@rbhvleo // Roberto Ferri // Mothering By Ainslie Hogarth // Rainer Maria Rilke // ? // Planet Of Love

My blouse is stained

I haven't changed it since yesterday

Not stained with dirt

But the tears that you steer

Till I'm broken and can't see clear

Are you satisfied?

Stuck on my phone

its getting late

And my eyes a sore

From the bright light, it emits

Like my burning desire for all of this to end

I can't fall asleep

I won't fall asleep again to your voice

Or dream of you again

Will you hold me like a child

Till the thunder quiets done

Till the darkness becomes light

It's Sunday but its still not the end of my pain

You're stained in my heart

I'm bleeding out on my blouse

Again.

Cries to degradation you were my separation I don’t know were to go from here.

I am going to eat 400-500 cals a day omad diet and keto diet .

then fast for 19-24 hrs .

then repeat everyday.

then I am going to walk 2-3 hours a day .

this should help me lose 2 lbs a day or more .

Thats what happened last time I did this diet .

“Why not?” Iykyk

I spend another night in my lonesome solitude

My very being withering away at the thought of

Losing you.

Please, put an end to this I cry with cold knees

Imprinting the rug that my tears drench as my

Heart is tugged by an invisible string.

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝐈𝐒 𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐇! 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐊 🎀🍽️

Oh, how badly I want to curse you for everything you’ve done to me. But I can’t… You were supposed to be someone who protected me and covered my ears and eyes from the evil in the world. Instead, you were my nightmares. I still cry myself to sleep. All my memories of you are clouded, dark, grey, and hazy, yet it feels like it happened yesterday. I hate you, but I so badly want to love you. It kills me to know that I'll never have that with you. I honestly believe you hated me ever since I was a child. I feel pathetic. I've just spent the whole night crying. I never know when to let go. A couple of months ago, I broke down crying in front of you while you sat there emotionless, and it looked honestly like you were forcing yourself to cry. Crocodile tears. You never fail to make it about you. I told you I almost ended myself, and you acted like I was telling a joke. You never deserved me. You never loved me.

I love you already more then my heart can bare. It’s heavy but I’ll carry the weight until it reaches you. You take mine and I’ll take yours. Then I’ll feel safe and warm. By your side. Be mine. My love. I love you like crazy. Always.

Every night just when i look up at the moon, i wonder if he’s looking at it too; and i don’t know what to do.

Cries in degradation you were my separation I don’t know were to go from here.

A new year begins yet nothing has ended.

A new year begins and I’m still in love with you.

It’s beginning to feel like deja vu.

I’m still here were you left me waiting for you to come get me.

Untouched ready for you to devour me.

Undoubtedly I’ll surrender to your touch.

Words just aren’t enough I need to melt in your embrace and never leave your place.