Littlecigs - Out Of Body

I dreamt of you last night

It was still Christmas

And I was a fairy

But that's not important

I went shopping with friends I don't have

And had fun

Then I ran into you

And got angry

We had a fight

But you kept following me

And I woke up

So viscerally uncomfortable

I had the urge to scream

Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness

I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it all I want is to be seen all I want is to be loved I'm sorry I'm not worth it I'll be better I'll be good I just want someone next to me I want something real I'm so desperate for something real but I'm not what anyone wants I know that I've seen that I'm not what anyone wants

My troubled dreams

when you’ve been sad for so long you don’t know how to get better because you don’t know what it feels like to be okay

I really wish it was socially acceptable to say “I really don’t care” and people would just say oh ok and move onto the next topic in conversation, no hard feelings