How It Should’ve Ended (drawn By Me)

This is the longest I’ve ever spent on a digital drawing with a whooping 13+ hours so you better appreciate the shit out of it!!

Currently selling a couple prints of this drawing here

I wrote a lill something to go with this, read it here:

Never do a drinking game to Hamilton, I'm on the wedding scene and already so damn drunk holy shit

Went to the doctor for an ingrown toenail, walked out with a covid jab and an ecg.

(Also got a referral to someone who can deal with my poor toe that has been hurting for the past 1.5 years)

Love my doctor

destiel anyone?

“Rejoice! For the righteous man can finally rest.”

The giant angel is both saddened and relieved upon seeing his favourite human in heaven.

10th part of the giant trueform!Cas series and continuation of this.

➡Click full screen for the full resolution. 

➡Song: Passing Thus Alone (Protocat Edit)

A pre scene for my last drawing. Not that happy with how it turned out, but this is as good as it’s gonna get

Not falling into a seasonal depression is so much fucking WORK

Like, I have to have reminders on my phones for the few hours a day the sun is out, so I can make sure I actually go see it. Then I also have to be VERY strict about my sleep schedule, cause if I fuck that up I'll suddenly sleep through the sun hours. And I have to make sure I get enough sleep (for me 10-11 hours a night, I know, a lot, but I'm disabled) but I also need to make sure I don't sleep too much cause then I won't be able to see the sun or sleep the following night.

I also have to be super rigid about taking my meds and vitamin d, cause you know damn well we don't get anywhere near enough vitamin d from the sun in norway.

And on top of all that I have to go to work, make dinner, clean the house, make sure my cat's needs are met AND try to have a social life.

Not to mention I can't use my moped during the winter seasons, so I have to take the bus everywhere (I'm gay, I can't drive, shut up) which takes fucking FOREVERRRR

And don'teven get me STARTED on the clothes situation. I'm always too hot, practical in winter, right? WRONG. I have a cold allergy, so if any part of my body (especially areas with a fat reserve) gets too cold, it starts itching and swells a LOT. On my face that's easily remedied, I just make sure to wear a face covering, one extra layer is enough. Upper body is also easy, I have a thick coat. But, my thighs???? My main problem area??? I cannot deal with wearing an extra layer under my pants, because 1. It gets way too hot the second I walk into my workplace. And 2. It feels fucking AWFUL

Anyways, I love my country and am never leaving

Anything over 20°c and I'm actively dying. I'm uncomfortable in anything over 15° c...

Personality test, is 80f/26c too hot for you?

Just some actual destiel things that haunt me:

when Dean and Cas are going after Raphael in s5 and there's that whole 'last night on earth' vibe and Dean tells Cas "two things I know for certain: one, Bert and Ernie are gay. two, you are not gonna die a virgin, not on my watch."

"Cas, not for nothing, but the last person who looked at me like that? I got laid."

FROM THE SAME EPISODE, when Dean is ready to surrender to the ~Apocalypse and Cas shoves him up against a wall, seething, "I gave EVERYTHING for you, and this is what you give to me???"

"I'm hunted, I rebelled, and I did it, all of it, for you."

all of "The Man Who Would Be King" in its entirety, not a second less, but ESPECIALLY when Cas narrates "and the worst part was Dean, trying so hard to be loyal with every instinct telling him otherwise" while the shot lingers on him staring at Dean, JUST PINING AWAY.

the entire Purgatory arc of season 8 🙏🙏🙏

THIS NO GOOD, RUINOUS LOOK CAS GIVES DEAN IN SEASON 9 WHEN DEAN'S BREAKING UP WITH HIM AND SAM:

when the camera pulls back on this gaze that lasts approximately forever:

when Cas dies in season 7 and Dean keeps his dang trenchcoat

THAT HE THEN RETURNS WHEN CAS IS RESURRECTED, saying (okay, in a cut line, but it was in the promo!) "Part of me always believed you'd come back."

in season 8, when Cas is being controlled by the angels and Naomi creates a simulation where he's forced to kill thousands and thousands of Deans, but he still can't kill the real one

lol Dean really made Cas a mixtape of his favorite Led Zeppelin songs

THIS. WHAT THE HECK IS THIS:

the fanfic gap of 9x06

when Amara is taking Casifer and Dean says, so worried, "Cas?" in the most awful voice possible

"He manipulated him. He made him promises, said 'Paradise on Earth,' and Cas bought it. And you know what it got him? It got him dead! Now you may be able to forget about that, BUT I CAN'T!" Ahhhh, the ANGER. THE GRIEF.

"I left, but you didn't stop me" + Dean praying, "I should've stopped you. You're my best friend, and I just let you go." THE GROWTHHHH.

"The one thing I want... it's something I know I can't have" / "You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know" / "You changed me, Dean" / "I love you." 😭😭