Onlyteaandcoffee - For Days Of Only Tea And Coffee

having an 3d is literally just waiting 24/7

- waiting to w3igh in

- waiting for your next meal / when you can eat

- waiting for ppl to notice your wl

- waiting for the mirror to change

- waiting for the "special number"

waiting waiting waiting . . . it sucks.

how to not binge

first let’s understand why you’re binging…

you miss the food. you miss the flavor and you miss the freedom. that’s okay. restricting your diet is hard especially because you’ve had a taste for high cal foods and they taste great, i won’t lie. but i have been able to go about 2 months without binging, even though i miss the flavor.

my lw was at the beginning of the pandemic and i was eating like once every three days (because of my ocd). i got into recovery this year but i don’t think i was mentally ready for all the weight gain so i restarted my rexie journey about 2 months ago and i’ve lost a significant amount of weight (about 25 lbs)

now how to not binge!

actually enjoy your low cal meals. savor the flavor and really enjoy it. don’t eat them with the mindset of “this will make me skinny”, eat them with the mindset of “this is actually good food”. the more you start to look at these foods as delicious and tasty, the less you’ll want the high cal foods. look forward to the meals you cook. experiment with flavor and different textures. and remember it’s okay to miss that burger and that pizza, but there’s a whole world of different flavors you have yet to explore in low cal foods!

as i’m writing this, i’m having my breakfast: black coffee, a can of tuna with salt and pepper and some unsweetened applesauce. it might seem like bland food but i genuinely love the bitterness of the coffee and the sweetness from my saliva that follows after i’ve drank it, the savory and slightly spicy flavor of the tuna (i’ve always loved tuna since childhood so this one was pretty easy to like) and the applesauce, it’s like a treat and a fun little snack. i even consider it akin to candy, so i don’t feel the need to eat actually candy.

it’s a mindset to get into. just remember that you don’t have to suffer to be skinny, you can enjoy food while losing weight.

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

Lose the weight. You did it before, so you can do it again.

THINSPO

feels unreal to be near my first goal weight. one more month!!

roommate came home and offered the last pieces of her sushi. it's...so hard to say no to offered food TT people get so weird about it. so i ate it. 315 cals down the drain.

going to avoid food at our work outing and then stick with dumpling soup / veg and dumplings for dinner.

the good thing about eating an offering vs a snack binge or breaking down and eating something unprompted is: i still feel in control. i will do well today even with this.

— thinspo —

a month from now you can be 10lbs lighter or 10 times more miserable

i plateaued at 176.6 - so close to my goal - and then i fucked up my back yesterday. had been hurting for a while, but hosting the company events kind of screwed me over, and i tweaked it when i got home. that means no working out for a week.

so goodbye food :(