Littlecigs - Out Of Body

I hate that I can't talk about my issues more eloquently.

I've been alone for so much of my life. Like stuck in my bedroom starving deeply alone. All I do is panic and dissociate and distance myself from people. Because I don't know how to talk to people, and I don't think people actually want to be around me. I must be intimidating, or ugly, or something.

I just want attention. I dunno.

Is that so wrong?

i feel like i do 25% of what an average person does in a day and still it's too much

I just want someone to kiss me

I just want to be held

Trees

un feu chaud et brisé

ça craque comme des os

avec les vignes qui sèchent autour de vous

ils étouffent ton corps

vos cheveux commencent à brûler

et vous êtes pris au piège

et le parfum est vil

pour quand tu meurs

ils meurent aussi

google search how to cough up the ball of grief that's been stuck in your stomach since birth

I wonder how many people know that butterfly knives are actually pretty useless in a combat scenario. Like they're fun to play with but that thing will break if it touches basically anything other than skin.....