I Want To Be More Than My Disorders But I Also Want People To Be Aware Of Them And Understand Them And

when you’ve been in so much emotional and mental turmoil recently that going back to feeling absolutely nothing is actually comforting

kill me kill me kill me

what's the use?

have you seen the news?

buzz like flies in dog shit

I can't watch this

can't they get a clue?

history repeats too often

sitting still is not an option

I just wanna die

c'mon, kill me

I'll be fine

google search how to cough up the ball of grief that's been stuck in your stomach since birth

why am i always the person who needs to apologize. no one considers my emotions, it doesn’t matter what someone has done to me. once i make them upset, then i’m in the wrong and i’m a terrible person.

The Wire

legs kick fiercely at the ground

dirt flies as claws sink further

I can feel it still

the wire

wrapped around my neck

and there is no hope

squeals from me, from them

the sound of wood snapping

it’s getting dark

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be here