Slowly Coming To Terms With The Fact That I Am Physically Incapable Of Doing Anything Anymore.

Hnnng I lowkey wanna do a slight aesthetic redesign of my blog but I dunno what to do :,(

Part of me wants to make it Lain centric because I’m back on my Lain hyper fixation but I still want it to be cutesy and pink(not saying Lain can’t be cutesy it’s just that I don’t associate her with the color pink lol), but also… I do have a digital persona that I redesigned and I wouldn’t waste an opportunity to draw a pfp..

Idk I might make a poll soon to see what people want. Stay tuned for that I guess.

People ask me “what are your future plans?” And I will say “I’m taking it slow and time will tell what my future will have in store”, but actually that’s just an excuse because if I said that I don’t think there’s a future for me and I’ll probably be dead before I can decide on a proper decision, I’ll most likely get criticized for it.

I’m feeling extra daring today should I show off my list of Neopronouns?

Got a monster from my one of my campus’s vending machines.

Ultra Strawberry Dreams because it’s strawberry flavored. It’s the first monster I officially tried on my own accord.

Design: 10/10

Overall Taste: 7/10

Tasted sweet and carbonated with a hint of citrus that I got used to.

Ngl I liked it.

Inspired by a post by @crushingcasanova where they had shown their results, I looked at a few Yandere personality charts out of boredom and because I (personally) love the yandere archetype. These were my results:

•Big Five Yandere: CCDAF

•Yandere Types: LSVT

•Yandere MBTI: RDHL

•Soft Yanderes: CDWI

Also just in case anyone wants to do it themselves….

♡Sources♡

Big Five Yandere Personality Types:

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☰ Yandere Personality Types  〔Big Five〕 ☰ Overview 〔Disclaimer〕 Yandere behavior and mindsets are not healthy, nor should they be sought a

Yandere Types:

Yandere MBTI:

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Yandere “MBTI”

Disclaimer: The yandere trope is not a portrayal of healthy or ideal relationships, but instead a horror-based genre meant to stick strictly

Soft Yanderes MBTI:

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An MBTI System For Soft Yanderes

Having discovered the amazing Yandere MBTI by @ddarker-dreams I was inspired to create a similar system for the categorisation of soft yande

That moment when you accidentally reblog a post on your side blog instead of your main blog…

Fml man I hate having to jump between two different blogs constantly.

WARNING:

POSSIBLE NSFW & SH MENTIONS

I just got a message from I think a bot or maybe a scammer trying to get me to be his sugarbaby or something like that.

I blocked of course but it got me thinking…

Even if it wasn’t a ploy or something I just wanna say:

Bitch in what world am I sugar baby material?😭I’m a hopeless, fat virgin who cuts herself to cope with stress(which doesn’t even work anymore), can’t maintain a healthy friendship to save her life, and will throw a hissy fit when things don’t go exactly as she wants it to go.

I struggle doing minimal tasks such as getting up in the morning, brushing my teeth and taking a shower.

I spent the last two days doing absolutely nothing but sleeping and scrolling on my phone, praying that I get more online attention.

They say people are complex but if I were a rubix puzzle i’d be a fucking dodecahedron.

I’m a mess and I wear that fact on my sleeve.

I doubt that I can handle a relationship, let alone a transactional one.

Xx_p3arly-k1ss-X0X0_xX

Not that far from usernames I’ve made in the past lmao

1. change all the e’s in your url to “3” 2. change all the o’s in your url to “0” 3. change all the i’s in your url to “1” 4. add some dashes everywhere 5. put “Xx_” and “_xX” at the beginning and end 6. your new emo chat forum url

I’m looking back at videos trying to explain Jirai Kei and not gonna lie, if I wasn’t a hideous, camera-shy freak, I’d go all out and make my own Jirai Kei essay.

The way that these people talk about Jirai Kei doesn’t feel like it does them justice since they’re into it from a fashion perspective. And I don’t wanna be that person, but if you’re into it purely for the fashion, you might as well call it girly kei since that’s what its fashion aspect of it basically took inspiration from, if not directly took it from (and if you’re a subcul Jirai, emo fashion in Harajuku is a primary visual inspiration).

Jirai isn’t just some edgy term used by Jirais to look cool and like some sort of anime menhera archetype. It was an actual insult used by people(usually men) in Japan to describe girls who are basically ticking time bombs. This is just Jirais reclaiming the term the same way Emos had reclaimed their name(Emo was an insult in the early 2000s).

I call myself Jirai because I understand this as someone who was often called overdramatic and too emotional, and feel a sense of power from it. Yes, I’m not Japanese, but there’s a reason that some Japanese subcultures have terms for participants outside of Japan(Ex. Gaijin Gyaru). It doesn’t have to be exclusive.

In conclusion, to quote a Reddit that I found, “I don’t think people(especially fashion Jirais) understand the implications of being called a Jirai.

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