How To Not Binge

genuinely didn't think a plateau would happen to me. calories? in check. exercise? every day. plateau? couldn't be me.

and yet.

here we are.

so many of the reddit forums recommend eating at maintenance for a while and it makes me sick to even think about trying, so we're going to weigh and count everything obsessively again, not just the big/non-vegetable things, and lower the max daily calories to 800. i know that's actually a pretty high number for edblr, but 1000 had been working for me for so long…

wish me luck! almost excited to feel the pains again.

My master list of motif to ⭐️ve…

For a skinny girl autumn and winter/sweater weather and spooky season vibes

To be unrecognizable and make everyone jealous of how pretty I get

To get skinny for my tattoos

To be intelligent and beautiful

No acne! (aka my biggest insecurity)

To have a sex drive/feel good during sex

To attract more attention from people/my partner/crushes

Honestly, getting drunk and high is so much more fun when you’re starving and skinny lol

To have an incredible sense of style and actually be able to wear cool outfits

To romanticize my life more

To give me a reason for existing and looking drop dead gorgeous while doing it

To beat my goal weight before I was forced into treatment; get into the mindset again

To chase the euphoria that starving and being skinny brings/the number on the scale droppjng brings

To shock everyone with how beautiful I get

Sharp cheekbones and jawline/thigh gap/slim arms/prominent and protruding collarbone/skinny fingers/thin and hour glass figure

To wear rings and nice jewelry that compliment my skinny body

I have the potential! I refuse to waste it this time

I want to look attractive for my travels across the globe this year. Meeting lifetime friends and partying in Europe will be so much more fun when skinny!

I feel so much more clean and motivated when I’m starving! I clean my space more, self care more, look better in general and do everything I need to get done!! I need this back

My collection of meals under 300 cals (ongoing):

Egg Cups (about 45 cal per egg cup or 270 for 6): preheat oven to 360 F, use a nonstick muffin tin, fill muffin slots to top with spinach, add about 14 grams of chicken to each (84 grams or 3 oz for 6), bake for about 20 minutes or until cooked through. For flavor with very little cals, I dip them in sriracha. Ingredients below.

Liquid egg whites

Spinach (or any quick cooking veggie)

Pro2Go chicken/cooked chicken breast (optional, remove 17 cals per cup if leaving out)

Safe Tacos (about 70 cals per taco, 280 for 6): spread half of laughing cow wedge onto one half of the taco shell, add chicken and fold in half. Either toast on nonstick pan or microwave if you're feeling lazy. For dipping, I again use sriracha to keep calories lower. Ingredients below.

Mini Mission Carb Balance tortillas (25 cal each)

Laughing Cow Light (any flavor that's 25 cals works)

Pro2Go chicken/cooked chicken breast

Creamy Chicken & Vegetable Soup (about 225 cals for 1/2 recipe): Please note: I usually eyeball the vegetable amounts, so feel free to add less if you like. I tried to overmeasure for the sake of guestimating calories. To make, bring a cup and a half of water to boil (can add more later to taste). add chopped onion, zucchini, celery, carrots and bouillon. let come to a simmer. cook for about 5-10 minutes. add ground chicken breast and 1 tsp thyme. bring to simmer again and cook another 5-10 minutes. if worried about raw chicken, you can also pre-cook it in a non-stick pan beforehand. finally right before serving, add 100 ml of oatmilk. Ingredients below.

Oatly/Califa Oatmilk Barista Edition (very important to get barista edition! other versions may be lower calorie but it won't be as creamy and even "unsweetened" tends to be sweet)

Yellow onion, 1/2, chopped

Zucchini, 1 medium, chopped

Celery, 1 stalk, chopped

Carrot, 1/2 cup chopped

Better Than Bouillon Chicken Bouillon, 60 g (honestly you can add less and cut calories, but I like things salty and flavorful. add this or any chicken bouillon you prefer to taste. Adjust cals accordingly)

Ground chicken breast, 100g (optional, remove 55 cals per serving if leaving out)

Dried thyme, 1 tsp

More to be added as I think of them.

my biggest motivation is that I could be 20 lbs lighter but I just gave up for a whole month.

