First Post

First post

This is my first post. It's nothing special. I agonized over it for weeks, trying to think of something clever or original, but unable to think of the "right" or "best" or "perfect" thing to post first. #perfectionist problems

Anyway, this is it. And now at least it's done so maybe I can get to posting some other thoughts and ideas I've had.

If you're curious, I'm a stay-at-home mom in my late thirties. I have one incredibly smart child who is going to public school (for now) so I have way too much time on my hands and yet never enough time to do the things I want or need to do. Mostly lacking in energy and motivation more than anything else. Also definitely lacking in creativity and talent. I'd like to be someone, to create or do something special, but I'm not and I can't. In school I excelled with academics and getting good grades. Now I pretty much fail at everything, so that sucks. In case you couldn't tell I struggle with anxiety, depression and self-hatred. That's about all anyone would need to know.

I've given you exactly 0 reasons to follow me, why are you still here? If you got this far I'll tell you this: humans are amazing. I love quotes so there will probably be a lot of those. Thanks for... listening? Reading?

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Oathbringer

I have so much to say about this book I don't even know where to begin.


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7 months ago

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3 weeks ago

Thoughts on Rhythm of War...

(Semi-spoilers? Trying to keep it clean...)

-I cannot believe I just finished Rhythm of War and I'm about to start on Wind and Truth already.

-I cannot believe Taravangian... and that Cultivation thought that would actually work/help/make things better somehow

-Adolin has grown on me so much

-"WE CHOSE!"

-Chapter 85 about Dabbid had me 😭

-Chapter 104 had me screaming MOASH YOU F@#$ING BASTARD TRAITOR NOOOOOOOO that was awful

-It's funny that Lyft had the flute

-So many good quotes and conversations of course, like the one between Noril, Kaladin and Teft in Chapter 25 about darkness

-Navani "Don't let his lies become your truth"

-Syl's assertion that hair is gross because it oozes out of little holes and you just let it sit there 😂

- I'm still not sure how I feel about Venli

-I really liked how they ended things with Eshonai

- LOVED what happened with Rlain and the spren

Please send thoughts and prayers and luck as I start Wind and Truth 😅


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6 months ago

WoK Chapter 15 Thoughts

Currently on chapter 15 of Way of Kings, some thoughts so far:

-Dalinar should have been king, not Elhokar

-I like Shallan, really was not expecting her true motivation/quest though

-I love Wit (Hoid) 😍 Especially when he makes fun of that jerk Sadeas 😁

-Kaladin....🥺


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1 month ago

One of those days

Today is one of those days "I took the Tylenol at 2:30 and again at 6:15 I took the ibuprofen at 4:30 so I can take that again at 8:30" I can't tell if it helps but it's all I can do that and laying on the couch with a heating pad trying to read and distract myself feeling horribly guilty about all the house work and other stuff that needs to get done that's not getting done feeling nauseous and exhausted no spoons but knowing I can't sleep or do more than doze off for a few minutes before the pain wakes me up wondering if I should take the stronger pain medicine the doctor gave me but very nervous about it wondering again what the fuck is causing this pain is it kidney endometriosis the birth control doesn't seem to be helping that much I was told it was hydronephrosis caused by UPJ an obstructed ureter but what caused THAT it only started when my daughter was about 6 months old she's 6.5 years now so that's 6 years of sporadic debilitating pain maybe something post pregnancy related I guess

All we know is it's not kidney stones tried a ureteral stent that was a nightmare and didn't help trying the birth control the obgyn will only check for endometriosis by going in through the front but all my pain is in one spot in the back exactly where my right kidney is the kidney doctor won't operate until my kidney function gets worse its only a little bad right now so I'm stuck second guessing and wondering people think maybe it's just a muscle thing but I don't see how that's possible always in the same place on and off sometimes for a few days or sometimes just a day for years now always along with nausea and exhaustion heating pad doesn't really help either maybe IBS flare-up coincides it's hard to tell maybe PMDD often happens the week before my period but not always and sometimes (like now) the week of or the week after or any random time of the month often on Tuesdays I have no idea why stress related maybe I just know when it hits I want someone to cut this fucking kidney out of me and be done I'm so tired


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4 months ago

The end of Words of Radiance

SPOILER ALERT....

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So when Adolin kills Sadeas at the end of Words of Radiance it is so damn satisfying that I actually laughed out loud and said "YES! FINALLY!" while listening to the audiobook. But then...all I can picture is Adolin nonchalantly chucking Oathbringer out the window, "alley-oop!" dusting off his hands and then whistling as he ambles away down the corridor to find his friends "Heeeey guyz, I waz here in this other corridor all along... nothing to see down that way!"

And I'm just dying 🤣☠️


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5 months ago

A Christmas Carol (Doctor Who Style)

Happy Winter Solstice everyone! A day late...I was too busy watching our absolute favorite Doctor Who episode of all time yesterday with my husband in honor of the solstice, it's our yearly tradition. So many great lines, I could just recite the whole episode 😍 "Well done everyone, we're halfway out of the dark."

Share your favorite quote from this Christmas special with me in the notes!

A Christmas Carol (Doctor Who Style)

"There are 4,003 people I won't allow to die tonight. Do you know where that puts you?"


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5 months ago

Kaladin and Dalinar

"Will I never stop hearing about Dalinar storming Kholin? Kaladin thought."

I freakin' KNOW this is foreshadowing 👀


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1 month ago

Just saw this for the first time. This is some powerful music; this and his song Sick Boi.

Ren - Hi Ren (Official Music Video)


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3 months ago

"Each man thought: one of the others is bound to say something soon, some protest, and then I'll murmur agreement, not actually say anything, I'm not as stupid as that, but definitely murmur very firmly, so that the others will be in no doubt that I thoroughly disapprove, because at a time like this it behooves all decent men to nearly stand up and be almost heard ...

But no one said anything. The cowards, each man thought."

Guards! Guards! - Terry Pratchett

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