Vegas Pete At The Lakehoouse, Day 45

I think you're cute when you pout.

I see you like it. So it has my attention.

It’s giving 🤩

How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

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For the first time Kim almost immediately loses his composure on hearing Porchay didn't turn up for his college interview.

Let's take a moment to appreciate how deep Porchay's love was. 😭 He must have dreamt of joining music school after idolising WIK. The more he got to know him, his idol became his muse & first love. (There's a quote which says "Love is creating a religion with a fallible God") He loved him with all his heart so when WIK left so did Porchay's ability to make art 🥺🥺🥺🥺

The vexed person here is not Kim but WIK. He was surprised after hearing even teachers found Porchay as promising as he did. He did spend time tutoring Chay & as a teacher, he was hoping his student to do well.

He also knows Chay is neither incapable nor weak. He was not like regular kids whose main struggles were graduating high school or getting into college. Porchay was coping with their uncle's betrayal. Porsche abruptly leaving him alone with a letter & no way of communication. He was fighting his battles alone the whole time & still managed to stay positive.

Kim probably went thinking Porchay lost confidence & needs reassurance. But then he realized he had been a monster all along. Because it hit him that WIK was the reason Porchay learnt to dream. And KIM was the one who crushed it.

When Porchay tells him off, Kim realises for the first time that he's not in position to lecture anyone. Now that he let someone know about his double life, who was he to teach about separating personal & professional lives? What right did he have to tell anything, when Porchay reminded that he never interfered in Kim's life?

When Kim left warning "From now on, what you do is your darn decision" I don't think he meant, "I'm no longer going to care about you or protect you."

Rather, he must have meant, "You're growing into an adult who needs to take responsibility of his life. So don't do anything that you would regret later." He's right. Porchay should have prioritised college. He's got a long life ahead to wallow, date & break up.

But it doesn't look right when it's coming from Kim, who grew up the way he did, has almost no issues listening to his head over his heart, and is now failing to either hold on or let go. He first leads him on, breaks his heart, and still continues to show up like a knight in shining armor. Only walk away without even an elaborate apology. He can't nurse his broken heart & move on until you withdraw from his life P'Kim😪

Now ik we're all rooting for a happy ending for our y/n x celebrity in a mafia au 😂

It's unrealistic to expect Kim to turn into this openly affection person with good communication skills. It's also weird if Porchay adjusts seamlessly into the world of organised crime. Yes even I want Kim to go out of his way & give Porchay a grand apology. I also hope Porchay says that he understands but he's still hurt. That he takes his time to heal & forgive.

A believeable happy ending would be the one where Porchay agrees to make an effort to understand Kim & his life. Meanwhile Kim stops separating parts of himself and promises to love Porchay as Kimhan Theerapanyakul instead WIK or KIM.

Love is not an end result but the efforts made every single day.

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barbie movie is releasing soon & i just remembered an anecdote from my childhood.

i grew up in a conservative town where gender roles & stereotypes were barely questioned. my neighbor was a boy. he was 5. i was 8. he walked into our living room as i was watching the beginning of barbie princess charm school. my grandmother came after a while & asked if he watched barbie & not ben 10.

"omg she's so cool she wiped the tables, cooked & served customers so fast in 10 seconds she's a superhuman!!" he exclaimed & continued watching as long as his attention span of a 5 y/o could take.

misogyny is not inherent. misogyny is taught. understand that.

Tho? Aek? Natsu? LEON?!!!

Now if they doesn't give a proper cameo THERE WILL BE CONSEQUENCES 😭😤

How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

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Now that we have identified his 2 personalities let's go back a to where all the trouble started.

Kim being surprised that an experienced bodyguard like Big was replaced with a newbie due to his injury. The more he learnt about the preferential treatment Prosche received from both Kinn & Korn, he immediately smelled something fishy. So he decides to do the background check Korn deliberately didn't.

When he discovers Porchay is Porsche's brother he doesn't hesitate to take advantage of his fanboy. He never intended to be cruel, he considered it an exchange for the time he would invest in tutoring.

Disclosing that Kim & WIK are 2 sides of the same coin was a calculated move. He knew that the Kittisawads & Theerapanyakuls' fates would only get more intertwined in future. (Also notice how Kim mentions "sad love song" to Big in their conversation. Could that mean he knew about Big's feelings for Kinn without anyone telling?) However, he is not subtle in ways (lucky Kim that Porchay was too näive to suspect) possibly due to lack of social engagement.

