Height: 5'4"

having an 3d is literally just waiting 24/7

- waiting to w3igh in

- waiting for your next meal / when you can eat

- waiting for ppl to notice your wl

- waiting for the mirror to change

- waiting for the "special number"

waiting waiting waiting . . . it sucks.

— thinspo —

doing another day where i note when i have thoughts of food so i can try and ignore them until dinner.

10:36am: stomach growled but wasn't genuinely feeling hungry. just had the passing thought of 'should i grab something quick to munch'. felt easy to say no.

1:08pm: finished working out and am feeling hungry. TT going to be harder to go away this time. gonna try drinking more water and working hard.

1:49pm: manga mentioned pizza and i want it. soooo bad. going to keep working and focus on getting sandwiches later :Q__

thinspø / motivation

To break it down by month:

192 by December 184 by January 176 by February 168 by March 160 by April

on track for Feb requirements but am getting nervous about April.... time to once again restrict!!

You won’t remember what you ate today in summer.

I repeat

YOU WILL NOT REMEMBER WHAT YOU ATE TODAY IN SUMMER.

My master list of motif to ⭐️ve…

For a skinny girl autumn and winter/sweater weather and spooky season vibes

To be unrecognizable and make everyone jealous of how pretty I get

To get skinny for my tattoos

To be intelligent and beautiful

No acne! (aka my biggest insecurity)

To have a sex drive/feel good during sex

To attract more attention from people/my partner/crushes

Honestly, getting drunk and high is so much more fun when you’re starving and skinny lol

To have an incredible sense of style and actually be able to wear cool outfits

To romanticize my life more

To give me a reason for existing and looking drop dead gorgeous while doing it

To beat my goal weight before I was forced into treatment; get into the mindset again

To chase the euphoria that starving and being skinny brings/the number on the scale droppjng brings

To shock everyone with how beautiful I get

Sharp cheekbones and jawline/thigh gap/slim arms/prominent and protruding collarbone/skinny fingers/thin and hour glass figure

To wear rings and nice jewelry that compliment my skinny body

I have the potential! I refuse to waste it this time

I want to look attractive for my travels across the globe this year. Meeting lifetime friends and partying in Europe will be so much more fun when skinny!

I feel so much more clean and motivated when I’m starving! I clean my space more, self care more, look better in general and do everything I need to get done!! I need this back

⊹ ࣪ ˖ʚskinny armsɞ˖ ࣪ ⊹