Littlecigs - Out Of Body

The Wire

legs kick fiercely at the ground

dirt flies as claws sink further

I can feel it still

the wire

wrapped around my neck

and there is no hope

squeals from me, from them

the sound of wood snapping

it’s getting dark

There are lots of big cute scary boys on tumblr dot com but I'm soooo shy 🥺👉👈

I finally re-dyed my hair today :)

non sexual intimacy!!!! bathing together, washing each other, playing with each other's hair, kissing every inch of their body, writing love letters on their back with your finger, connecting their moles and freckles to create constellations on their skin, running your hands up and down their thighs, ugh just expressing physical love without it having to be about sex!!!!

I hate that I can't talk about my issues more eloquently.

I've been alone for so much of my life. Like stuck in my bedroom starving deeply alone. All I do is panic and dissociate and distance myself from people. Because I don't know how to talk to people, and I don't think people actually want to be around me. I must be intimidating, or ugly, or something.

I just want attention. I dunno.

Is that so wrong?

I literally have no idea who I am outside of my illnesses and the personality traits I've picked up from other people and I hate it