Sometimes Adulthood Is Having To Call Your Doctors Office Asking For A Renewal On A Five+ Year Old Prescription

Cas experiencing some MIGHTY gay panic

Got kicked out of therapy, plan B it is.

fuck therapy i wanna beat the shit out of someone

A redraw of a drawing I made a few years back, the og drawing is up with the redraw on my ig!

Considering how obsessed my cat is with my achilles tendon (she bites it any chance she gets) I might have to rename her Patroclus...

Was really nervous about doing badly at my heart thingy today, so when the nurse placed all the electrodes and hooked me up to the machine I pulled out every trick my 6(?) Years of synchronized swimming taught me of controlling my heart rate and made it as low as I could

I am thankfully not very skilled at this so hopefully it didn't mess up my results

I was also completely topless in front of a stranger so my heartrate was likely a lil bit elevated from that

A redraw of a redraw of an OLD drawing

Funfact about Norway's universal healthcare

Not all kinds of treatments are covered. I have a bunch of back problems from my tourettes, so I see a chiropractor once a month, he is amazing and fixes everything in like 10-15 mins. But, Norway doesn't believe in chiropractic treatments, so I have to pay privately (or my mom pays). What treatment could I get covered? A fucking massage... I have tried it, yk, state funded massage, and it does not help at all whatsoever, and takes waayy longer, and leaves me needing a shower after cause they use oils and shit

I do find it kinda funny that the state is willing to pay for a treatment that does not work at all, but are unwilling to sponsor a treatment which works absolutely amazing every single time, and likely costs less in the long run

When I was 13 ish I heard take my to church for the first time, and became obsessed with it and listened to it on repeat for like a week. But I kept thinking to myself "damn, I really like this song, but I feel weird abt jamming out to such a Christian Song"

Then I went home and looked up the music video and quickly realized I'd significantly misunderstood the meaning of the lyrics

Dean rescued Cas from the empty and they had a tearful reunion in the rain, no, you can not change my mind.

A big thanx to @i-have-doubts 's amazing comment on one of my older pieces for the inspo (even though it was hidden in the tags)

Just some actual destiel things that haunt me:

when Dean and Cas are going after Raphael in s5 and there's that whole 'last night on earth' vibe and Dean tells Cas "two things I know for certain: one, Bert and Ernie are gay. two, you are not gonna die a virgin, not on my watch."

"Cas, not for nothing, but the last person who looked at me like that? I got laid."

FROM THE SAME EPISODE, when Dean is ready to surrender to the ~Apocalypse and Cas shoves him up against a wall, seething, "I gave EVERYTHING for you, and this is what you give to me???"

"I'm hunted, I rebelled, and I did it, all of it, for you."

all of "The Man Who Would Be King" in its entirety, not a second less, but ESPECIALLY when Cas narrates "and the worst part was Dean, trying so hard to be loyal with every instinct telling him otherwise" while the shot lingers on him staring at Dean, JUST PINING AWAY.

the entire Purgatory arc of season 8 🙏🙏🙏

THIS NO GOOD, RUINOUS LOOK CAS GIVES DEAN IN SEASON 9 WHEN DEAN'S BREAKING UP WITH HIM AND SAM:

when the camera pulls back on this gaze that lasts approximately forever:

when Cas dies in season 7 and Dean keeps his dang trenchcoat

THAT HE THEN RETURNS WHEN CAS IS RESURRECTED, saying (okay, in a cut line, but it was in the promo!) "Part of me always believed you'd come back."

in season 8, when Cas is being controlled by the angels and Naomi creates a simulation where he's forced to kill thousands and thousands of Deans, but he still can't kill the real one

lol Dean really made Cas a mixtape of his favorite Led Zeppelin songs

THIS. WHAT THE HECK IS THIS:

the fanfic gap of 9x06

when Amara is taking Casifer and Dean says, so worried, "Cas?" in the most awful voice possible

"He manipulated him. He made him promises, said 'Paradise on Earth,' and Cas bought it. And you know what it got him? It got him dead! Now you may be able to forget about that, BUT I CAN'T!" Ahhhh, the ANGER. THE GRIEF.

"I left, but you didn't stop me" + Dean praying, "I should've stopped you. You're my best friend, and I just let you go." THE GROWTHHHH.

"The one thing I want... it's something I know I can't have" / "You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know" / "You changed me, Dean" / "I love you." 😭😭