a classic sauna sit, and I think it’s important to sit in salt rooms and meditate. Regardless of whether or not these things actually work, they add to my quality of life and make me feel so much better. Salt rooms are great for my anxiety.

I eat well and really enjoy cooking and baking. I used to be obsessed with limiting the amount of sugar, carbs, and calories I consumed, but then I realized that I could cut out most fast/processed foods and alcohol and eat what I want. If I’m cooking, baking, and creating meals or going to restaurants with good menus, I’m happy to eat whatever I want and enjoy it, but for my own sake, I stay away from really unhealthy stuff and most alcohol.

I do lymphatic drainage massages weekly, and I think that they’ve helped to sculpt my body, and I also do acupuncture, which I believe helps me to not feel as tired and has helped take all of the tension out of my shoulders and the backs of my calves. Both are necessary evils and have helped me function much better than I used to. The headaches I used to get nearly disappeared once I started getting acupuncture, and all of the bloating I used to get in the mornings basically disappeared once I added massages to my weekly routine and started using my roller at home.

Daily Makeup?

Sometimes I switch out the Hourglass concealer for my Armani concealer. I think it’s creamier, it blends well and doesn’t crease under powder, and I love the color I have it in. It’s a simple routine, but it’s not one that I’m devoted to; I like to switch up my eye makeup.

Just be who you say you are

a deep connection can’t be formed without emotional safety. without safety, there’s no trust. without trust, there’s no vulnerability. without vulnerability, there’s no intimacy + without intimacy, there’s no true connection.

I credit hypergamytumblr and studyblr for helping me get into Michigan, Cornell, Georgetown, Berkeley, UCLA, USC, Tulane, UCSB, and UMiami. The help I got making lists of deadlines, refining my essays, finding fee waivers to apply to schools for free, going on tours, and maximizing my opportunities and productivity changed my application process for the better, and the tips and tricks I picked up were incredibly helpful and remain relevant to this day.

I think it’s incredibly important to use what resources are around you and pour what you have into the things you want. I had no idea where to start, and I love Tumblr, so I used the resources I’d found to formulate a plan and leapt in. I didn’t go to community college after high school, and I also didn’t want to go back to my high school and ask for resources, so TikTok, Reddit, and Tumblr played vital roles in crafting each application, and I spent hours absorbing information.

I really love the emphasis on discipline on this side of Tumblr. I’m a rather disciplined person in general, but I had to ramp up the discipline and dedication I had to a whole new level in order to keep myself on track and motivated. I had to create entirely new routines, constantly check myself, be consistent with all of my efforts, keep to my timeline and budget, and dance with 20 different apps at the same time while scheduling interviews and meetings with alumni. It’s very difficult to stay on track during the admissions process if you’re not Type A, and being able and willing to pick up new habits is a must.

What I’m saying is this: advice from Tumblr helped me to get stable, taught me how to settle down, and helped me start writing; TikTok videos from admitted and prospective students helped me clear my path and figure out where I wanted to tour and visit; and Reddit was great for interview tips and for getting my SAT score up. If you’re looking to apply to schools and want to get yourself on track fast, you have to be willing to use unorthodox methods and take advantage of what (free) resources you do have at your fingertips.

I got into 9 of the 11 schools I applied to and thought I wouldn’t get into, kept my application process completely free, and ended the journey with planning skills that I will be using until the end of my days. I learned how to follow through, how to chase an opportunity, how to dress and what to wear, and how to write a compelling essay, along with so many other important skills. I had to be willing to use what was at my disposal, take advantage of what was available to me, and not be afraid of the unknown to end up with the results that I have, and I’m happy I did.

Staying consistent even when it’s not immediately rewarding is where the shift happens.

I saw what I wanted in my mind’s eye and decided I could have it. I decided that nothing was too grand, nothing was impossible or out of my reach, and nothing would hold me back from getting it. I thought to myself, “I would like to be beautiful", and so with a lot of work and planning, beautiful was what I became.

MIND GAMES ARE SO BORING! i am double texting! triple texting! i am texting you first! this reminded me of you! this sunset is beautiful but not in the way you are! someone walked by wearing your scent + it feels like the universe did this on purpose so i can be reminded of what it feels like to be touched by you! open your heart to me so i can live there! build a home in me and i will keep you safe!

Favorite hair tutorial? I can't seem to get the blowout look right

I think that this is the holy grail of hairstyling routines.

Focus on what you want. Disregard that which ought to remain in the past. Focus on your desires. Disregard the rest. Focus. Focus. Focus. Especially on what you want to grow. Multiply your most delicious desires. Fucking alchemize your present reality into your wildest fantasy.