Endless Mornings And Endless Nights

I go to sleep to the thought of you. One day we will meet, and I will love you forever. My one and only. My other half. My Muse. My love.

I still love you

I can’t hate you

Hopeless romantic girlies ✨

Dear Guardian Angel,

My gums are bleeding

I still haven't eaten

Do you pity me?

Please don't

I do this to myself

I self sabotage when things get better and act like it's the end of the world

I dug my own grave

Do you feel anything at all…

You were assigned to me

I'm sorry

My observer

For all the things you've seen

For all my thoughts you hear

For all the words I utter

And still I hope you can see that this is not truly me

I am is whatever I've seen on tv

I'm a chameleon

I put on a new mask and change it when it cracks

I'm lost

Who am I?

I’m gone

Or am I just done

Sitting with my thoughts alone

In this empty home

Father ignores and mothers on the other side of the world

I'm sure you already know

I mean you know me better than me

Stuck in my apocalypse

Hollow, dark, empty, incomplete, disguised, loveless

Distorted with the painful echo of my screams and cries.

Begging for an escape from my capturer

Me.

At times, I'm allowed to be not okay, and my feelings are as significant as anyone else's. But why do I keep punishing myself for feeling this way?

…..is there an escape? Is there somewhere?

-An Open Diary

My hairs stand tall from the thought of you

You fill the empty space once filled with tears

This burdened soul can not house another

My heart is heavy and stained with pain

You look at me with bleeding eyes, mine colder than ice

Emotionless but you make me feel alive

But I'm still distant in confined solitude

I want to see your point of view

Maybe then I could love me too

You're crescent moon eyes and crooked front teeth are my favourite

Never hide that beautiful smile

It brings light to my day

My Muse

I don't know what to do anymore

I'm crying day and night

Yet still somehow I have the will to wake up on the

Last third of the night

To pray for your health and safety

Please give me a sign

I'm lost please find me

I love him

Everytime I try to forget you, god brings me back to you everytime

I love you

It hurts

It won't stop

I've prayed

Instead, my heart yearns harder than before

I love you

It's you

It's always been you

Only you

Always you

Sometimes I don't know why I'm crying

I say i miss you but I've never met you

I don't know you

And you don't know me

But I can feel it in heart and soul

That one day we’ll meet

That we’re destined to be together before everything was written before the beginning of time

My angel

My love

I can't wait for hello

I can't wait to feel your touch

I can't wait to be in your warm embrace

One day instead of my poems or letter

Being written on here

I'll write to you

I only look for you

Only you

I only yearn for you

Only you

I only wait for you

Only you

I only pray for you

Only you

I only love you

Only you

I can't wait to met you

My Muse

My other half

I love you

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝐈𝐒 𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐇! 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐊 🎀🍽️

I pierce my tongue through the night

Muffling my tears with my palm firm on my lips

Desperate to be kissed

My racing heart beating out of my chest

It’s starting all over again

I try to be quiet

Excuse myself to the bathroom

Not yet alone the walls echo

I’m tired

Staring blankly at the tiled walls

I slumber to the floor in defeat

I’m inpatient

But I believe one day you’ll come to me

And I’ll come to you

But for now I’ll pray for you

My Muse