Kim's only miscalculation was his budding feelings for Porchay. He is barely in touch with his feelings to be able to do something before it's too late. We see Kimhan smiling only when he discovers Chay fanboying over him (the texts & his room wall) or when Chay is singing. So it is not Kim, but WIK the artist & tutor falling for Porchay.

So in essence, Kim asked him to write a song on Porsche but WIK fell in love with the song. WIK asked him to write a love song & WIK fell in love with Chay.

Kimhan doesn't even realize his feelings until he can't help but smile at the song dedicated for him. (Let's just take a moment to appreciate it 🤭)

He acknowledges his feelings for the first time when the thought of Porchay clears his creative block. After all, for an artist, you know you're in love when they become your muse.

He is well aware that he has to stop seeing Porchay so that both their feelings don't get hurt. But WIK takes over Kim when Porchay shyly confesses. (Seriously, as if he wasn't cute enough already - Porchay reveals he promised God he would risk confessing to his celebrity crush. How could someone NOT melt at that innocence)

For the first time in the series we see Kim follow his heart over his head like most humans. Considering he let himself feel happy despite his overly practical self. It goes a long way to highlight the intensity of his feelings.

Like a well crafted character his personality doesn't change overnight. His original habits resurface very soon.

He stares at his own hand in happiness mingled with guilt. Yes he would love to vow to protect Porchay's innocent sunshine smile & teenage dreams. Forever. But he hates himself. Because he can't. Nothing can help him escape his reality. He's a Theerapanyakul. He's a threat to anyone he loves. He's not allowed to love.

He feels unworthy of someone who says "I love you" without expecting anything in return. He hates himself for letting himself be happy & forget all this worries. He would have left Porchay with a note that day if not for the mishap.

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Can I just take a moment to say clingy Puen makes me sad after this conversation🥺🥺🥺🥺

Poor boy must have felt so isolated in his real life & he's unable to handle it when he gets to try a "normal life" he was craving for.

He must have felt so guilty after Talay pointed out his mistakes. He never intended to hurt anyone. He was just having a hard time accepting the new reality. Perhaps it all felt like a long lucid dream 😪

I think it was very smart on Tinn's part to give the garland to the other band during the competition, because not only did it help him keep up the façade of friendly-bantering relationship he has going on with Gun, but also helped in boosting Gun and his band's confidence (because of the audience vote). Also, the fact that other contestants would not blame him for "favoritism", since they had seen him interacting with the band before the competition.

Like, the boy knows that he is not that close with Gun to help him in any other way than the whole tsundere thing.

Also, how has Gun not noticed Tinn's crush??? LIKE BOY, he's a blushing mess around you, how have you not noticed???

I don't understand why Talay told Phuwandol that Puen NEVER told he's flirting for fun?

Sure, Puen never said it's a prank but he clearly overdid things & always SAID that "it's for the script." So technically he DID say that it's NOT real, right??

Talay was just setting boundaries by asking Puen to quit his so called "fake" flirting. But Puen didn't even have the courage to go & clear all misunderstandings so he just isolated himself.

Talay still came looking for him & this boy had the audacity to say "I'm not messing with you" & kiss him JUST after giving one sentence of apology. (SERIOUSLY, how about you try saying something such as "I like you" before pulling him in for an unexpected kiss?! When will you learn to show sincerity, HUH?!!) Only for us to see him telling in ep5 teaser that it helped him improve the script 🤡

Puen was so cowardly he hid behind the excuse of scriptwriting instead of confessing. Talay deserves better. Perhaps someone who is more certain about their feelings for starters. Oh wait, perhaps someone who would tell his real name 🙂

are we going to ignore the fact Sky's neck was clean at the start of ep3 but has a hint of a hickey later on??

so Rain (and everyone tbh) totally ignore that evident mark on Sky's neck?? And Sky is sporting it so casually??? like???? it's no big deal?

Meanwhile Prapai is not even trying to hide? He's face literally screams "whipped"

Ofc from the trailer we know something happened between Sky & Prapai in ep2 in the race venue.

DID SOMETHING HAPPEN TO THEIR STORY IN EP 3 TIMELINE?? CUZ THAT BRUISE!!!??

But when are we going to get Sky & Prapai's story?? Just when????