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hole inspections. reblog if you agree

I love reassurance and gentle reminders bc baby I am traumatized lmfao

Ughhhh I want a vibrator so badddd TwT my dom is gonna get me one eventually but the cheapest one is $25 and I don't have that, I have money to be used on important stuff like plates and stuff but not a vibrator. It's so frustratingggg ,0,-,0,

Lies Hidden on the Inside

You see that I smile 

You see that I cry

You see that I'm calm on the outside

But you don't know me.

You would know me if…

You knew how loud I scream inside

You knew how I hide that anger, scared to black out

You knew how my mum manipulated me, made me scared to let out that volcanic eruption of rage.

You see that I wear the clothes that I love

You see that I cry when I hurt my friends and family 

You see that I keep “bad” feelings inside

But you don't know me.

You would know me if you took a second to look in my eyes, at the emotion hidden inside, to feel the anger and rage boiling up inside like a kettle, water almost reaching the top. 

You would know me if…

you let me trust you enough to let you in

You would know me

But you don't. 

You don't know how I worry about my body, I hate the way I look, because my dad called me a slut.

You don't know how I forced myself to throw up because as a kid I was obese.

You don't know how I wasn't even allowed to hate because “hate is a strong word” so instead I said I “strongly disliked” someone or something instead. I felt too anxious to even feel my emotions fully because what if my family got upset about it because GOD FORBID I feel any emotion aside from happiness. 

You don't know how I've had to learn to gauge people's emotions so I didn't get hurt.

You don't know how I was raped 4 times and none of them got caught because obviously they're “mentally younger” than me so I'd get in trouble, not them. 

You don't know how everyday for years I cut just to feel something other than pain. 

You don't know me and I hope you never do.

I hope you never figure out my “lies hidden on the inside.” 

"Shhhhh, daddy, go back to bed, were having a meeting!!" -me in my head while daddy is 3/4s the way asleep but looked around for a second.

Backstory of how I got stuffies I got

My bear I got from my daddy, he gave it to me because he doesn't like the texture or the reminder. My daddy and I met at a homeless shelter last year on the 28th of October, a couple days later, on today, we started dating, and officially knew what we were each other. A while later his doggy died, he doesn't get sad when most family members die but when animals die it's different for him, he has more of a connection with fluffy friends than most human beings. He gave his teddy to me because

1. The texture

2. The memory

And 3. He knows I needed a piece of him to cuddle at night because they don't let you cuddle at shelters. You can hug and do quick kisses but at night when you're sleeping, you're not allowed cuddles.

The weird looking pink one came from a stuffie Jaide's "sperm donor" gave to her, it had a bigger stuffie and this one was in its tummy pocket like mommy and daughter so I took the baby one and Jaide has the mommy one.

The pastel cow I got from one of my friends I also met at the same shelter. He was gonna burn Pastella because she came from his ex-girlfriend who backstabbed him but I believe that it wasn't the stuffies fault so he gave her to me. I feel kinda bad though cause Pastella, Honey-Bun, and Jewel got put in the closet for a long time and got lost.

Honeybun and Jewel came from people giving a bunch of stuffies to my daughter but she has a bunch of stuffies already so I took a couple I thought were cute. I'm tempted to steal a stuffed Unicorn she has but I'm holding back.

I felt pretty in these pictures ❤️

Also doges

This is Tater Tot my little sister's dog

This is Sassy

This is Barney

This doge is named Tillie.

Reminder!

Drink your water because if you don't, you'll be dehydrated and won't have enough saliva to drool all over their dick like a dumb pet you are ❤️✨

Ughhhh I'm horny as fuck right now >∆< Need my dom to fuck me so hard I can't walk for a year 🥺 I also just need praise right now because I have been feeling down and stressed lately

My boyfriend decided to break me a couple times, I didn't know a game controller had such strong vibrations. He enjoys breaking me, leaving hickies in places people can't see and in places they can and I love it too. I have this thing I love, I love to be marked, to feel owned, no one else can have me, hell I have a collar too.

Cute lil mugs I bought for my partner and myself.

Also bought a lil frosting kit so I can make cakeee! 0^0