50 reasons to lose weight ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

so your s/o can pick you up effortlessly

free piggy back rides from your friends

so you don't have to worry about being too heavy when you sit in someone's lap

so people will lend you their clothes (and they'll be too big on you)

when people buy you clothes, they'll get the smallest size (and worry that a size S might be too big)

someone from a k-beauty youtube video said "losing weight makes you 10x prettier"

to fit into petite and aesthetic clothes (eg brandy melville)

so you don't have the gross feeling of your skin touching (thighs rubbing together, stomach rolls, etc)

to look effortlessly beautiful doing anything

you'll sweat less

to look good in tight clothes

to be able to wear revealing outfits and still look cute

you'll look cute and small in oversized clothes, instead of looking bigger

so you can wear a bikini

to feel more confident

people will treat you better

if you stick to it and work hard to lose the weight, then you'll be better than everyone who has failed to do so. you're willpower and self-control will be admired and envied by your peers

people will pay more attention to you

people will worry and care about you more

for the skinny/pretty privilege

to make people jealous of you

to prove that you can

to look good wearing anything, even if it isn't a good outfit

so you won't be anxious about being weighed at the doctor's

to look prettier in pictures

so you can go clothes shopping without being insecure

no more dressing room breakdowns

so your s/o can fit their fingers around your wrists and their hands around your thighs (or so you can do it yourself)

for the thigh gap (duh)

to be small enough to use your s/o as a bed

so your s/o can easily lift you with one hand

so your sh scars (if you have any) look more "aesthetic" (idrk how to explain it, but scars always look prettier on thinner limbs

to be desirable

you'll have a higher chance of people stopping you on the street for photographs/modeling scouts/etc

to be more attractive

you'll use less products (body wash, lotion) if there's less of you (so you'll end up saving money too!)

people will take you more seriously

you'll be able to move through crowds easier

to boost your self-esteem, feel better about yourself, and be happier

you can purchase the smallest size when shopping online and you won't have to worry about it being too small

to be able to shop at cute online shops that only carry smaller sizes (brandy, yesstyle, other asian stores)

to look good while eating, instead of like a fat, greedy pig...

to finally be in control

so you don't feel jealous/sad when you see other people's bodies/thinspo, because THEY'LL be envying YOU

to have your pics/bodychecks put in a thinspo compilation

to finally feel pretty

to take up less space

to be able to wear low rise bottoms

so you can talk about your weight and not feel ashamed

if you actually stick to it and restrict, your appetite/stomach will be a lot smaller once you reach your ugw, so you'll naturally eat less!!

New month, new start. Definitely got away from my progress the last two months. Aaaaagh.

But buying the tickets to Japan has renewed my determination, so i might not be at like. My UUGW but I can sure as hell make it to the OG September goal!

Height: 5'4"

HW: 210

SW: 200 (November 2023)

CW: 146 (July 2024)

GW1: 149 (May 2024)

GW2: 140 (July 2024)

GW3: 130 (August/September 2024)

UGW: 120 (November 2024)

**UUGW: <110**

Height: 5'4"

HW: 210

SW: 200 (November 2023)

CW: 154 (April 2025)

GW1: 146 (May 2025)

GW2: 138 (June 2025)

GW3: 130 (July 2025)

UGW: 120 (August/September 2025)

**UUGW: <110**

Me right now

ℱ𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑔𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ 𝑢𝑟 𝑢𝑔𝑤 𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑟!!

Don ’ t eat until X book is complete

Don ’ t eat until completed X amount of YouTube videos

Don ’ t eat until X art project / hobby is complete

Don ’ t eat until you have ran X km

Don ’ t eat until you ’ ve completed X amount of steps

Don ’ t eat until you have finished X show or X movie series

Don ’ t eat until X assignment has been completed

Don ’ t eat until you ’ ve studied X amount of hours

Don ’ t eat until X person forces you

Don ’ t eat until you come from school/work

Don ’ t eat anything until X person offers you food

Don ’ t eat until 1 hour before X event

Don ’ t eat until X amount of lbs/kgs is lost

Don ’ t eat until room/house has been cleaned/organised

Don ’ t eat until X package arrives