Littlecigs - Out Of Body

1 of my love languages..

It's like, I either feel an emotion stronger than I should, or I don't feel anything at all. And here's the thing, I feel happiness stronger than I should too, which essentially means I only feel happy when I'm euphoric, because regular happiness doesn't feel like anything. If it's there, it's exceptionally hard for me to identify it, and I end up just feeling sort of weird?

It makes me come off as unappreciative or disinterested even when I want or enjoy something, and I feel like it's something that needs to be talked about more.

I've had a lot of interactions where in the end the person I was with seemed uncomfortable, because I came off as cold or bored or annoyed, even though I was enjoying the interaction.

Just one of the many things that have caused me to miss out on life.

I have no real personality, I'm just some kind of monstrous amalgamation of the personalities of every person I've ever been friends with

Realizing now I am covered in red flags. Like I knew I was bad but yeesh this is kindaaaaa this is kinda a problem huh

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be here