I Love You Already More Then My Heart Can Bare. It’s Heavy But I’ll Carry The Weight Until It Reaches

Cries to degradation you were my separation I don’t know were to go from here.

Somehow, I still love you more.

I was certain it was you

Now I'm crying alone

All alone, stuck here in the

Picture I painted of me and you

How deluded and pitiful of me

To believe that we were meant to be

You were meant to be

To be mine.

Hopeless romantic girlies ✨

@rbhvleo // roberto ferri // mothering by ainslie hogarth // rainer maria rilke // ? // planet of love by richard siken // a self portrait in letters by anne sexton // indian summer by ron hicks

Endless mornings and endless nights

I wake after they bite i wonder will I ever wake up before daylight

Endless commotion, I'm filled to the brim with emotion

I'm still asleep they have so much devotion

Ruptured vein I'm blood-stained

The truth is like blood under your fingernails

I'm awake.

I can't stop crying. I cry, cry, cry and cry untill my eyes are sore but you're never a bore. So I'll cry till dawn and pray to god on my knees to answer my call. For you, my love. Please, be mine.

I am going to eat 400-500 cals a day omad diet and keto diet .

then fast for 19-24 hrs .

then repeat everyday.

then I am going to walk 2-3 hours a day .

this should help me lose 2 lbs a day or more .

Thats what happened last time I did this diet .

Dear Guardian Angel,

My gums are bleeding

I still haven't eaten

Do you pity me?

Please don't

I do this to myself

I self sabotage when things get better and act like it's the end of the world

I dug my own grave

Do you feel anything at all…

You were assigned to me

I'm sorry

My observer

For all the things you've seen

For all my thoughts you hear

For all the words I utter

And still I hope you can see that this is not truly me

I am is whatever I've seen on tv

I'm a chameleon

I put on a new mask and change it when it cracks

I'm lost

Who am I?

I’m gone

Or am I just done

Sitting with my thoughts alone

In this empty home

Father ignores and mothers on the other side of the world

I'm sure you already know

I mean you know me better than me

Stuck in my apocalypse

Hollow, dark, empty, incomplete, disguised, loveless

Distorted with the painful echo of my screams and cries.

Begging for an escape from my capturer

Me.

you deserve the love you dream of. the one that lingers in the night. vulnerable. pure. the one that rises to meet the daylight. the one that tilts your chin to meet it's gaze. the touch that makes you feel electric-grounded. you deserve the eyes that wander reverently over your form. the mouth that longs to taste the dangerous curves of your mind. you deserve a love that keeps you wild, but lets you fall asleep on it's chest. the tender words that heal the wounds abandoned by time. the arms that pull you from the wreck, lifting you from the shore. a mind that never stops studying what magic you hold. the steady voice that makes you forget why it never worked out before. love doesn't have to be a grey mess. settling for convenience. that delicious love you crave is alive. it's yours if you've got the courage to believe in it.